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Pure? What does it mean? The tongues of hell Are dull, dull as the triple Tongues of dull, fat Cerebus Who wheezes at the gate. Incapable Of licking clean The aguey tendon, the sin, the sin. The tinder cries. The indelible smell Of a snuffed candle! Love, love, the low smokes roll From me like Isadora's scarves, I'm in a fright One scarf will catch and anchor in the wheel. Such yellow sullen smokes Make their own element. They will not rise, But trundle round the globe Choking the aged and the meek, The weak Hothouse baby in its crib, The ghastly orchid Hanging its hanging garden in the air, Devilish leopard! Radiation turned it white And killed it in an hour. Greasing the bodies of adulterers Like Hiroshima ash and eating in. The sin. The sin. Darling, all night I have been flickering, off, on, off, on. The sheets grow heavy as a lecher's kiss. Three days. Three nights. Lemon water, chicken Water, water make me retch. I am too pure for you or anyone. Your body Hurts me as the world hurts God. I am a lantern ---- My head a moon Of Japanese paper, my gold beaten skin Infinitely delicate and infinitely expensive. Does not my heat astound you. And my light. All by myself I am a huge camellia Glowing and coming and going, flush on flush. I think I am going up, I think I may rise ---- The beads of hot metal fly, and I, love, I Am a pure acetylene ****** Attended by roses, By kisses, by cherubim, By whatever these pink things mean. Not you, nor him. Not him, nor him (My selves dissolving, old ***** petticoats) ---- To Paradise.
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Fever 103°
Pure? What does it mean? The tongues of hell Are dull, dull as the triple Tongues of dull, fat Cerebus Who wheezes at the gate. Incapable Of licking clean The aguey tendon, the sin, the sin. The tinder cries. The indelible smell Of a snuffed candle! Love, love, the low smokes roll From me like Isadora's scarves, I'm in a fright One scarf will catch and anchor in the wheel. Such yellow sullen smokes Make their own element. They will not rise, But trundle round the globe Choking the aged and the meek, The weak Hothouse baby in its crib, The ghastly orchid Hanging its hanging garden in the air, Devilish leopard! Radiation turned it white And killed it in an hour. Greasing the bodies of adulterers Like Hiroshima ash and eating in. The sin. The sin. Darling, all night I have been flickering, off, on, off, on. The sheets grow heavy as a lecher's kiss. Three days. Three nights. Lemon water, chicken Water, water make me retch. I am too pure for you or anyone. Your body Hurts me as the world hurts God. I am a lantern ---- My head a moon Of Japanese paper, my gold beaten skin Infinitely delicate and infinitely expensive. Does not my heat astound you. And my light. All by myself I am a huge camellia Glowing and coming and going, flush on flush. I think I am going up, I think I may rise ---- The beads of hot metal fly, and I, love, I Am a pure acetylene ****** Attended by roses, By kisses, by cherubim, By whatever these pink things mean. Not you, nor him. Not him, nor him (My selves dissolving, old ***** petticoats) ---- To Paradise.
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Let me tell you about something I saw the other day, when I was out walking through a field of hay. The night was quite pretty, the air crisp and clear, when I suddenly encountered a cat who was drinking a beer! I walked a little farther and encountered some mice, sitting around a card table, all playing dice. The mice looked quite serious, they all dressed like thugs, I was dumbfounded, and simply stared down from above. Then I saw something that completely blew my mind, it was a variety of animals, dancing in a conga line. For hours and hours and hours they danced, more animals joined in, even deer came to prance. This party was larger than any I’d seen, a couple of badgers were even smoking something green. “Innocent” deer were snorting lines off of snakes, and a couple drunk farm dogs were fighting with rakes. A cat and a mouse were sitting in a barn, entirely too drunk, they took turn telling yarns. From across the field, you could hear an owl retch, while a gaggle of geese slurred “Benny and the Jets.” Sheep laughed, “Bahaha!” while dancing on tables, the horses were getting it on in the stables. This party was crazier than any I’d attended, a pig even ended up losing an appendage. As the sun came up, things started winding down, all the cows went home, and the "Keg King" took off his crown. I took this as my cue, it was time to depart, so a couple mice and I hitched a ride on a farmer’s cart. "Sayonara!" I yelled, "It's been lots of fun! Everybody get home safe, try not to hurt anyone!" But enough about me, let's talk about you. That was my weekend, what did you do?
