Over 19,200 miles each year,
And what do I get?
Siblings who adore but don't know me,
Parents who use me as a tug-of-war rope,
Grandparents who forget I exist and instead love those younger than me,
Friends I've known forever who think I'm invisible,
Ex's who leave me for someone else who doesn't leave the state,
Depression from friends and family,
Suicidalness from peer pressure and abuse and manipulation,
And a name that scares everyone because of the things I've gone through.