"lyle" poems
This is the easy time, there is nothing doing.
I have whirled the midwife's extractor,
I have my honey,
Six jars of it,
Six cat's eyes in the wine cellar,
Wintering in a dark without window
At the heart of the house
Next to the last tenant's rancid jam
and the bottles of empty glitters ----
Sir So-and-so's gin.
This is the room I have never been in
This is the room I could never breathe in.
The black bunched in there like a bat,
No light
But the torch and its faint
Chinese yellow on appalling objects ----
Black asininity. Decay.
Possession.
It is they who own me.
Neither cruel nor indifferent,
Only ignorant.
This is the time of hanging on for the bees--the bees
So slow I hardly know them,
Filing like soldiers
To the syrup tin
To make up for the honey I've taken.
Tate and Lyle keeps them going,
The refined snow.
It is Tate and Lyle they live on, instead of flowers.
They take it. The cold sets in.
Now they ball in a mass,
Black
Mind against all that white.
The smile of the snow is white.
It spreads itself out, a mile-long body of Meissen,
Into which, on warm days,
They can only carry their dead.
The bees are all women,
Maids and the long royal lady.
They have got rid of the men,
The blunt, clumsy stumblers, the boors.
Winter is for women ----
The woman, still at her knitting,
At the cradle of Spanis walnut,
Her body a bulb in the cold and too dumb to think.
Will the hive survive, will the gladiolas
Succeed in banking their fires
To enter another year?
What will they taste of, the Christmas roses?
The bees are flying. They taste the spring.
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WHAT ABOUT THE NEXT GENERATION
THE ONLY WAY TO GET TO THE NEXT GENERATION
IS GET A FLAMING COMPUTER, GET THE INTERNET, AND PAY TV
AND YOU CAN BE AS COOL AS ME, IF YA HAVEN’T GOT A COMPUTER
YOU ARE A COMPLETE LOSER, WHO IS A TAD BRAINLESS
NO THE COMPUTER IS THE SIGN OF THE NEXT GENERATION
NOT LITTLE YOUNG DUDES WHO ARE JEALOUS OF YA
NEH, THE COMPUTER IS THE GATEWAY, TO THE NEXT GEN, BABY
NOTHING IS GOING TO TAKE YOU THERE QUICKER, THAN A COMPUTER
A COMPUTER IS COOL, CAUSE IT SHOWS YOU WHERE ALL THE GREAT PARTIES ARE
WHEN YOUR FAVOURITE FOOTY TEAM IS PLAYING
IT SHOWS KIDS HAVING A BALL WITH YOUTUBE, BY PUTTING ON VLOGS
AND WRITING BLOGS AND YOU CAN DISPLAY YOUR ART ON A COMPUTER
THE WORLD GETS TO SEE IT, AS WELL AS WRITING, IT’S ****** FUN
FACEBOOK IS COOL AS WELL, YOU CAN DISPLAY ART ON THAT AS WELL
SO IF ANYONE SAYS COMPUTERS **** AND NOT THE NEXT GENERATION
THEY CAN GO AND **** A LEMON, AND I WILL BE AS CHEEKY AS I WANT
TO SHOW, THAT COMPUTERS, CAN TAKE YOU TO THE NEXT GEN FASTER
THAN ANY JOB THAT YOU DON’T WANT TO BE IN
I WANT TO BE AN ENTERTAINER, I AM BETTER, BUT DIFFERENT TO OTHERS WHEN IT COMES TO STYLE
HEY BABY, OOH YEAH, COMPUTERS CAN SLIDE YA TO THE NEXT GEN, YEAH
HEY BABY OOH YEAH, COMPUTERS CAN SLIDE YA TO THE NEXT GEN YEAH
YA SEE AS I SEARCH AROUND CYBER SPACE
I SEE SOME NICE LOOKING CHICKS, YOU MEAN, NICE, I SAID YEAH NICE
THEY ARE SO PRETTY, VERY PRETTY, HEY BABY, OOH YEAH OH YEAH
I WANNA PARTY WITH THE COOL PEOPLE HANGING ON CYBER SPACE
YOU SEE COMPUTERS ARE THE GATEWAY, TO THE NEXT GEN YEAH
AND WE OPEN UP A NICE COLD BEER, SHE’S SO BEAUTY
WONDERFULLY, DRESSED FOR THE OCCASION YEAH
COMPUTERS ARE FUN, NOT FOR THE SQUARES, WHO JUST WORKS IN DEAD END JOBS
FOR ME, COMPUTERS ARE THE KEY TO MY FUTURE
I AM NOT LIKE MY BIG KOOMARRI MAN OF A MATE, LYLE
I LOVE SOCIAL MEDIA, I AM COOL MAN, UP IN COMPUTER TERRITORY NOW, BUDDY BOY
