Right here write now all open ended honesty dies
Cuz I realize her eyes r always on me

God forbid I have my own space
Only place where I find a release
Has been forced to seize to exist
U can find my thoughts n prayers amongst the mist
an imprint of fist against the wall
Evidently a stroll thru the mall was too much to ask for
I won't waste my time fighting a past war

With another dumb broad who swore to god she wasn't flawed
My iPod will b smashed by morning , by morning
A warning
Was givin,
Proceed living
Ashes to ashes
But my need smashes ,my existence
Pure resistance
Reinforcers my stance

Yet if I can b granted one wish it would be
to be able to dance
rathervthen judged in a glance
Was there ever
Really a chance for our so called romance?
U had a husband I had a drug problem
So yeah.....issues we got em
Teachers have taught em everything
They didn't need to know
Let's see u show
me
how to conquer or deal with jealousy
or the way I feel.
Now that would be a real
Life lesson

Instead they got me second guessin
Waste more time on impression then passion the ability.to be .just .me
is what I'm askin



**** just realized I'm sittin at the bar alone lost in the zone
I wanna fit in b a clone to each is own don't exist
**** THAT PUT A FIST IN THE AIR
HONESTKY I REALLY DONT CARE

go ahead n stare

I You'll see the real me
N u don't wanna go there
I'll flow there here
In front of a mirror
Face to face with my most fear
In a box with a fox
Or where ever the ****
I fall in the category as stuck
on stupid
But I've got so many lessons to teach you kid