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Nov 2, 2012
Nov 2, 2012 at 11:55 PM UTC
Party Animals
Let me tell you about something I saw the other day, when I was out walking through a field of hay. The night was quite pretty, the air crisp and clear, when I suddenly encountered a cat who was drinking a beer! I walked a little farther and encountered some mice, sitting around a card table, all playing dice. The mice looked quite serious, they all dressed like thugs, I was dumbfounded, and simply stared down from above. Then I saw something that completely blew my mind, it was a variety of animals, dancing in a conga line. For hours and hours and hours they danced, more animals joined in, even deer came to prance. This party was larger than any I’d seen, a couple of badgers were even smoking something green. “Innocent” deer were snorting lines off of snakes, and a couple drunk farm dogs were fighting with rakes. A cat and a mouse were sitting in a barn, entirely too drunk, they took turn telling yarns. From across the field, you could hear an owl retch, while a gaggle of geese slurred “Benny and the Jets.” Sheep laughed, “Bahaha!” while dancing on tables, the horses were getting it on in the stables. This party was crazier than any I’d attended, a pig even ended up losing an appendage. As the sun came up, things started winding down, all the cows went home, and the "Keg King" took off his crown. I took this as my cue, it was time to depart, so a couple mice and I hitched a ride on a farmer’s cart. "Sayonara!" I yelled, "It's been lots of fun! Everybody get home safe, try not to hurt anyone!" But enough about me, let's talk about you. That was my weekend, what did you do?
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These are the hard times, the long stretch of coal-shed days, the corrugated nights of the antinomian. I retch at the old doubts and the panoply of dustbins clattering bright, their watchers simian in the morning **** I dress as though dredging up greys, monotone deep in the GB tradition: now sandpit tea with oil stain floats silt dreads the mass of a seven year clay. Four weeks of shadows drown wind in a storm. And dreams of my cottage in days of such calm and late summer happiness as brought cut corn and strawbs and horse manure in hugs until like Zulu tribesmen the birds appeared. Hunched with expectation Spears smiling like baddies they rushed me. I woke pouring sweat like a workhorse the weakest of defences laid up my face pulling cellophane over French windows.
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Feb 6, 2012
Feb 6, 2012 at 2:07 PM UTC
February, from which there is no escape
The rainy season is at The door once again, And loneliness has Brought me a new pillow, But who is to defend My repugnant soul? Can it be the Gods? Hear this! The rain has Began knocking at my Slammer door gradually, Oh no, it is knocking And wailing so heavily, With his icy voice Of storm and cold Arresting my hearty dreams, But I will retch at his smell And hurry for my handkerchief, Where is my lantern? May be, the native doctor Has the answer to the Cylindrical jar containing Her eternal juniper organs, Indeed, it is my misfortune To go about with the priest, For even the child of The priest even dies at noon, Ah, I thought she was Vigilant and ever-ready To make the debtors Chew the palm kernels, But she became the Portion of the exterior of The *** that skin can cover, I have lost my heaven, Oh no, I have lost the One whose neck is like a Bunch of small-fingered plantain, I have lost the whetstone On which I sharpen My thirsty sword to Perform deeds of valour, Let the Gods weep! Let the ancestors wail! Let the people of Africa, Give me condolence of The talking drums, For their child is gone, The wise woman who cut Her thumb in order to get A wise husband is dead, Mother, the Okro full of Seeds of children and literature, Efua Sutherland, the queen, The toad likes water, but not When the water is boiling, Send me something When someone is coming, Efua Sutherland, the queen, You and I exchange gift. © PRINCE NANA ANIN-AGYEI Email: [email protected]
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Apr 8, 2013
Apr 8, 2013 at 5:58 AM UTC
EFUA SUTHERLAND
America, rollin’ its dice, hurlin’ ‘nades on the ice. what're we lookin’ for? ***** we huntin’ for? whether it’s a score to settle or another lie to peddle where do we go from here? how ‘bout that future we held dear? gone, done, buried, shunned. eat crow, ***** retch, and— run? don’t run. can’t run. these colors don’t run, I’ve heard. though maybe they flow against each other like water and oil in a grating chemical fash- ion that can’t be calculated or be sufficiently integrated like we dreamed they would. and dream we do, for America and her future, or so I hope, given that each year that passes leaves bruises and gashes in that fabric, so fragile, I hear. sad, wrong, and crooked; Trump’s America.