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 10:27 PM UTC
THE ALLAN FAMILY STORY
YOU SEE MY FAMILY WERE A GOOD CAMPING FAMILY
AND WE HAD THIS BIG ORANJE TENT, WHERE THE
FAMILY BROUGHT TO CAMPING GROUNDS, TO
ENJOY WEEKEND CAMPING, I REMEMBER CAMPING
EVERY WHERE AROUND NSW AND THE ACT
AND AS A WAY OF EXCAPING THE NORMAL LIVES
ME AND MY BROTHER PUT THE TENT UP IN THE BACKYARD
AND HAD OUR OWN CAMPING GROUND, AND I HAVE
SO MANY GREAT MOMENTS, LIKE NEW YEARS EVE PARTIES WITH LYLE
AND YEAH, I WAS LIKE A NORMAL TEENAGER, WITH SLEEPOVERS IN THE TENT
AND HAVING AN ESKY OF DRINK AND SAUSAGES AND OTHER THINGS LIKE
CHIPS AND I GOT SOME GREAT PHOTOS ME AND LYLE ARE HAVING A GREAT
PARTY FOR NEW YEARS EVE, WE CELEBRATED WITH POISON AND DEF LEOPARD
AND LYLE BOUGHT AIR SUPPLY, OH MY GODFATHER, I HATE THAT BAND
I REMEMBER WHEN ME AND MY BROTHER WENT IN THE TENT, WE WATCHED TV
AND WE TALKED FOR HOURS LIKE ME AND LYLE, WE HAD A HEAP OF ****** FUN
YA SEE I REMEMBER LYLE SAID HE WASN’T SCARED OF THE OLD BOOGIE WOMAN
AND I AM NOT SCARED OF THE OLD BOOGIE WOMAN EITHER
AND MY BROTHER LOVED TO JOKE AROUND WITH US
YA SEE, LYLE WAS ENJOYING PUTTING THE TENT UP
AND WE BOTH HAD OUR STEREOS, AND WE PLAYED GREAT TOP 49 HITS OF THAT ERA
YOU SEE, MY DAD WAS A GREAT CAMPER AND BUSHWALKER, AND BUDDHA’S SPIRIT
MADE ME INHERIT DAD’S ADVENTURE BLOOD, BECAUSE, OF MY LAST 2 HUMAN LIVES
BEING GREAME THORNE, AND PATRICK DUNBAR, BOTH KILLED AT 8
AND BUDDHA MADE ME AN ALLAN, TO KEEP ME SAFE
BUT I WAS A KEEN BACKYARD CAMPER, COOKING ON GAS BBQS
AND EATING CHIPS, AND HEAPS OF CHOCOLATES, AND ME AND LYLE BOTH WATCHED THE CRICKET
ON THE TELEVISION IN THE TENT AND NEW YEARS EVE, WE WATCHED THE GREAT
BICENTENNIAL NEW YEARS EVE CONCERT IN 1987, ME AND LYLE HAD FUN DOING THIS AS
WELL AS WATCH GREAT MOVIES ON THE VHS RECORDER,
BUT THAT ALL ENDED, WE RAGED A BIG PARTY IN THE TENT, WITH MUSIC AND GREAT FOOD
I CAN’T REALLY HAVE *** I AM NOT THE *** TYPE, I TALK ABOUT ***** DONORS
BUT ONE THING I WAS GOOD AT, WAS TALKING, WITH LYLE, PATRICK MY BROTHER, SCOTT,
AND MANY MORE, AND THE BIG ORANGE TENT WAS FINALLY BOUGHT BY A FAMILY
I THOUGHT I SAW IT AT THE ABORIGINAL TENT EMBASSY, IT COULD’VE BEEN
IT LOOKED LIKE IT, AND IT’S GOOD THAT, IF IT IS, THAT POOR PEOPLE WITHOUT A HOME
ARE ENJOYING THIS TENT AS A HOME
GREAT ALLAN FAMILY CAMPING OVER
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 10:50 PM UTC
Dear Little Lyle,
Please forgive me for the things I have done to you. For too long I have been kept you hidden and protected and numb from the world.
I know I hurt you by keeping you away from all the beautiful things life has to offer. I know you're afraid, scared, hurt, and injured by what I have done.
I kept you in darkness where nobody can see you, I kept you quiet so no one can hear you, I kept you bounded so you don't hurt yourself or others, I kept you alone so others don't have to bother you, hurt your, or make fun of you.
I spoke to you before that it be okay but I was wrong I kept on hurting you, I lied to you, forced you to do things to you that injured you and hurt you.
I made you cry, I made you hurt, I made it so that i wanted to **** you, so you don't have to hurt anymore.
I am so sorry for almost taking your life, over and over and over again. I know you were laying there whimpering, alone, and terrified.
I know you just wanted a hug and kind attention.
I am sorry for not giving that to you.
You just wanted a hug, a simple , "I Love you!", just a feeling of a little bit of okayness.
