
053026
Who would choose a place like this?
Where lost things arrive on tired feet,
Gathering broken versions of themselves
Like fragments they no longer recognize.
They stay awhile within my silence,
I offer them the gentlest parts of me,
And they take what they need to stand again —
Then leave like wind forgetting its shape.
Or maybe they are only waiting
For someone they cannot forget,
While I become the pause in between,
The space they pass through, not return to.
I have heard their unspoken storms,
Their voices buried under quiet suffering,
Their almost-graves of feeling
They never learned how to name.
Still, I remain open—unfolded,
As if staying still could mean staying chosen,
As if patience could turn into permanence,
As if waiting could become home.
I want to be more than a stopover,
More than a resting place for breaking hearts,
I want to be a home people run to,
Not only when they are undone.
But in a world of shifting intentions,
Where presence is often temporary,
I begin to wonder who truly arrives
And who only passes through me.
And I am left here, quietly learning
That not everyone who comes is staying —
Some are only passing through my warmth,
Turning me into their waiting shed.
5d ago
May 30, 2026 at 8:54 AM UTC
050226
Amidst the loud and restless voices,
I still hear You —
Not pleading, not demanding,
But walking gently at my pace.
And in that quiet nearness,
Grace begins to look like something I can hold.
I wonder —
How many times have I chosen to walk alone,
Thinking I had to carry everything myself?
Yet there You were —
Steady, unshaken, never leaving.
And still, I pushed You away…
Not with words,
Not even with what I did,
But with a heart that wandered far from You.
So I ask now,
Even when I already know:
Are You still there?
I ask for a Word,
A sign, something certain —
But instead, You bring me here,
Into this place I do not fully understand.
And still,
When I grow tired, You catch me.
When I feel lost, You remain.
You love me —
Not loudly, but faithfully.
And this is grace.
This is You —
A love that does not force me to my knees,
But gently leads me home.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 3:38 AM UTC
042926
The echoes of your becoming
Became a river in my ears —
An undying soul
Devouring the breath from my lungs.
And the whispers are no longer
Silent waves that kiss goodbye.
They have become thunder
In the midst of scorching heat —
Worshipping your skin,
A breath losing itself
Where black turns deeper than itself
Until it finally evolves.
In pages, in paces I can no longer recall,
I hear hymns —
Purging every note
My soul once longed for.
They find no home now,
In any corner,
In any street I used to paint —
Streets I never dared to call “gold.”
The debris… the degree
Of every anthem,
Every piece, every line —
Unfamiliar rhythms begin to unfold.
And the lullaby within my own mind’s palace
Has turned into nightmares.
Back then, it was never dark..
The light lingered.
And the swords of my own echoes
Were the armor I carried.
But here I am —
Laying those pieces to rest,
And I…
I am no longer
That kind of becoming.
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 11:41 PM UTC
042926
“Sa libu-libong pagkakataon
Na Tayo’y magkasama,
Iilang ulit pa lang kitang
Nakitang masaya.”
Mga linya buhat sa kilalang awitin
Sa aking lenggwahe
At alam kong hindi mo ito maiintindihan.
Maging Ang mga kamay ng orasa’y
Napapagal na sa paghihintay.
Nalulunod pa rin ako
Sa karagatan ng aking isipan.
Kung saan ang mga bangkang papel
Ay wala nang paglalagyan —
Mga pahinang ipanubaya ko na.
Sambit mo’y hindi pa rin ako nakakausad —
Sinusuyod ko pa rin
Ang mga kalsadang lubak-lubak
Na para bang hindi ko na alam
Kung papaano bumalik.
At napagtanto kong
May mga kataga pa rin palang
Tatangay sa aking kaisipan
Na tila ba sinusubukan nitong buksan
Yung kusa ko nang isinara.
Ano nga ba ang kahulugan
Ng mga salitang “Mahal Kita?”
Kailan nga ba yung huling pagkakataon
Na ibinunyag ng aking mga labi
Ang kahiwagaan nito?
O ang dapat bang katanungan ay,
“Kailan at paano ko natuklasan
Ang aking sarili na nalulunod sa mga ito?”
Siguro nga, tama sila
Tama ang karamihan
Na maging ang emosyon ko’y
Isang nyebeng nais pang kumutan.
Gusto kong sabayan
Ng pagpatak ng mga luha
Ang mga kumunoy na humahatak
Sa mga hinagpis ng nakaraan.
Pero paano?
Kung maging ang bawat letra’y
Nawalan na ng kahulugan
At tuluyan ko na ring nakalimutan?
Ito nga ba ang paksa
Ng aking pagsalaysay?
At sa halip na ang pag-usad
Ang maging hantungan ng lahat
Ay mga bubog pa rin ang nananalantay
Sa mga pahinang isinalipadpad na rin
Patungong Kalangitan.
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 11:30 PM UTC
042826
If only she could see herself through my eyes
She would know that love at first sight
wasn’t just a illusion, it was something real, something undeniable.
She would see how her smile
sends quiet tremors through me,
I want to call her mine,
and be hers in the same breath—
but she’s not ready.
Maybe she’s still untangling herself,
maybe I’m just the space she rests
while her heart finds its way back.
Until then, I stand here—
caught between patience and longing,
feeling like I’m choosing for both of us.
She pauses. She drifts.
Maybe memories pull her backward—
echoes of what she once felt,
of what she lost,
of what she fears to feel again.
