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We’d been together so long, it seemed That nothing could tear us apart, We lived our lives in a world of dreams And Barbara lived in my heart, But frost had covered the window pane And then it began to snow, As Barbara turned, with a look of pain And said, ‘It’s best that you go.’ I didn’t know what she meant at first As I looked up from my book, “Go where?’ I questioned, but thought again As she quelled my heart with a look. ‘I said I want you to leave,’ she cried, And her face was set in stone, ‘We’ve come to the end of the path,’ she sighed, ‘I want to be left alone.’ Then suddenly all confusion reined I didn’t know what to say, Whatever had brought this mood on her, I wished it would go away. But she was firm, and she packed my things And ushered me out the door, I stood there shivering in the cold To be back on my own once more. I found a flat and I camped the night There was barely a stick or chair, I’d have to buy all the furniture To make it a home in there. But I sat and cried in the empty room As the question came back, ‘Why?’ I’d loved her so and my heart was torn, I thought I wanted to die. I went to her with my questions, but She slammed the door in my face, Whatever love she had had for me Had vanished, without a trace. It hurt so much that she cut me off With never so much as a sigh, I called that all that I wanted was To tell me the reason, why? The roses had bloomed so late that year Were still in the garden bed, We’d always tended the bush with joy, We both loved the colour red, So I snipped one off as I left one day, And planted it under her door, To let her know that I loved her still I didn’t know how to say more. Her brother called in a week or so, Said she was in hospital, She’d gone in just for a minor cure And thought that he’d better tell. So I caught the bus and I went on down With a quaking fear in my heart, She hadn’t said there was something wrong Before she tore us apart. The doctor came in his long white coat, His brow and his face was grim, I said, ‘Don’t tell me the news is bad,’ He said, ‘I’m out on a limb. Your wife just passed from the surgery, But she pulled, from under her clothes, And asked if I’d pass this on to you,’ In his hand was a red, red rose. David Lewis Paget
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Jan 14, 2017
Jan 14, 2017 at 1:10 AM UTC
The Rose
We’d been together so long, it seemed That nothing could tear us apart, We lived our lives in a world of dreams And Barbara lived in my heart, But frost had covered the window pane And then it began to snow, As Barbara turned, with a look of pain And said, ‘It’s best that you go.’ I didn’t know what she meant at first As I looked up from my book, “Go where?’ I questioned, but thought again As she quelled my heart with a look. ‘I said I want you to leave,’ she cried, And her face was set in stone, ‘We’ve come to the end of the path,’ she sighed, ‘I want to be left alone.’ Then suddenly all confusion reined I didn’t know what to say, Whatever had brought this mood on her, I wished it would go away. But she was firm, and she packed my things And ushered me out the door, I stood there shivering in the cold To be back on my own once more. I found a flat and I camped the night There was barely a stick or chair, I’d have to buy all the furniture To make it a home in there. But I sat and cried in the empty room As the question came back, ‘Why?’ I’d loved her so and my heart was torn, I thought I wanted to die. I went to her with my questions, but She slammed the door in my face, Whatever love she had had for me Had vanished, without a trace. It hurt so much that she cut me off With never so much as a sigh, I called that all that I wanted was To tell me the reason, why? The roses had bloomed so late that year Were still in the garden bed, We’d always tended the bush with joy, We both loved the colour red, So I snipped one off as I left one day, And planted it under her door, To let her know that I loved her still I didn’t know how to say more. Her brother called in a week or so, Said she was in hospital, She’d gone in just for a minor cure And thought that he’d better tell. So I caught the bus and I went on down With a quaking fear in my heart, She hadn’t said there was something wrong Before she tore us apart. The doctor came in his long white coat, His brow and his face was grim, I said, ‘Don’t tell me the news is bad,’ He said, ‘I’m out on a limb. Your wife just passed from the surgery, But she pulled, from under her clothes, And asked if I’d pass this on to you,’ In his hand was a red, red rose. David Lewis Paget
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My name is Ashly (yes spelled without the E) I was born without a windpipe and was 3 months premature. I underwent surgery for a tracheostomy and died on the operating table. I was revived. I was hooked up to many machines and my parents were told I wouldn’t live for more then 3 days... If I would survive more then 3 days I would be hooked up to machines my whole life and be in a “vegetative state” Doctors told my parents and family “I would never live to see my 18th birthday.” I lived in the hospital for almost 2 years. At age 2, I myself, ripped out my tracheostomy (which could have killed me) My family rushed me to children’s hospital and the doctors decided to let the hole in my neck close and see what happens. My doctors don’t know how I made it through the night or days after. I went home after a couple weeks and that’s when I started living my life as a “normal” child. All of my sisters were involved in dance classes, my parents( doctors didn’t agree) enrolled me in to classes. THATS WHERE MY LIFE CHANGED Dance became my passion, along with gymnastics and musical theatre. Something my family, doctors or even myself never thought I would EVER do. On my 18th birthday it was a mixture of emotions. I made a milestone that no one said I would ever see. I competed in dance and gymnastics until I was 19 years of age as well as did over 60 musicals at my local theatre company. I never thought I would ever have a boy love me because I had “too many problems” or even get married for that matter. Fast forward, I am now almost 33 ( June .11th is my birthday) Married for almost 8 years to my best friend. Happy doesn’t even cover what I feel everyday waking up next to my love. We may not have a “family” of our own but we are happy and in love over the moon with one another. So why did I just ramble on with this? Because I’m a MIRACLE and a SURVIVOR. Even though I don’t remember much from my childhood and what I and my family had to endure, I have been fighter since my first breath. I’M A SURVIVOR and I’VE MADE IT....
