"schoolday" poems
My sister karen was a manhater
she hated all men
deliriously
she would sit on the top
of the bunkbed she shared with sue
and with one finger curl her hair
then pull it out by the roots
it was quite disturbing
she would spend hours
every saturday doing this
until she had almost no hair left
the family worried for her
During the week when I would
come home from school (I think
I was around 7 or 8) karen (being
older and bigger) would run up to me
kick me in the gut
push me to the floor
jump on top of me
grab me by the ears
and pound my head
on the floor until
my brains fell out
this went on for several weeks
until I told my parents and
they finally put an end to it
One night sue didn't want to get caught
eating an apple in bed
so she put the core in the toilet
and it clogged it
we (all four of us)
were awakened in the middle of the night
and had to line up so my mother
could beat us with a belt
until someone confessed
I was tired so I said okay
I did it
I got a good belting that night
I was suspended from school
for a week because the teacher
complained that the welts on my back
were bleeding so profusely that
lt was interrupting the learning process
of the other children
One day I was coming home from school
and I got caught in a hailstorm
I got pelted really good
Lucky for me Mr. Doty was home for lunch
so I took cover under
his light blue ford f-series pick-up truck
hail as big as golf *****
some the size of baseballs
continued to rain down
I don't know for how long
because I fell asleep
"What were you doing under there?"
he questioned as he was shaking my arm
awakening me
(I quess he thought I was messing around
or something)
I came to and stated
"THE GOLF ***** WERE FALLING
I NEEDED A PLACE TO HIDE"
"oh" he said
"you mean to tell me you were in THAT?"
"yessir" I replied
"well, your schoolday's almost over,
maybe you should go home and rest"
"yessir"
And I went home and rested
When karen turned eighteen
she married a wife beater
for nearly ten years he would
ugly 'er up
finally she couldn't take anymore
and divorced him
But she was only following tradition
my grandpa beat his wife
my father beat his wife
and al beat karen
Yep, those three knew
how to really take a beating
But, not from a hailstorm
Dec 15, 2014
Dec 15, 2014 at 1:51 PM UTC
And when the day comes,
when i cant write poems anymore
when i always wanting to run away
when i use my eyes most for something else than to see
when i dismiss every party invitations
when i reject every outings
when i dont care what tomorrow will be like
when people can find me nowhere but my room
when music can no longer cure me
when my bestfriend can no longer help me
when i dont crave for green
when i dont wait for schoolday
when i pay attention to the breeze more than the community
when black and white are the brightest hues to me
when im no longer go to the school canteen
when im just no longer
between nadhirah yasmin ainnur ross and ainun at most of the time
when i dont walk anymore and just wait to die
when i just talk to god and nobody else
when i dont tweet anymore
when you cant see my post passing thru in instagram
when i stop reblogging even though i used to attracted to tumblr so much
when i just stop doing things i love the most
when i stop try making myself happy
when i just stop believing of life
thats when i really realise i lose you
Aug 31, 2013
Aug 31, 2013 at 5:34 AM UTC
It's strange the things I remember
I could never really put it down
But it seems to make more sense
Now that I'm required to remember
Things I begged to forget
I wanted to remember the bad
And forget all about the good
Hoping I could put it passed me
And as my brain is an obedient servant
I forgot all the good and kept the bad
It's hard to see you any other way now
I can't remember my first schoolday
Just a few last ones
But I can remember my first word
It was "thank you"
Although I meant to say "please"
I can't remember the names
Of my classmates from primary school
But I remember that day we got lost
I was 3 years old
And how scared I was
Just like that I can't remember
How you made me feel
But I remember what you said
I can't remember what you meant
But I can see the letters appearing before me
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 4:37 PM UTC