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Nov 11, 2016
Nov 11, 2016 at 5:34 AM UTC
Trump's America
Bag-drop. Check-in. Hyphenated. Two syllables. Security. A fat Scottish man, A gentle caress of the inner thigh. I retch violently. Boarding, disembarking. All I want in life is the back door.
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Jul 13, 2015
Jul 13, 2015 at 1:43 AM UTC
Queue
under the sludge of this depression, I am awake. it’s morning outside but that doesn’t change a thing. tiredness takes me to quiet places. I follow like I’m devout. this forest is new. there’s a drumming of a heartbeat within the trunks of these trees. it thrums under my fingertips. blood rushes forward to touch this rhythm. songbirds nest, plume against plume for love and for rest. the birdsong is sweet as saccharine. I taste the sap on my lips, its nectar, thick with agape. a salve for myriad laments under the roof of a single bell jar. the indigo sky convulses, telling of fortunes. the clouds retch gilded roses. blades of grass fence the circumferences of leaves in gypsy winds. the forest warms like a flame. my body sways in solipsistic wonder. the crescents of my nails are crusted with lichen. my limbs are drawn into its boughs, like gravity. like the bark is starved. my mind is foliage and my crown is littered with inflorescence. my sky is finally cerulean and lilac. each gall is an ancient hurt. each wound is a knot. I breathe my mourning. I wait to bloom.
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Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 3:07 AM UTC
dreams of a dryad
i am a sinner. my insides tainted, my sweet pink heart is stained a dark deep brown. my lips beg for more. more of the sweet taste, just a bit more of Heaven. my brain shouts "no! not a single bite more of the wretched sin!" my tongue tastes sour my stomach lurches and up come my sins, reflected in the concerned ripples deep in your ocean-blue eyes. the words sour, i retch and fall lifeless into your arms.
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Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 8:34 PM UTC
sinner.
Once, I was excluded from love, in bitterness I cursed all that I saw, not knowing that this bitterness made me anathema to the very sensations I pursued. I spread hateful ideology, made every effort to share my misery, shouted condemnation at every pair of clasped hands, every kiss I saw made me retch. The bitterness welled up and poured forth from me, reppelling loves valiant attempts at liberating me from my tower cell. From my relatively pleasant existance I fashioned my own tailor fitted hell, which I wore everyday, steadily collecting filth, so soiled I had become. As I lifted the last shovelful from my early grave, and prepared to climb down within with my list of grievances against God stapled to my shirt, so I might never forget, my foot stepped out into the pit but a gentle hand clenched my shoulder and pulled me back from the hole, and I turned and discovered love... It does exist, none need be excluded, if the feeling exists for some all can be included. Love not for the pleasure of it, but for the pain, and strain, so that we may constantly measure it against the ache of loneliness and remind ourselves, that while love may be a neverending battle, surrender to hate brings nothing but ruin.
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Oct 7, 2012
Oct 7, 2012 at 11:28 AM UTC
Surrender To Hate...
I’m friends with this girl named Ana, I started to eat less. Hating the person in the mirror, my life has become a mess. My best friend is named Ana, she always talks to me, She tells me to skip meals, maybe two or three? Ana is the one I listen to, she’s smart and full of advice. I’m starting to get smaller, my health is the sacrifice. Mia is my friend too, she pushes me around. The food has become the enemy and I couldn’t lose a pound. I’m scared of this girl Ana, I can’t get her out of my head. It finally occurred to me, that Ana wants me dead. Mia hurts me too, she makes me want to purge Buying lots of binge food, I cannot stop the urge. She even hurts my throat, it burns with every retch. She even makes me exercise, it hurts when I stretch. I hate Ana and Mia, they make my life a hell. Someone please hear my silent screams because she won’t let me tell. I’m a prisoner of Ana, I’m captive to her will. I’m doing everything she tells, how can I be fat still? My murderer is Ana, she starved me to the grave. My heart finally stopped beating, I failed to be brave. If you want a happy ending, this story’s not for you Ana and Mia are silent killers and they’ll even **** you too.