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Mar 18, 2018
Mar 18, 2018 at 3:09 PM UTC
I’m a SURVIVOR
My name is Ashly (yes spelled without the E) I was born without a windpipe and was 3 months premature. I underwent surgery for a tracheostomy and died on the operating table. I was revived. I was hooked up to many machines and my parents were told I wouldn’t live for more then 3 days... If I would survive more then 3 days I would be hooked up to machines my whole life and be in a “vegetative state” Doctors told my parents and family “I would never live to see my 18th birthday.” I lived in the hospital for almost 2 years. At age 2, I myself, ripped out my tracheostomy (which could have killed me) My family rushed me to children’s hospital and the doctors decided to let the hole in my neck close and see what happens. My doctors don’t know how I made it through the night or days after. I went home after a couple weeks and that’s when I started living my life as a “normal” child. All of my sisters were involved in dance classes, my parents( doctors didn’t agree) enrolled me in to classes. THATS WHERE MY LIFE CHANGED Dance became my passion, along with gymnastics and musical theatre. Something my family, doctors or even myself never thought I would EVER do. On my 18th birthday it was a mixture of emotions. I made a milestone that no one said I would ever see. I competed in dance and gymnastics until I was 19 years of age as well as did over 60 musicals at my local theatre company. I never thought I would ever have a boy love me because I had “too many problems” or even get married for that matter. Fast forward, I am now almost 33 ( June .11th is my birthday) Married for almost 8 years to my best friend. Happy doesn’t even cover what I feel everyday waking up next to my love. We may not have a “family” of our own but we are happy and in love over the moon with one another. So why did I just ramble on with this? Because I’m a MIRACLE and a SURVIVOR. Even though I don’t remember much from my childhood and what I and my family had to endure, I have been fighter since my first breath. I’M A SURVIVOR and I’VE MADE IT....
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Minsan magtataka ka Sa kung paano nagsimula Ano ang dulot o sanhi? **Paano ang bukas Kung ang ngayon ay wala na.** Makitid ang daan Patungo sa kabilang espasyo Malayo sa drogang gamot daw. Naryan ang nars Ang sekretaryang nanghihina Mga eroplanong papel Simbolo pala ng iilang humihinga. Takot at may kirot Umuusbong ang sanhing nakakasuka Mga imaheng kilabot sa sikmura Walang nakaririnig Mananatiling pipi't bingi Kahit sandali, kahit sandali lang. Itim ang kulay ng pag-asa Naroon ang pangarap Naroon ang solusyon Tila nag-aabang Sa kakarampot na grasya.
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Jul 2, 2014
Jul 2, 2014 at 2:47 AM UTC
Future Surgery
If I'm the Doctor,you're the nurse This surgery couldn't get any worse Until I find out I'm not a Doctor- or a Miracle worker. You're so close from pulling the red right out of me Now you made it blue Like the artificial coloring dyes I really can't say goodbye
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Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 3:45 PM UTC
Surgery Without Knowledge
You don't see me in the night, My ears pricked for every sound I hear In the dark, like a stag poised for flight, And my conscience seeing surgery, Each sound a cut to my ear. Guarding your thoughts with my warmth, Enclosing you with my poised embrace In the dark, barely breathing by your ear, And waiting for night to end Its careless gentle march Before your breath must cease. Staying up til morning to see you safe, Knowing you won't see me standing over you In the dark, fighting the sickness with my eye, And hand gently stroking your hair Until our fragile bodies fade And your wishful dreams hold true.
