she is an amzing young girl
she has talent greater than she knows
and yet she wont let it all show
you see she doesnt want people to know how shes feeling
she doesnt say stufff to revealing
or she never even talks about herself
she writes about others and tries to help
but the girl who needs the most help is the girl staring back at you through the mirror
she wants to be set free
but you hide her behind things
you don't want people to see
that person who i believe
is living inside
and if nina just opened her eyes
maybe she would see
that a lot of other people are going through the same thing
and maybe she would actual tell someone like me who actual would listen if she told me how she was feeling
she needs to set herself free

December 28th,2023
21:53 pm
The year is about to end in just a few days and I am getting flashbacks of everything that happened this year. This year was more like a reality check for me that where do I actually stand among everyone. I do know that I'm not even 1 percent close to have a decent life ahead but I'll try to make a change in my life in every possible way. This year literally made me feel so worst about myself but that was necessary. After feeling so many emotions throughout the year I'm at peace in the end of this rollercoaster year. Life is so much more than what I thought.  Felt guilty for making people disappointed and thus I regretted each and every day for existing. I wanted to quit everything and just had no hope . What's the point in living is the only thought that came across my mind...
I wasted so many days, months just doing things that did no change in my life and my thoughts. I just don't wanna recall those 4-5 months because I'm moving forward with no memories of this year . Yea I def learnt a ton of things but  I wannsa learn more from the coming year...
I hope 2024 will be different from 2023 . I'll do more stufff and continue to be actually happy by my own.
Rishita~