And I wonder…
if she’ll ever look at me
the way I look at her.
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 11:03 PM UTC
Gusto kong maging patas sayo
Hindi yung tipong nakikipag-patintero.
Ayoko nang maging taya,
Pagkat hindi ako nakikipaglaro.
Hinahabol mo ako
Na para bang alam mo ang lahat
Ang mga alaalang pilit ko nang kinalimutan
Ay kusang **** sinungkit sa Kalangitan
Hindi bilang isang magnanakaw
Kundi bilang isang ekstrangherong
Gumawi sa mga pahinang
Nalusaw na ang mga letra.
Sambit mo’y
Tila ba naroon ka sa aking mga nakaraan
Na parang sa palabas ko lang ito nasilayan.
Siguro nga, mali ako —
Mali ako na buksan ang pahinang ito
Pero alam kong hindi mo ako pinilit.
Nagugulat ako —
Sa mga salaysay na binibigkas mo
Na para bang kilalang-kilala mo na ako.
Na parang nanirahan ka
Sa puso kong ilang beses nang
Pinatikom ng hapdi, ng pait,
Ng galit na hindi ko alam
Kung saan nagmula.
Lumipas ang mga araw
Ngunit Ang paglubog ng araw
Ay sabay tayong sinasalubong.
Wala —
Wala na akong masabi pa.
Huminto —
Huminto muna ako.
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 12:12 PM UTC
042926 @ Arjan
I was between chapters —
Ink not yet dry,
Paper still remembering my weight…
When the horizon shifted
And called itself elsewhere.
A landing that felt like falling,
A door without a name,
Walls made of questions.
Even silence had an echo there…
Even certainty learned to hesitate.
There are ghosts of a life
That still know my shape —
Keys that fit,
Roads that remember my footsteps,
Laughter that doesn’t need translation.
But here —
It is just me
And the sound of my own voice.
I unravel,
Then gather myself in unfamiliar ways.
A quiet war,
Where victory looks small
But feels infinite.
Yes, the body grows heavy —
Time clings to my shoulders…
Yet something lighter lives within:
A pulse of calm,
A joy that does not ask permission.
I speak too much to the air,
But something unseen listens —
Steadied the trembling,
Softens the edges of fear.
And so the question dissolves—
Not answered, just outgrown.
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 11:58 AM UTC
032826/ Bus Going to Liwan
A dove once fell —
One wing broken,
And there she found herself
In a desert of crows.
Will she ever find her life again?
The desert was never her home.
She once lived in a cage,
Mistaking safety for freedom —
So when the door opened, she flew.
One wing still held strength.
She could rise, but not for long.
She needed rest —
A kind that meant
She could never go back.
Among the crows,
She searched for something familiar —
A feather, a reflection, a place to belong.
But she was weak,
And distance felt endless.
She did not eat.
She held on to what little she had —
And to a quiet hope
She could not explain.
Then, in the desert,
A man found her —
Bleeding, fading,
Ready to let go.
“I can die now,” she whispered.
“My wing is broken.”
But his hands were gentle.
When he touched her,
The pain loosened —
And what was broken began to heal.
He fed her, lifted her,
Taught her how to fly again.
And she did —
She rose, stronger than before.
He watched from below,
Never holding her back.
So she flew — free, restored,
No longer afraid of the sky.
Until one day, she grew tired.
She rested on passing branches,
Finding small joys —
Yet every glance at her wings
Reminded her
Of where she was healed.
So she flew again —
Not away, but back.
And there he was, still waiting.
He opened his hands,
And she landed once more —
Not out of need,
But out of knowing.
And this time,
She chose to stay.
Apr 4
Apr 4, 2026 at 2:21 PM UTC
040226
A pulse misfires —
Not broken, just… wandering.
Light spills again,
Not new, but remembered...
Like a name the soul knew
Before the mouth could speak it.
There was a first arrival —
Feet touching something vast,
A horizon shaped like a question.
You —
Not whole yet,
A curve of becoming,
Silver and patient.
And me —
Open, unstitched,
Learning how to stand
Inside my own echo.
Still —
you waited.
Not in time,
but in quiet certainty.
And when I look upward now,
the sky does not answer —
it holds.
A presence without language,
a knowing without sound,
a gaze that does not blink.
You understand the rhythm
of my almost-smiles,
the fragile architecture
of my silences.
You speak —
not in words,
but in alignments,
in pauses that arrive exactly when needed.
So I answer
not as the world taught me —
loud, hurried, certain —
but as something softer,
something called from within the unseen.
Even in departure,
nothing leaves.
Promises linger
like warmth on skin
after light has gone.
I will always look upward —
not to search,
but to remember.
And in all the versions of me
still unfolding,
still unnamed —
you are there,
witnessing,
certain —
that I am becoming
something worth watching.
Apr 4
Apr 4, 2026 at 1:53 PM UTC
121525/ Dubai Mall
If my seeing were yours,
the world would learn to breathe between seconds,
corners would blur into gentle maybe,
and silence would glow with meaning.
You would feel time loosen its grip,
north and south dissolving into touch,
every step becoming a promise
instead of a destination.
Then you’d know why my heart keeps turning—
not to escape, but to circle wonder,
orbiting the quiet gravity
of you.
Dec 15, 2025
Dec 15, 2025 at 10:24 AM UTC