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Apr 10, 2015
Apr 10, 2015 at 9:17 PM UTC
Resilience III
A bit off the heel and a bit off the toe, It won't hurt very much, and they're pretty, you know. I've got the perfect pair of shoes for you, All you need is some fitting- an inch off or two. A slice of skin here and a little blood there, These are the most beautiful shoes you could wear. Let you go? Heavens no! I admire you so With your perfect physique And your delicate feet. Oh it's only a smidgen, a droplet of blood! Come now dear, no one's fond of a stick in the mud. Come- rush to the ball and we'll all have such fun! On second thought, maybe you, ah... shouldn't run... It's worth it, though, isn't it? These beautiful shoes. And darling, they look so exquisite on you. There now, not so bad, and they fit perfectly, All you needed was just a little surgery. Now let's off to the ball and you'll dance all night long. No silly, don't cry, you've got it all wrong! I told you- you're beautiful just how you are, Now come on and stop whining, you don't have to walk far. But you see, there's no daughter, or stepmom, or shoes. There's none of those things- there is me and there's you. And you've got this idea of what I'm s'posed to be, And as hard as I try, I'm not her, love, I'm me. I'm afraid that no matter how much pain I bear, I just don't fit in the shoes you are making me wear.
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Mar 31, 2013
Mar 31, 2013 at 7:32 PM UTC
***** Boots or Glass Slippers
You said The most brilliant thing You said it was Like a heart surgery But he was only a Surgeon in training And had neglected to Mention beforehand That it was only Exploratory cardiac surgery; And it was just for his Simmering curiosity *(He couldn't have carried Out a simple angioplasty?)* That he cut the aorta That's what you said And his curiosity subsided; And he left as you bled.
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Jul 2, 2014
Jul 2, 2014 at 5:54 AM UTC
Cardiovascular Surgery
I wrote you a poem and all you said was “I love you!” and I need a whole lot more than that   Did you know Marilyn Monroe was borderline too and what did that leave her besides a suicidal mess I do not look up to? But I guess she did **** JFK so there's that Today is valentines day and I didn’t say anthing to you about it because I know you hate February 14 because 2 years ago you had that major surgery You didn’t talk to me until 4:20 today and that was only to laugh about the timing and it's really hard for me to not tell you that I wanted to **** myself today but instead I wrote 5 poems and drank too much coffee and **** I would really **** for a cigarette right now that I have to use my charm to get because im only 17 but somehow I always “forget” my ID and wear a low cut shirt and flirt openly with the 40 year old indian guy across the counter just so I can get my illegal nicotine I wonder what my mother would say about that
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Feb 14, 2014
Feb 14, 2014 at 10:55 PM UTC
Borderline Personality Disorder
I hold the feather’s weight of your artery in my pick-ups, and tiptoe the tightrope about which life and death abuts. You’re a 2 AM trauma and we still don’t know your name, the social worker’s thin lips had mouthed: “estranged.” I read your anatomy like a text as you flat-line: your hands turn blue as your heart falls still in mine. The monitor hums "out of time," but by Epinephrine, and Grace, your chest resumes its rise. I leave trauma bay in prayer: for the surviving, not the knife; for the closeness of my hands in your chest, our joining in this life. Tonight I see you at the Kroger, buying TV dinners and beer. I hide behind cereal, admiring the life I’d held dear. But you look so tired, and my heart breaks for how when you died, I would’ve sold the shoes off my feet to buy you more time. I wish you knew how precious was each of your heartbeats, I wish you the wisdom of my view: How fragile the stent is where your veins meet.
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Apr 5, 2018
Apr 5, 2018 at 7:32 PM UTC
A brief history of surgery
Love is a ***** soup going stale but steaming like it's brand new; And I'm Oliver twist walking up to the *** with a rusty spoon full of desire and hope asking for more but getting none. Love is a Doctor gathering dead bodies and shackling them up in chains; And I'm a green freak with Frankenstein bolts ****** through my head walking around with only a mumble to muster trying to love people who just want to run away. Love is a white paper rolled so finely, full of sedatives and drugs; And I'm sitting by a fire reaching in for a log to smoke. Love is puzzle made by Einstein and Sam Loyd; And I'm a child with eyes made of glass and hands made of thorns crying to my mother because that puzzle is a ***** Love is Navy Seal training on a beach covered in cold water spilling blood for a chance; And I'm a pot-smoking hippie who holds up signs and tells soldiers they’re monsters as I take a puff of death. Love is a ten-syllable word compacted into one; And I'm a hooked on phonics children’s thesaurus struggling to find a comparison that I can actually pronounce. Love is a white egg timer sitting on the fridge set to all nines; And I'm a busy housewife waiting to cook dinner at the sound of its bell. Love is a robber with a 45 in his belt; And I'm an eager dad trying to protect his family with a wooden stick. Love is hot coffee from a luxury beverage shop; And I'm a plastic party cup melting away. Love is a doctor with a PHD in heart surgery; And I'm a sick child waiting with his mother with no healthcare ******* on a free doctor’s-office lollypop. Love is a huge pink eraser; And I'm a graphite pencil struggling to write while me and the eraser fight. Love is a pickup truck speeding through town drunk; And I'm a lost puppy running through the same intersection looking for my owner. Love is meant for fish; And I'm a bird.