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Mar 11, 2016
Mar 11, 2016 at 1:28 PM UTC
Ana and Mia
T'was little fun T'was a little town, No virulent delirious runs No irking sounds As t'was a little dangling town All t'was a feasible brew No meanders to sought No conundrums of anew just wired timely things to rot When all t'was a portent upcoming For t'was clad and veneered In a amicable sun-daze groaning T'was a peaceful loop of mono-gradient seasons and all to do was ponder For t'was guzzled with reasons T'was yesterdays jigsaw puzzle T'was a nightmare in sun-light But for now, let's retch our unknown dazzle As t'was, A flippant fuss For what shan't be A beguiling me
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Feb 6, 2015
Feb 6, 2015 at 5:21 AM UTC
T'was yesterday
Notes on a IPad.  A rejected lover’s lament. What she says and in parentheses (What she thinks) Oh please tell me, What will I do now that     You have gone away, Three days now it’s been, Lost to me forever, (And took my wristwatch? Will I ever know, the correct  time again?) I gave you everything, And you crushed me! (No I mean it, the other night When you rolled over in bed You actually friggin’ crushed me.) Our lips are empty now, Of each other’s kiss, Like our odorous love, our bed sheets grow stale, (‘cause you didn’t put them in the machine, like I told you, Before you walked out the door!) Life can never be the same, Oh, to end my terminal misery. (I’m thinking that notion over. Maybe this is a positive thing, My parents warned that he was, not good enough for me). I walked alone, along the lake today, You know, the place we met, (All those **** Ducks around there, really make a mess. Got that goo all over my shoe,) But I digress. You are gone now, My loving arms are empty, Of your sweet scent, (Of the Brute Cologne, I bought you for Christmas You ungrateful  Retch!) My blurry eyes they do, so sorrowfully weep, (From all the pollen in the street, God, I hate spring time for that!) We were going to buy a cute, Little yellow house together, You vowed to love me forever, **** Now I’ll have to renew my Apartment lease, and get a roommate) (You PIG, did you ever in your life, Put up a toilet seat?) You left when you said, That you never would, (And just what the hell, did you do, with my car keys, I ‘ve looked all over the place) Truly my broken heart, My stomach aches and pines for you, All Love has flown, Oh,what will, what can I do? (Hm’ I wonder if McDonalds has McRibs back on their menu?) Ring! Ring!  The cell phone beckons. “Yes, hello. . . Oh it’s you. (You Son Of a ***** What’s that you say? You’re coming home to me? Darling, that’s so great to hear! Want to meet down at McDonalds I think they got McRibs!”
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Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 7:07 PM UTC
A rejected lover's lament
Notes on a IPad.  A rejected lover’s lament. What she says and in parentheses (What she thinks) Oh please tell me, What will I do now that     You have gone away, Three days now it’s been, Lost to me forever, (And took my wristwatch? Will I ever know, the correct  time again?) I gave you everything, And you crushed me! (No I mean it, the other night When you rolled over in bed You actually friggin’ crushed me.) Our lips are empty now, Of each other’s kiss, Like our odorous love, our bed sheets grow stale, (‘cause you didn’t put them in the machine, like I told you, Before you walked out the door!) Life can never be the same, Oh, to end my terminal misery. (I’m thinking that notion over. Maybe this is a positive thing, My parents warned that he was, not good enough for me). I walked alone, along the lake today, You know, the place we met, (All those **** Ducks around there, really make a mess. Got that goo all over my shoe,) But I digress. You are gone now, My loving arms are empty, Of your sweet scent, (Of the Brute Cologne, I bought you for Christmas You ungrateful  Retch!) My blurry eyes they do, so sorrowfully weep, (From all the pollen in the street, God, I hate spring time for that!) We were going to buy a cute, Little yellow house together, You vowed to love me forever, **** Now I’ll have to renew my Apartment lease, and get a roommate) (You PIG, did you ever in your life, Put up a toilet seat?) You left when you said, That you never would, (And just what the hell, did you do, with my car keys, I ‘ve looked all over the place) Truly my broken heart, My stomach aches and pines for you, All Love has flown, Oh,what will, what can I do? (Hm’ I wonder if McDonalds has McRibs back on their menu?) Ring! Ring!  The cell phone beckons. “Yes, hello. . . Oh it’s you. (You Son Of a ***** What’s that you say? You’re coming home to me? Darling, that’s so great to hear! Want to meet down at McDonalds I think they got McRibs!”
