I havent had a minute to myself,
To clear my conscience I meditate with water in wishing well,
Even when my dreams fell , it seemed hell , I just know every sick gets well.
Thats my philosophy,
All gets well, and just now? How I make it so well? a guilty mind travels slow with time, find your innocense and reach a devine, not pork and swine but forks and wine and dine with hearts of mimes that speak existence of peace of mind.
See religion is all trial tribulations and signs, and wisdom? Comes from the leading blind and learning to shine.  Well, so swell is devotion, but this world only teaches neglect and biting the hand with food in it still open.
Still its spoken, but none tends to hear, open mouths shake till the truth appears loose like a mirror.
When perceptions arent clearer.
So where do I  lay or lie , the truth?
Love is gone ******* ! Babys having babbies and droppin outta school,
Life isnt cool but its get well thats my philosphy when **** looks like hell.
Gotta keep going, till Im well.
lord as my cosmic witness, positivy is a magnet if you learn it nature, listen-
The sound of silence is in riches,
Thats why corperate stays in the shadow power soaking all the admissions, but the lesser gains more and looses nothing because of position.
Whats my philoshpy? All gets well, yeah it gets better Love is a real you and me , connection between people felt deeper spiritually.
  
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Thoughts ..
Confusion in my head on where I am and where I want to be.
Sleepless nights because my thoughts are never at peace..
I ask myself when, how and why did this happen
My ship is sinking and I chose me to be the captian
I hate when I get like this, it makes it hard to see straight
I feel locked in ah cage with myself that I can't escape
I need someone to come in and save me with a with a long beautiful cape
But I am the only superhero in this story and it's not up for debate
See I can save myself but RightNow I don't know how
I see smiles and laughter but how I feel right now is so foul
Things don't make sense they never have
I've always had ah plan to paint out this life path
But right now I feel stuck and ah rut and all I can do is pout
Right now  have  a lot of doubt I can't explain **** with my mouth
So I use poetry to explain how I feel  the nice way like sweet old ladys from down south .
I pray I feel better and find a way out
Because I am the capitan and ah superhero I have a lot to let out
See I can save me I  don't need anyone else
But im fighting myself I'm running out wealth and losing good health
I can't eat can barely sleep this pain cuts so sharp like a knife dugged so deep
In my spine I argue with my mind
I tell myself over and over that I'll be fine
But deep down I know I'm lyin
I stand tall scared to cry
Thoughts never stop runnin til you die
I believe in the 3rd eye but right now I think it's closed
I'm off balance I suppose
I preach positivy but I feel surrounded by negativity
I planted these roots to grow strong like an oak tree
But lately I've been so disappointed in me
See I can save myself but right now I don't know how
So excuse me for my attitude and my demeanor I know you can spot this pain out of ah crowd
That's really not me
One day y'all will see
Why These are my reasons on why I can't Sleep.