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Dec 21, 2012
Dec 21, 2012 at 12:18 PM UTC
Love
Love is a ***** soup going stale but steaming like it's brand new; And I'm Oliver twist walking up to the *** with a rusty spoon full of desire and hope asking for more but getting none. Love is a Doctor gathering dead bodies and shackling them up in chains; And I'm a green freak with Frankenstein bolts ****** through my head walking around with only a mumble to muster trying to love people who just want to run away. Love is a white paper rolled so finely, full of sedatives and drugs; And I'm sitting by a fire reaching in for a log to smoke. Love is puzzle made by Einstein and Sam Loyd; And I'm a child with eyes made of glass and hands made of thorns crying to my mother because that puzzle is a ***** Love is Navy Seal training on a beach covered in cold water spilling blood for a chance; And I'm a pot-smoking hippie who holds up signs and tells soldiers they’re monsters as I take a puff of death. Love is a ten-syllable word compacted into one; And I'm a hooked on phonics children’s thesaurus struggling to find a comparison that I can actually pronounce. Love is a white egg timer sitting on the fridge set to all nines; And I'm a busy housewife waiting to cook dinner at the sound of its bell. Love is a robber with a 45 in his belt; And I'm an eager dad trying to protect his family with a wooden stick. Love is hot coffee from a luxury beverage shop; And I'm a plastic party cup melting away. Love is a doctor with a PHD in heart surgery; And I'm a sick child waiting with his mother with no healthcare ******* on a free doctor’s-office lollypop. Love is a huge pink eraser; And I'm a graphite pencil struggling to write while me and the eraser fight. Love is a pickup truck speeding through town drunk; And I'm a lost puppy running through the same intersection looking for my owner. Love is meant for fish; And I'm a bird.
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Off the train I hit the streets and start laughing. This is ridiculous, incomprehensible. How can innumerable bipeds have individual inner lives. Why are they doing what they’re doing? I have no answer New York City but to also go about my business in this case prepare for surgery, survival. But why survive with so many exact replicas to replace me? A swarm of ants or hive of bees, social organisms they’re called, climbing over each other, avoiding bumping and amazingly making way, anticipating the sudden turns and straight paths of others, strangers but brothers, sisters incubating, the cells of a small ***** nodes of a single semi-conscious organism. The concept of a higher power that cares for me is also risible yet how else can I explain the surgeon and his team, robots and magnetic resonance imaging machines, all primed and trained to save my life. They are not particularly interested in what I do with my time. I am immediately in love with the Irish brogue of the head nurse, the Indian skin of the physician’s assistant. The long extraordinarily thin fingers of the famous surgeon. All mine to savor (and the other cancer patients). Despair, lose all hope that’s what the sign says at the gates of hell and at the Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center the sign says Be kind to our customers who are waiting and suffering. Yesterday’s suicidal thoughts: the mind is a clever servant, insufferable master. Therefore, meditate on this: absolute need, dependence on the Other. I still like Hombre, The Shootist and Ulzana’s Raid but realize those dead heroes were subordinate to society: the gun manufacturers who armed them. Thus, I go for cancer tests, accepting, not predicting results. Hero accepting help. A torrential rain following five days of flooding, tornadoes out west busting up wooden towns all because too many of us are hoarding plastic, herding electrons. None of us know how it will end, what the outcome will be (of our surgery). The best that can be said is Don’t forget to breathe. And you might as well believe in that higher power.
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Mar 5, 2019
Mar 5, 2019 at 6:00 AM UTC
Upper Manhattan Medical Group
Off the train I hit the streets and start laughing. This is ridiculous, incomprehensible. How can innumerable bipeds have individual inner lives. Why are they doing what they’re doing? I have no answer New York City but to also go about my business in this case prepare for surgery, survival. But why survive with so many exact replicas to replace me? A swarm of ants or hive of bees, social organisms they’re called, climbing over each other, avoiding bumping and amazingly making way, anticipating the sudden turns and straight paths of others, strangers but brothers, sisters incubating, the cells of a small ***** nodes of a single semi-conscious organism. The concept of a higher power that cares for me is also risible yet how else can I explain the surgeon and his team, robots and magnetic resonance imaging machines, all primed and trained to save my life. They are not particularly interested in what I do with my time. I am immediately in love with the Irish brogue of the head nurse, the Indian skin of the physician’s assistant. The long extraordinarily thin fingers of the famous surgeon. All mine to savor (and the other cancer patients). Despair, lose all hope that’s what the sign says at the gates of hell and at the Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center the sign says Be kind to our customers who are waiting and suffering. Yesterday’s suicidal thoughts: the mind is a clever servant, insufferable master. Therefore, meditate on this: absolute need, dependence on the Other. I still like Hombre, The Shootist and Ulzana’s Raid but realize those dead heroes were subordinate to society: the gun manufacturers who armed them. Thus, I go for cancer tests, accepting, not predicting results. Hero accepting help. A torrential rain following five days of flooding, tornadoes out west busting up wooden towns all because too many of us are hoarding plastic, herding electrons. None of us know how it will end, what the outcome will be (of our surgery). The best that can be said is Don’t forget to breathe. And you might as well believe in that higher power.