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Worry is a scurvy rat It is a man's main bane It chews on your self esteem It nibbles at your brain It will take your precious time Your energies will claim It will hobble your very life It will make you lame You may try to capture it But that is all in vain Doubt is like a cancer It eats at your bones It takes breath from your very lungs It turns your mind to stone It makes you feel incomplete It makes you weep and moan Under it's all-nagging pain You will retch and groan It is resistant to all cures And you cannot atone Fear is like a little death It turns the heart to straw It strikes like a rattlesnake With poison in its maw It's like a fascist dictator Who makes the harshest laws It can take your greatest strength Make it pernicious flaw Like a sadistic doctor With a large chainsaw! How can a person battle Worry, Doubt and Fear? How can our lives get better? How can we have cheer? Jack Daniels has no answer It's not Budweiser beer... It may be elusive At first just like a wraith But once you have a hold on it *The answer is our FAITH.* SoulSurvivor (C) 5/27/2016
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May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 4:42 PM UTC
Worry • Doubt • Fear
i) up the stairs red scarves and tight skirts loose slacks and grey shirts my how the landscape has changed I can’t say that I love to be dipped into this *** of pretty where the lipstick liner queens supreme and the coffee is brewed to mitigate the colostomy retch so I try a yellowed paper backed beat but it held nothing to the shoebox diorama of national care where the alphabetised gates of ingress more or less double as departure lounge for the broken and spent where their god might sit them on fashionably backed chairs for the percentile of misplace repairs or is it me that smells of warm **** ii) down the travelator a troll lives under the MRI, moved on from the bridge by the gruffest of beards, now working externally of the fable beneath the table of the magnetic eye
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Mar 11, 2015
Mar 11, 2015 at 3:39 PM UTC
whilst waiting
some smells make you retch a rotten egg for instance
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Oct 6, 2014
Oct 6, 2014 at 9:52 AM UTC
Anabolic Steroids
I was born to please the glitteratti Treat them like they’re gods right here on earth. Whether a Kardashian or Gotti They think I’ doomed to serve them since my birth. I’m meant to feed you, bathe you Live my life just for you. I’ve got to primp you, **** you Wipe your royal **** And if I move too slow You’ll call me **** I’m so benighted And I’ve not denied it. I was born without a soul And I know I’m lost now. My life is blighted And very much misguided. Somewhere inside There is a soul who really Should know how. I thought I could gut it out forever But I found I could only take so much. Putting up with daily kissing ***** Made me want to retch from every touch. You are disgusting, thrusting Your face in everywhere. Like you are something; you’re nothing, Got nothing to share! I no longer care. I’m not divided And I just can’t hide it. I want a life and I intend To go and get one A real one. So get excited. I have decided To grow a pair and do What I know I ought to. Got to!
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Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 9:07 PM UTC
I'M SO BENIGHTED
Drum and bass - the engine revs, Tyres grind and squelch into the hardpan. The cab rises with a squall of angry breath, Lurches forward with a shudder. Wrought iron gates heaved shut Hinges squeal like a pig, they are a pig. Slamming metal resonates In secure embrace. Ugly black rubber stains the concrete - Mascara on a cheap ***** If the rumbling cages are food for the beast Then I am stood in its bowels. The sour smell of rotting food Mixed with washing powder and bleach pollute. Greasy plastic, rancid fat Makes me recoil and retch. In a gap in the tar she grows. Raising her head to the sun in oblivious defiance
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Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 11:19 AM UTC
Dandelion
When my mind is at rest I think of peace and blissful things I see the unfettered and innocent smile of a new babe in arms Or the Omnipotence gilded arms outstretch showering blessings The shores of a pristine beach with blue waves marking times Silver sunset sprinkling magic across quiet waters with no stressing Or me sat at my fathers feet as he reads engrossed in his charmes My mind rests easy in places of warmth and enriching lovings My mind has no space to linger in the murkiness of failings I do not plunge dark dept to court the uninspiring s in terms To share company with wretches with wasted mental ecthings Eyes that see dew in darkness and acrimony in fruitless farms Voices made for howling dirges and apostles of negative cravings Demented downers who drink from the fountains of fallen vamps Satiated miserably they seek to retch their stench on followings My mind finds the luminous stars and praise their spark-lings It atunes to the silent melodies of sages who now sleep uncramp It relishes the delights of the million trillion wonders tinklings Its marvels the joys of the thousand mothers holding new champs Can share the lifting dreams of hopes for happy new beginnings Living is never about waste for the Creator avails no dumps For a mind that lives and grows in the Light is forever inspired and inspiring Copyright LaurencA.1stAugust2018.All rights reserved
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Aug 1, 2018
Aug 1, 2018 at 7:54 PM UTC
How I See .....
