I hate you
I can’t get rid of you
You don’t even know the power you hold
It feels like I’m drowning
Over this but I wasn’t
Confidence waning
My control; give it back

Shaundarel 2024

The house is silent and I'm all alone
No one is here, it's so normal to me
Lonely every night, but not for love
Lonely in solitude, wishing for contact
No one is here, I'd like to go now
Silence
No one to talk to, now it's so loud
The silence deafens me, and I retreat
A beautiful place inside my mind
No one is here to pull me away
Racing with thoughts so fast
It beckons me, pulsing so loud
Silence

Shaundarel 2024

Tired of not sleeping enough.
Tired of this feeling.
I'm tired.
Dreams mixed with dream-less nights.
Exhaustion creeps in without me noticing.
I'm tired.
Emotional deconstruction fails again.
Walls closing in on me.
Empathetic waves of pain rolling over.
Again and again it lingers.
Sadness but then a spark.
I can feel it. I can feel everything.
I'm tired.
Dark circles creep past my eyes.
Energy slowly fading.
I'm tired.
Block it out. Block it out.
She screams in my head.
Stop this. No more.
I'm tired.
The pain and anguish take over.
Stealing away my consciousness.
She begs. I can do nothing.
Her voice reaching out slowly fading.
We are tired.
I don't want this. This isn't me.
It is though. When they hurt we hurt.
When their tears fall so do ours. Mine.
I'm tired.

Shaundarel 2024

Breathe in slowly
Close your eyes
Try to focus
Breath out
Listen to the waves
Relax in this moment
Breathe in again
Focus
Breath out
See your worries
Remember them
Learn from them
Breathe in again
Focus
Breathe out
You are stronger
Worries are temporary
Stress is temporary
Good things will come
Focus on your worth
Know your worth it
Fight for it
Don't back down
The fight is hard
Patience is hard
The end is worth the wait
Breathe in
Focus
Breathe out

Shaundarel 2024

I hope you are okay
I know it’s hard to do
I feel your pain deeply
I hope you can believe in you
I know you can do this
I feel like something’s missing
I hope you know we’re here
I know you are strong enough
I feel your absence completely

Shaundarel 2024

Breakdown rages
Mental rollercoaster in my head
Handle it **** it
Slow down the racing
Today is not the end
Tears will run
Already they run
Concentration fighting
Handle it **** it
What’s happening to me
Can’t stop my brain
I want to hide and cry
Somewhere in the dark
Solace is comforting
Handle it **** it
Vision is blurry
I can’t see through the storm
We have things to do
We have people to see
Handle it **** it

Shaundarel 2024