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*‘Twas the night before surgery, and all through the house, no one was stirring, not even my spouse. Suddenly I awoke with such a terrible fright “Oh, my! It’s 11:45, and I must eat before midnight!” So I ran for the kitchen with nay a moment to spare, because I cannot eat after midnight; No way! I wouldn’t dare! There I stood in the middle of the room, staring at the fridge wondering what to consume. Then it hit me; “I know what to make!” It’s fast and it’s tasty, a BIG chocolate milkshake! But when I turned on the blender it made such a loud noise, that it woke up my husband, and it woke up our boys. So they came in and stared at me, much to my demise They all looked so bewildered as they rubbed their sleepy eyes. Then they saw the blender and realized what was there, “You all might as well go back to bed, ‘cause I’m not about to share!” I poured it into a very large glass; I filled it to the top. Then I drank until it was gone, & I felt like I could pop. One by one, the hours crept by, as I laid awake counting sheep. That stupid milkshake made my stomach ache, and I couldn’t go back to sleep! ‘Twas the night before surgery, and there in my house; they all slept soundly, including my spouse.*
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Jul 13, 2013
Jul 13, 2013 at 1:48 PM UTC
~ 'Twas The Night Before Surgery ~
- - We've made iPhone covers for our hearts So we can pretend that we're just texting when it feels awkward just connecting, face-down on the pavement of another human soul.
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Feb 21, 2013
Feb 21, 2013 at 5:59 PM UTC
Plastic Surgery
#teamara As in the nub of the remains of crayola crayon that’s been used to color in so many smiling cartoon suns on a piece of paper- Her favorite color is yellow. And I don’t mean a wimpy *** pastel yellow or sometimes a pale yellow I mean her favorite color is bright *** yellow. Like Pikachu yellow. Like she’s almost nineteen but she’s still willing to play Gameboy Pokemon yellow. There’s something innocent yet corny kind of yellow about her. She’s beautiful like yellow jirasol petals She’s intricate as yellow thread woven in a Rasta Dom She’s yellow like gold and Africa She’s sweet like pineapples and delicate like daffodils I still don’t know why her favorite color is yellow Maybe it has to do with her fascination of Asian men… I mean! ...with the continent of Asia She thinks she’s more like pink Japanese cherry blossom trees in the summer But I know she’s truly yellow petals on Paolo Verde trees blowing in the wind spreading around Tucson A metaphor for her love She’s yellow like the color in the middle of my pride rainbow- She supports me She’s yellow like the big painted sun at the hospital with a big grin I wonder why nobody smiles at hospitals The place where life is easily given as taken Where we are reminded that our health is sometimes taken for granted Other than that great big yellow sun She is the only that radiates yellow and smiles In waiting rooms, she seems like she’s the calmest Even though she’s the only one going through surgery She’s so beautiful on the inside her body can’t even take it She doesn’t deserve scions or scalpels to even be considered touching her bronze skin I wish instead they would strip down the color yellow from my life And give it to her to make her smile so bright that even word “cancer” would cease to exist But still. Even through pain and hardships She still smiles. Not only is she yellow when she’s happy She tends to radiate yellow even when she’s gloomy When I’m upset, her aura has way of rubbing off on mine And I get insight to why her favorite color is yellow *** she’s the kind of yellow that represents strength She’s yellow like tall forts made from gold bars She’s yellow like flames that roll of her tongue when she spits fire She’s yellow like a crayola-crayon… except she can’t be broken From her, I’m learning That even when you’re hurting You can still shine bright like your favorite color.
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Dec 3, 2012
Dec 3, 2012 at 3:55 PM UTC
yellow.