Every meal is hard to swallow With you present at the table My stomach rumbles Yes, in pain The swifty of my ways I absolutely hate eating with you Yearn to I do, retch The unpleasant time In which should be my fathers My hero, NO MATTER WHAT You take his place at the table But never, will you EVER have a place in my heart Ruined it you have for yourself Many not once a time including grandmother, has she despised you.
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Mar 11, 2019
Mar 11, 2019 at 7:38 PM UTC
Stepfather?
You’re so wonderful, you make me hate myself. You’re so delightful, you make me cringe and groan. You’re so marvelous, you make me furious. You’re so generous, you make me want to die. I see your smiling face, and frown. I hear your kindly voice, and cry. I touch your perfect skin, and sigh. I watch your refined mien, and retch. I think myself a good person, A Decent, Hard-Working fellow. But whenever I see you, I only think of myself akin to a wretched rat. Fit to fight for bits of trash in a rotten dumpster, And Nothing more. Why must you be so excellent? Why must you be so lovely? Why must your light shine like diamonds? Why must my heart be clouded with darkness? And why must you make me feel so ugly inside? It’s not your fault, not at all. But you do this to me, you know. You tear me to bits, doing nothing at all. Part of me wishes to love you, head to toe. The other wants to hate your guts, all and all. I know not what to do about you. If there is anything to do. Should I bare my heart, and tell-all? Or should I hold it inside, and grin through clenched teeth? I can’t say. But I do know this one fact. You are the essence of peerless perfection, and that is why I will never be as good as you, no matter how I try. And so I am left to do little but burn inside your light.
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Jul 3, 2016
Jul 3, 2016 at 2:09 AM UTC
You're So Wonderful, You Make Me Hate Myself
Poets make lousy friends because  eventually they’ll  skewer you with their poison pen; their  insulting  writ of relentless invective and opprobrious apoplectic venom. The naked foist of un-allayed aggression as art-form whereby  the vitriol of familiarity slices like a knife and digs in like a dagger.  The very nature of chumminess turns adversarial.  Like  acid in the eyes the sneering contemptible retch could cobble out words with a disgustingly exquisite though execrable precision. A quirk, an idiosyncrasy, a malevolent adherence so committed to  unmitigated truth that it is as a fist to the face,  a shocking starkness of  incivility justified by a requisite expedience hastened by the anxious need to blow one  off forthwith.  He was a veritable torrent  of abject invectives.
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Oct 12, 2013
Oct 12, 2013 at 3:53 PM UTC
The Cruel Poet
my eyes are heady    **** bloating                                        from within the sun        white embellishment lasers out                     lending provision      setting life   to the organic cog and clock provoking muted growth  to retch a bloom               leading                                       spending                                                                 seeding my tread  destroys nothing each step    frictionless   patterning little hovering eddies                               a fraction above ground minimal is my disruption enough    only to promote a deeper observation     tender fanning     of the life that i am fawning over how to feel this spritely at all times ?   t'would be a spell                                                  a fondled thing          it’s from our night of shared tether our infection threw out an extra pleasurable souvenir it carried its energy    into the ensuing day i am launched affection beckoned     into the true employment of my surroundings carrying my socks and shoes in one hand and my heart?  it is a possession of the senses i am truly led i am emitting
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Nov 4, 2022
Nov 4, 2022 at 9:44 PM UTC
serum
When you hear stalls emanating sobs In cracked, ***** bathrooms, in between jobs Drunk, gritting his teeth and getting buttfucked By black men, grunting, as you stand dumbstruck, Do you wonder how a man could be so down on his luck? In a truck-stop graffiti-tiled bathroom in his white frock, Trying to ignore the incessant crow of the **** Gagging between unforgiving ticks from the clock. Sipping on beer, the **** bleeds from the cell Spreading dollar bills over the ghost where he fell. Pale-white, scraggly, he bends down for his cash Using mental math to make the conversion from bills to crack. Rope still dangling between his teeth, he drops the syringe, Dragging a cigarette and counting his next binge. Do you wonder if on the way to help, he just lost His way? But he looks up to ask "the **** you want? Are you throwing out an ad hominum argument? Slipping into something like aluminum garments. Throw me face down into the edge of a tar pit, What are friends for?" Kaysea, turn back, you don't want to touch it Your lungs will turn black and your soul will be rusted Over by doubt, self-deprecation and shame You'll realize everyone else is exactly the same Only you've changed. You don't need the shot Lie sprawled, get sick naked in one spot (and rot) Lest we forget the chains of superstitious fear, The two of us would be lending bleeding ears. Gotta wait for the grenadier to return With the test results What have we learned? Gotta find the truth from within the turntables What have you earned? Misery loves company, and this is your catch. You desire the freedom of looking at mirrors to retch But it's not lucidity (you'll forget that a lot), Just impulses revealing that which is not. Your father'd die twice if that was your insight. Do we all have the right to be in hell for a night? There is a never ending layer of nicotine in my throat And nostril scabs, and that's all she wrote, I hope.
