"thatll" poems
iWanna Run Away
For Bad.
iM Sad And iFeel Hopeless
The Only Thing That iFeel iCan Truly Feel Worth iT
is Dope.
iWanna Take A Hit.
iKnow il Feel Happy
Just if iGet Lit
iWanna Twist Just One last Time
Yes A Relapse
Thatll il risk
iKnow The Consequences
But this is it
iKnow il lose Everything once again but idk iF iHave Enough Heart
iLove, But Not Like iUsed to
This substance is
Powerful
Itll Take over
Its sour
iWanna use
And im getting closer to the point were i dont care if i lose...
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 4:16 AM UTC
Goodbyes are never good.
And hellos are never hell...
Well..
Howcome its always hard to tell?
When i met Amy..
she waved, like the ocean in the horizon view.
i mean, picture a Goddess herself, locking her eyes on you,
hypnotizing you,
Telling you all infinity lies in you,
Her heart hides in you,
Her vocal tone rises you...
Like the tide..
under the horizon view..
but her theory was dark. Like the side of the moon we don't see..
Weird, *** most of the time she was joyous and joke-sy.
But she had a mental intent.
to rent, an individuals mind until her emotion was spent.
Pitched up her tent,
Now she lives in my head.
i cant get rid of her, feeling blue when shes wearing red.
i cant get ahead..
i need her,
I bleed her.
i read her.
i see her.
She runs thru my mind mind so much,
even my feet hurt.
but shes evil.
Reveling in my chaos and depression.
her sole mission is to leave me well wishin..
fishing for hope, with nothing in my view.
except the horizon.
i cant forget her eyes'n....
the way she caressed my hand in the midst of my anger.
but its sad to say her theory just brings me danger..
she says she cant be happy if im happy.
i cant believe she can say that,
I mean,
sure shes a Ten..
sure shes a friend..
sure when i ask her to come over she always says, when..
i mean i dont ever wanna put her down...
Amy's my PEN.
the pen that stood beside me when i wrote my lifestory.
the pen that stays truthful even if it gets gory.
the pen that keeps me sane and even takes over for me,
The pen that allows me the hope to reach glory..and see..
the same pen that forces me write daily im trapped,
Confined in this desk, Hennessy spilled on my lap,
lost in life, blank map im tryna fill in the gap,
Last thing i needs a fucken object that keeps giving me crap!
Still ill love her forever, and never ever leave, thatll never occur...
my pen, i named her amy and sometimes i feel that i write for her.
-afj
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 6:37 PM UTC
Darling, youll be ok
I know its easier to say
But baby she doesnt deserve you
so darling dont feel blue
Now this isnt a love song
Im just saying you did nothing wrong
Darling stay strong now
Pretty soon she will ask how
How the hell did she just leave
But baby thatll be when you feel relief
Darling, youll be ok....
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 11:03 PM UTC
Written words on a page
Only scream as loud as they are read
Lost along cycles of habits that have led to nowhere
Reaching for any hand thatll reach back
And help drag me out of the hole I've created
Sep 30, 2024
Sep 30, 2024 at 5:01 AM UTC
It's not enough to complain
It's not enough to feel shame
It's not enough to give up after
U fail. It's not enough to go blame
The neighborhood u grew in
Or the ppl u were around
No excuse is enough to justify
So u can just deny knowing how
To succeed and exceed what u
perceive in your dreams
It's not enough to just proceed if u
bleed for what u believe by all means
It's not enough to try, give up and Cry
while u surrender and accept this
Cuz hardheaded and stubborn
when positive, is called relentless
So address this where your address is
and if u find no way
There's a huge world out there,
so learn while u search and maybe one day
Ill see u on the other side
Where no one ******* or complains
Where no one is slowed by
Failure or fear cuz they're driven by pain
Where u don't even need a brain
Just passion and will
Cause if your still ****** breathing
Than be believing u have a chance still
And I write this not only to ****
The doubt that poisons ur mind
But while stressin im confessin
Ill admit this is to **** mine
Cuz we all get weak at times
Where we actually consider
birthing a child of regret while bitter
And becoming its full time babysitter
Conceived with life thatll ***** you
Without any protection
And even those who oppose abortion
Would see this as the exception
Just make sure u never let them
C- section your heart
Keep fighting back, cuz keeping Faith
when life falls apart is nothing short of an art
It can be beautiful but dark
It can be abstract and expensive
And remember stubborn and hard headed
when positive is called relentless
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 11:06 PM UTC
You're just a **** and should be left alone
Its what you want anyways, people dont like your tone
Always on guard ready for a fight
Even when theres no need, your always right
You big ********* saying you wont answer stupid questions
When the answers are obvious thatll teach them a lesson
You have reasons you're so snappy
It makes people cry, nobodys happy
And when that happens you turn to stone
Cant deal with emotions leave them alone
Beacause people **** you off, or you're just a ****
Its your fault relationships never worked
You think you know whats best
But people never listen so save your breath
Push everyone away so they cant ask for ****
Afterall you give what you get
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018 at 4:35 AM UTC
How I read your words and invision the taste of the lips that spoke them into a page scented with your essence.
I travel on road and gravel,
pavement im enslaved and it hurts,
the distance is far
like life under earth,
reachin for light and air
but cursed and trapped wanderin
and wondering, pondering
while sombering,
alive yets death is the sight far from your touch,
Whom I seek is the love not rushed but hushed soft like plush that write rights with a right that was never left hangin wen pledging their soul infront of christ, is that too much? Im crushed..
A kiss for an eternity thatll leave the waves crashin the rocks on the spot we saw the sun set, a memory distant like mines from you, i rot.