#teamara As in the nub of the remains of crayola crayon that’s been used to color in so many smiling cartoon suns on a piece of paper- Her favorite color is yellow. And I don’t mean a wimpy *** pastel yellow or sometimes a pale yellow I mean her favorite color is bright *** yellow. Like Pikachu yellow. Like she’s almost nineteen but she’s still willing to play Gameboy Pokemon yellow. There’s something innocent yet corny kind of yellow about her. She’s beautiful like yellow jirasol petals She’s intricate as yellow thread woven in a Rasta Dom She’s yellow like gold and Africa She’s sweet like pineapples and delicate like daffodils I still don’t know why her favorite color is yellow Maybe it has to do with her fascination of Asian men… I mean! ...with the continent of Asia She thinks she’s more like pink Japanese cherry blossom trees in the summer But I know she’s truly yellow petals on Paolo Verde trees blowing in the wind spreading around Tucson A metaphor for her love She’s yellow like the color in the middle of my pride rainbow- She supports me She’s yellow like the big painted sun at the hospital with a big grin I wonder why nobody smiles at hospitals The place where life is easily given as taken Where we are reminded that our health is sometimes taken for granted Other than that great big yellow sun She is the only that radiates yellow and smiles In waiting rooms, she seems like she’s the calmest Even though she’s the only one going through surgery She’s so beautiful on the inside her body can’t even take it She doesn’t deserve scions or scalpels to even be considered touching her bronze skin I wish instead they would strip down the color yellow from my life And give it to her to make her smile so bright that even word “cancer” would cease to exist But still. Even through pain and hardships She still smiles. Not only is she yellow when she’s happy She tends to radiate yellow even when she’s gloomy When I’m upset, her aura has way of rubbing off on mine And I get insight to why her favorite color is yellow *** she’s the kind of yellow that represents strength She’s yellow like tall forts made from gold bars She’s yellow like flames that roll of her tongue when she spits fire She’s yellow like a crayola-crayon… except she can’t be broken From her, I’m learning That even when you’re hurting You can still shine bright like your favorite color.
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The doctor tells me my results. Three injuries in one. I would need surgery. Tears welled in my eyes. I could no longer play the sports I loved. Was this the end? My ACL decided athletics had taken it's toll, and my menisci was right along with it. The bruised bone was a bonus though. Was this the end? Could I emotionally handle the recovery? The recovery of heartbreak from simple test results The recovery from physical damage The recovery of surgery that joined my main muscles back together again The recovery of a new muscle, foreign to me Will I ever be fully recovered?
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Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 12:32 AM UTC
Emotional Recovery
Probability. I sit here in class, Seeing my teacher talk; It's probably something useful On probability. How about the probability of my life? Probability to do my homework; Non because I've been called a ******** so many times, I've given up. Probability of me getting the perfectly imperfect version of a boyfriend; Zilch because no one appreciates a young healthy, very curvy sophomore with a DD, Yet people who make fun of me will WISH and HOPE for my ******* in their future years They will even get surgery just to make themselves like me, So what is the practical probability they stop making fun of me; Zilch! Probability that I will be seen as more than an object to others; ******** to none because I don't make an effort anymore, not after sixth grade. Probability I will ever feel completely good about myself as a whole; Maybe because I have six awesome friends who don't put me down. Probability my life will get better; Someday but not today My past made an irreplaceable mark on me And my probability. Will the percentage grow, Along with my hopes?
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Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 11:40 PM UTC
Probability
The robotic surgeon didn't blink Smoke, swear, or fool around; He was the newest design of science His metal feet firmly on the ground. Robotic surgery was the latest Improvement over the manual kind There were no variations in technique; No reliance on flaky mind. He was diligent and precise Cutting flesh to invisible templates; He never erred and he never missed Never once paused, to vacillate. Trusted beyond the regular surgeon, Using his fragile, shaking hands; The robotic surgeon could do anything Because he wasn't just a man. The newest miracle of science was hailed As the end, to the older style; But one day the program blew a fuse- And he cut her head off, by a mile.
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Jun 30, 2010
Jun 30, 2010 at 8:20 AM UTC
The Robotic Surgeon
Face after face after face, they stare out at me. I look into eyes full of hope and pain, fear and courage, longing and loneliness, and the faces, the voices, the yearning are all my own. How are we to find the one who is looking for us, with that unique blend of terror and anticipation that makes us their "perfect match?" We each want to change our subscription to the romance channel. No more docu-dramas, please! So much history, so many angry silent nights The full moon mocking, cold and distant. Please care. Talk to me. Hold my hand-- Dance with me! Be fun! Make me laugh-- Don't hurt me. Please, don't hurt me! We smile bravely for the camera, affecting a nonchalance that is gone forever, and we show our friends that we have recovered-- the surgery was completely successful! See? The scar is barely visible, true. But tell me honestly, can you really feel life Now, through the scar tissue of Then?
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Dec 25, 2010
Dec 25, 2010 at 3:05 PM UTC
Perfect Match?
