Brain shutdown is a thing.
And now I know how it happens (though I may not necessarily
be able to describe it in words that are apt,
because it's more or less an elusive idea - not tangible.)
It doesn't happen because of a guy.
Or a girl for that matter.
Intimidation, however, could be a chief cause.

When someone throws words at you that reek of eloquence designed specifically in twists to make you feel inferior
Or when you come across terms that are alien, important and alien, like Physics or Philosophy,
Maths, or anything else really that is "important" to get and you're all pressured,
and alien,
Existence Of God - Nonexistence of The World.

Or when it gets too much from people and circumstances
And you feel like you're standing mid-road with all that traffic coming to hit you on your face
so you will fall,
so you will disappear
And instead,
your mind falls. and it disappears.
and quitens
entrapped in a blanket, this brain of yours
you go whoosh. BLANK.

Replaying and rewinding in my head,
the last time I heard your voice,
all the words I could have said,
but didn't, crashing like waves,
they dash against each other,
but as the waves calm and quitens,
I'm left again, confused and lost.

Re-reading our conversations,
never able to make sense of it,
what was intended and what was not,
a new meaning forming in my head,
fogging up every other thought,
without an end, it goes on,
and will go on, till I breathe my last.