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Feb 8, 2011
Feb 8, 2011 at 1:38 PM UTC
New Razors
When you hear stalls emanating sobs In cracked, ***** bathrooms, in between jobs Drunk, gritting his teeth and getting buttfucked By black men, grunting, as you stand dumbstruck, Do you wonder how a man could be so down on his luck? In a truck-stop graffiti-tiled bathroom in his white frock, Trying to ignore the incessant crow of the **** Gagging between unforgiving ticks from the clock. Sipping on beer, the **** bleeds from the cell Spreading dollar bills over the ghost where he fell. Pale-white, scraggly, he bends down for his cash Using mental math to make the conversion from bills to crack. Rope still dangling between his teeth, he drops the syringe, Dragging a cigarette and counting his next binge. Do you wonder if on the way to help, he just lost His way? But he looks up to ask "the **** you want? Are you throwing out an ad hominum argument? Slipping into something like aluminum garments. Throw me face down into the edge of a tar pit, What are friends for?" Kaysea, turn back, you don't want to touch it Your lungs will turn black and your soul will be rusted Over by doubt, self-deprecation and shame You'll realize everyone else is exactly the same Only you've changed. You don't need the shot Lie sprawled, get sick naked in one spot (and rot) Lest we forget the chains of superstitious fear, The two of us would be lending bleeding ears. Gotta wait for the grenadier to return With the test results What have we learned? Gotta find the truth from within the turntables What have you earned? Misery loves company, and this is your catch. You desire the freedom of looking at mirrors to retch But it's not lucidity (you'll forget that a lot), Just impulses revealing that which is not. Your father'd die twice if that was your insight. Do we all have the right to be in hell for a night? There is a never ending layer of nicotine in my throat And nostril scabs, and that's all she wrote, I hope.
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Jan 10, 2014
Jan 10, 2014 at 11:59 AM UTC
In And Them
I. Somewhere in a mailroom in China is my acceptance letter to Brown University, fluttering in the sticky, smog-filled wind like an unspoken birthright, vacuum sealed in some shoddy warehouse, slap-banged next to my father's porcelain wares and flasks – and my grandfather's, and his father's. "Son," my father tells me, "you've got a lot of the old man in you. "I am grateful." I then retch in the dingy comfort of our hotel room bath before proceeding to lunch. Dad's Chinese counterparts congratulate me on being able to tell them what I want to do when I grow up. "Wo yao dang yi ge shangren – zhu fu." “I want to become a businessman – get rich.” II. "Wo xuyao xiezuo."   “I must write.” TS Eliot once asked me, "Do I dare disturb the universe?" I do not know yet, but I think I have found fragments of an answer lodged in hotel bathrooms, a Tianhe-bound overpass on the way to Beijing Street, heirloom warehouses, And two Canton fairs. "To get rich is glorious," Deng Xiaoping once said. But I glance at My father and mother, And theirs, And wonder if all their life, they have but knocked on the doors of their fate - chased dreams not tobacco stewed or gold-ground by the teeth of an Other. As to answer your question, T.S Eliot: Maybe, if just to find where I truly belong.
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May 11, 2015
May 11, 2015 at 11:49 AM UTC
From Binondo to Brown University