Dear Me, I love you and I know I haven't been fair to us For most of our life really I tend to let others lead me Sway my desires And otherwise dictate my life I think I'm afraid to admit that I'm real That I'm alive and a person Due to our ****** up past But that's not an excuse anymore There are good things in life now Top surgery in November Our job has picked back up again And we're experiencing grad school I understand that life is scary and That nothing seems good for long But we can move towards happiness Choose to see the good in things Stop complaining and Focusing on the bad things in life We can grow together Find ourselves And finally find the best way to be happy OUR best way We got this I love you -Carter
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Sep 12, 2018
Sep 12, 2018 at 4:39 PM UTC
A Letter to Myself
The first time you hear "Beauty is pain" Is when your mother is brushing tangles Out of your hair You're too young to care The next time Is when you're getting your hair done For an event Bobby pins everywhere And this time it sticks Your legs sting After you shave them For the first time But you remind yourself Beauty is pain And go on with your day You remind yourself again As you pluck hairs From your eyebrows It helps you somehow Beauty is pain Your stomach growls You haven't eaten Because you want to be skinny You want to be pretty Beauty is pain Is all you hear When you walk into surgery To change your face Beauty is pain Lingers in the back of your mind When your boyfriend hits you For the first time One day you look in the mirror All you see is pain You wonder how it ended up this way
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Apr 25, 2016
Apr 25, 2016 at 2:19 PM UTC
"Beauty is pain"
They shaved my head and cut me open took my skull and my way of coping My life had changed in just a moment I can't decide but I might wish I hadn't done it. I can't play or practice I have to be careful. If I'm not cautious with my head I could instantly wind up dead. My headaches aren't gone and I'm still dizzy all you really took was half my aspirations. I hadn't much warning just a surprise. And when I could easily die every day is a compromise. More just had to be taken away because the last 13 surgeries hadn't changed my day to day. It's a brand new world I'm living in where all my dreams are limited and they're starting to run thin. so here you have me and I'm crying mercy.
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Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 12:38 AM UTC
Brain surgery *****
They say that smell Is your strongest sense When tied to memory. That just a whiff of a smell Or even thought of a Smell can bring you back To a place and a time that You had previously Thought were left behind. For me the smell of Bleach is comfort, as my Nanny used it as a Standard, household Cleaner. I love that smell As well as of my favorite Dinner, mildew (reminds me of summers spent At camp, living out of a trunk) and My favorite flowers Each of these smells I Love to revisit time and Time again. One smell Though has embedded Itself in my memory and if I have my way, I’ll never Smell it again. Mom had Colon cancer most Of my time in High school. No clue on the stage But it was best not To Ask Surgeries, chemo, radiation, the Whole Nine Things seemed to be fine, Well, even great Until it took a turn My mom has never been Skinny; she is petite, but Normal Suddenly she looked like A holocaust victim She would get quiet Draw into herself For periods of time Another surgery. Fine She returned home And then something crept in That something was death And I’ll never know how I knew You just know. The smell of something Dying Isn’t pleasant It puts you on edge And turns your stomach Mom was confident That she was getting better The smell, that can’t Be described (dying tissue, pain Suffering) was glaring To me I never asked Mom or Dad If they could smell it Because the smell of Death Isn’t a sense that should Be shared I would just maintain that I didn’t think Something was right A day or so later Surgery. Fine. Home. Smell. Surgery. Fine. Home. Smell. Surgery. Fine. Home. After that last Surgery. The smell Left. But even now When I think back To that time That complicated time of Soccer games Chemotherapy Apply to college Surgeries The one thing in the Foreground Is That Smell Just a whiff of death Of human decay Of dying Of suffering And I’ve had my fill For a lifetime
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Sep 27, 2013
Sep 27, 2013 at 1:58 AM UTC
Smell of Death
They say that smell Is your strongest sense When tied to memory. That just a whiff of a smell Or even thought of a Smell can bring you back To a place and a time that You had previously Thought were left behind. For me the smell of Bleach is comfort, as my Nanny used it as a Standard, household Cleaner. I love that smell As well as of my favorite Dinner, mildew (reminds me of summers spent At camp, living out of a trunk) and My favorite flowers Each of these smells I Love to revisit time and Time again. One smell Though has embedded Itself in my memory and if I have my way, I’ll never Smell it again. Mom had Colon cancer most Of my time in High school. No clue on the stage But it was best not To Ask Surgeries, chemo, radiation, the Whole Nine Things seemed to be fine, Well, even great Until it took a turn My mom has never been Skinny; she is petite, but Normal Suddenly she looked like A holocaust victim She would get quiet Draw into herself For periods of time Another surgery. Fine She returned home And then something crept in That something was death And I’ll never know how I knew You just know. The smell of something Dying Isn’t pleasant It puts you on edge And turns your stomach Mom was confident That she was getting better The smell, that can’t Be described (dying tissue, pain Suffering) was glaring To me I never asked Mom or Dad If they could smell it Because the smell of Death Isn’t a sense that should Be shared I would just maintain that I didn’t think Something was right A day or so later Surgery. Fine. Home. Smell. Surgery. Fine. Home. Smell. Surgery. Fine. Home. After that last Surgery. The smell Left. But even now When I think back To that time That complicated time of Soccer games Chemotherapy Apply to college Surgeries The one thing in the Foreground Is That Smell Just a whiff of death Of human decay Of dying Of suffering And I’ve had my fill For a lifetime