Darken my thoughts seem but the intent to remain the same as the same I was wen we split, I am.
but change came in the appearance,
because im looking more for you than what I left behind.
Because I want a piece of you for me, and not what used to be mine.
You see im just here waiting the scene to take place,
where the rain will tickle my face,
trickle down in my past tears place and trace,
only to see you look back once and tell me I wasnt your mistake,
I made you better , something! Like sometimes It hard to leave when you still have alot to give , but time wasnt in the place to have those gifts be presented,
Now the presence is a wishlist of things thatll never live up too.
Like finding a love like you...
By Emmanuel jv Hernandez
Nov 13, 2015
Nov 13, 2015 at 12:58 AM UTC
This is the moment ive been waiting for,
This is why i moved out of the basement, walked right out the door.
Stepped out side, got shaded
Went back in and calculated
I finally found the recipe,
thatll make my enemies rest in peace,
While i sip Mai Tai's on the beach,
making money off these sheep
Im out, peace ✌
Apr 29, 2018
Apr 29, 2018 at 12:40 AM UTC
Look at me and tell me what you see
No emotions and darkness you seek
Barriers are build with mirror and shades
But step closer and see this is all fake
A shell of no effection
No emotions
All dark and silent
Holding on to an ego
A reputation
Of manipulation
Lost sensations
You think im strong
You think im cold hearted
Dont care
Shes too chill
Well break that shell of ice
And look beneath that frame of lies
Because behind all of that ash
Is a baby girl that got stabbed in the back
No she doesnt want to look back
All of the past
Made her what she is now
And you think
She is
The strong ***** thatll deffend
But no shes forced
Shes hurt
Shes lost
So many battles that she stopped fighting
She stopped caring
But she cries
And she hides
Every ******* night
Her insecure
Her loved ones
Her memories
And what hurts her
She cares
she loves
she dreams and shes pink
but life and everyone has put her down
So many times that she hides
Behind a mask of lies
To protect her fragile
Yeah i mean after all of those times
She fell
But She stood
With a crown
And no sound
Cause she tired
And shes alone
Maybe shes waiting
For a prince or savious
To look beneath her and see
That behind this worrier
Is a ************* queen
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 8:34 PM UTC
Im out of love
Im out of this fraud
Im done
Ive been hurt so many times
I stopped this smile
And everything is a lie
Now
To protect myself
I set berrier with everyone else
No more trust
No more lust
its just me
I see no us
It hurts but the pain
Never goes
So id rather hurt myself
Thousand time more
Than see me not strong
In love or caring
Sharing all of this has stopped
No more stabbs
No more dissapoints
I know im down alone
But ill break my heart rather my soul
Cause my hearts not cold
But i have a black soul
Thatll cover my reputation infront of yall
And show
How strong
Not a little girl anymore
A disguise
To survive
Behind a lie
So heres the deal that i ought
ill leave my ego with you
And my problems with me
And everything will be
Youll see
The big picture of me
And ill make sure
To hide from you
All the insecures
And Whats down
Inside
It Wont come out
Until someday
Maybe
We might find out.
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 9:13 PM UTC
trapped in a box
but i really dont mind
glass bottle on the shelf thatll help the rewind
back to when troubles were lined
rehearsed before you got the ticket or fined
you walk around with your head on your *** cuz you got spined
i laugh with my head in the clouds that stop before nine
its closed up shop
too full for at the top
god said i only take the cream of the crop
and you can stand outside with those white cops
yea that was a stab at white people
i know what race i am
but you dont know when the race began
im just saying life aint fair
yea got that straight hair mole on face
temper too short
for you to walk your *** to the water of grace
its too hot out
and i cant stand this
other peoples can even find there manners
to shut the **** up
and get on with life
no color will decide gods price
not time or brother too good for that dice
we will all learn that we are all just mice
Sep 25, 2014
Sep 25, 2014 at 11:21 PM UTC
Tell them a story
Use allegory
Wrapped up in culture
Tell them a story
With a moral
thatll make them seek
The truth for themselves
Their truth
Ain’t my truth
My truth
Ain’t your truth
Your truth
Ain’t their truth
There’s only one universal truth
But many ways to find it
I haven’t found it yet
No one has
But I do know this
Whatever it is
We may not wanna now
For I’d we did
Our world would singular
And boring
Life’s about chasing
Not catching
Sep 29, 2019
Sep 29, 2019 at 11:03 AM UTC
Send the call out,
Let all our boys hear the noise.
Theres gonna be a meet up,
So put on your jackets and bring your lights,
Were gonna run free through these streets.
Send out the message,
To all our girls,
Theres gonna be a party,
So put on your fine dresses and bring your things,
Were gonna feel alive through these streets.
We live in cities thatll never be named on the television,
It’s a ruin of our family dreams.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:50 PM UTC
leave
but dont go far
for you have not the energy
wonder by daylight
retreat from dark
for as much as you love it
you dont know it truly
admire the sky
but dont look up too much
youll get a crick in your neck
thatll last all day
go out
but for gods sake
dont leave the cage
you worked so hard to build
if you go too far
youll lose your way back
and have to rebuild it all
sorry but
i outgrew this cage
a decade ago
Mar 18, 2018
Mar 18, 2018 at 12:39 AM UTC
syrup
whats your address. I found you yesterday. play by the sill,
cut it up now. babe,
hens in a row, fish -bat carnival. ''2 will do''
So I wrote a story about some guy bob and he didn't want a noose
shelled out a 40$. thatll **** you for an hour -
I love it,
love is like a dark glass zoo
Nov 18, 2018
Nov 18, 2018 at 2:29 PM UTC