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dysphoria is sitting in front of a mirror for 30 straight minutes picking out the tiny things that make people misgender you. trying to pull back your chest pretending you have a flat one scratching down your biceps because maybe if they were more toned you would be called a boy clawing at your thighs because if they were small and beautiful then people might think you are a he dysphoria is sobbing while doing all of that the mirror is now your enemy giving you a million things to change but you have no way of changing it. maybe sleeping will help? that is if you get past your thoughts of your disgusting body calm down for a bit to even let you slip into somber. but then dreams come you dream of being on testosterone having a beard with a deep voice maybe even your top surgery where you no longer have to deal with having a chest but you wake up no way of getting these things it haunts you for days. dysphoria is the mirror no longer being a place to just fix up your hair or do your make up it’s where your demons live passing by a reflective surface and seeing even a glance of your body makes you want to die and tear it apart dysphoria is someone brushing against your thigh and you wanting to puke everything you have ever eaten because they touched your body a disgusting girls body it can’t be mine but I hate it none the less dysphoria is someone taking out your soul and choking it the lack of breath comes from a panic attack your nails clawing and digging into your skin because this can’t be you. this isn’t mine this body needs fixing so does this soul.
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Feb 28, 2017
Feb 28, 2017 at 12:03 AM UTC
dysphoria
dysphoria is sitting in front of a mirror for 30 straight minutes picking out the tiny things that make people misgender you. trying to pull back your chest pretending you have a flat one scratching down your biceps because maybe if they were more toned you would be called a boy clawing at your thighs because if they were small and beautiful then people might think you are a he dysphoria is sobbing while doing all of that the mirror is now your enemy giving you a million things to change but you have no way of changing it. maybe sleeping will help? that is if you get past your thoughts of your disgusting body calm down for a bit to even let you slip into somber. but then dreams come you dream of being on testosterone having a beard with a deep voice maybe even your top surgery where you no longer have to deal with having a chest but you wake up no way of getting these things it haunts you for days. dysphoria is the mirror no longer being a place to just fix up your hair or do your make up it’s where your demons live passing by a reflective surface and seeing even a glance of your body makes you want to die and tear it apart dysphoria is someone brushing against your thigh and you wanting to puke everything you have ever eaten because they touched your body a disgusting girls body it can’t be mine but I hate it none the less dysphoria is someone taking out your soul and choking it the lack of breath comes from a panic attack your nails clawing and digging into your skin because this can’t be you. this isn’t mine this body needs fixing so does this soul.
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She also underwent breast reduction surgery in 1992, and has said on the subject: "I really love my body and the way it is right now. There's something very awkward about women and their ******* because men look at them so much. When they're huge, you become very self-conscious. Your back hurts. You find that whatever you wear, you look heavy in. It's uncomfortable. I've learned something, though, about ******* through my years of pondering and pontificating, and that is: Men love them, and I love that."
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May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 7:44 PM UTC
"Drew's *******
Zeus had plastic surgery, his fingertips shaved off so he would not leave prints when he committed his archetypal crimes. He changed his name to Saturn then to Cronos then to Albatross Von Mariner, all this subterfuge just to disquise the fact that he goes borderline ballistic when he doesn't get his way. He pulled Icarus out of the sky, wounded Prometheus’ side, left Sisyphus on a steep lonely mountain, dared Demeter to save her daughter, yet these souls persist in mnemonic literary defiance of a single fact… No god is greater than you, the karma jury has come in and Zeus is sentenced to five years of community service on Interstate Highway 5. He will wear a yellow clown suit with a red rubber nose and floppy green shoes with a fast food tray hanging from his neck and he will walk in traffic snarls stopping at every car to clean the windows to sell hotdogs with purple relish and black mustard wrapped in grey buns as unappetizing and pathetic as the lies he has told us about ourselves for so long.
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Oct 24, 2012
Oct 24, 2012 at 7:35 AM UTC
BAD ZEUS ON HIGHWAY 5