I know you're screaming, yelling, crying, hurting, all alone.
You just wanted someone to talk to, to play with, and run around the playground playing.
I am sorry I keep ****** you and hating you everyday.
I am so so so sorry. I am so sorry I keep lying to you and denying you any kind of kindness, love, and comfort.
Those people that hurt you, yelled at your, touched you, hit you, and made of your are now gone.
I am so sorry for trying to **** you everyday of every second, I am so sorry. I know you want you just want a hug and someone to tell you the monsters and clowns are gone, they are, I know made it impossible to love me again, but please find it in your little heart, little hands, and little self to please forgive me and to love me again.
I didn't know what else to do but to hide you from all the monsters, pain, tears, and blood.
In the dark nobody could see you but me, I am sorry for keeping you there for so long.
It will be okay, you will be okay, all the monsters are gone. You don't have to be afraid of me. I am kind, gentle, fun, energetic, and helpful.
I am so sorry for hurting you, and for allowing others to hurt you so. Please believe me when i say it will be okay, the monsters are gone, you don't have to hide anymore, you don't have to run away anymore. Remember when we were little we'd always asked god for special powers, he gave them to me to protect you and keep you safe, but it was my fault for failing to do those things, but the monsters are gone.
The monsters are gone, the screaming, and hurting is gone.
We don't have to fight anymore.
You don't have to hide anymore.
You can come and play in the light and in the dark, nobody will hurt you.
Nobody will hurt you!
I will care for you, love you, and teach you.
I will still protect you and make it safe and comfortable as much as possible. It's okay, It's okay, the monsters are gone.
with love,
Lyle K. Barber
Apr 9, 2016
Apr 9, 2016 at 9:54 PM UTC
i don’t want to be a hooligan, i used to get get yelled at at the pokies, I HATED THAT
i used to be pushed to being a shy person a shy old dogie, I HATED THAT
i used to get yelled at in the towns centre tavern I HATED THAT
people used to say i am shy, I HATE BEING SHY
young dudes used to hide bullying me so mum and dad don’t find out I HATED THAT
i hate people treating me like their mob, PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE
you see the guy who nicked my lunch was an iditio, I WILL NEVER GO NEAR HIM
I WILL NEVER TOUCH ANOTHER POKER MACHINE, WASTE OF FUCKEN MONEY
i feel people are trying to take my fun away I HATE THEM
PEOPLE ARE CALLING ME A WOOSEY, I HATE THEM ALSO
peop[le are treating me like a ****** I HATE THEM
i was getting teased at work, ya see i was told i was getting a job at tuggers ACTEW
and without explaining to me, they gave the job to someone else, I HATE THEM, ***** THEM
people want me to behave like a mature adult, I HATE THAT
i am expressing myself, i want a break, PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK
support workers tease at work and when i tease, ya know just a small tease i get in trouble I HATE THAT
a man was telling me i forgot to clean the hubcaps, when he could do it himself, I HATE THAT
I hear voices that people are truing to get me to do what i used to do, in every stretch of the imagination, I HATE THEM
i hear voices of people trying to get me to be an itchy hooligan, I HATE THAT
every time i hear a car or motorcycle i hype up by blowing my legs up, I HATE THAT
i hear my voices saying, your not a family person brian, or your still a shy person brian yer mate, I HATE THAT
i don’t want to get itchy feelings, I HATE THEM
the reason why i am not treating lyle like a mate, because he was crazy enough to put me in domestic violence, I HATE HIM
he had anger management issues HE’S AN IDIOT
someone called me a great big ugly snout, I HATED HIM
you see i hate being involved in domestic violence, I HATE THAT
I HATE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
I HATE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
I DON’T WANT TO BE A YOUNG DUDE WHO LIKES DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, CAUSE I DON’T LIKE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
so in hindsight, i prefer to be a little young dude as opposed to someone who likes domestic violence
i hate violence in any way, i think i would know
don’t tell me to shut up, cause i won’t, got it, good
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 5:59 AM UTC
Andy loved a girl named Sandy
Bill saw a horse standing on the hill
Cory told his mother a made up story
Dave dug many a grave
Eddy loaned his teddy to Neddy
Frank bought a Sherman tank
Greg had a wooden leg
Hilton was related to Mrs Wilton
Ivan strolled in the park with Jan
Jack scratched his own back
Kyle's hair style also suited Lyle
Lance couldn't obtain a bed valance
Max paid a hefty lot of tax
Neal earned a reputation for his *** appeal
Oscar drank at the Crown and Stag bar
Paul gave ten shillings to Saul
Quentin found a silver tin
Roger was a work dodger
Sam enjoyed a portion of Virginia ham
Timmy sure knew how to shimmy
Umberto listened to the concerto
Vlad priced an inner city pad
Wing put his arm in a sling
Xain often rode on the express train
Yule took a picture of the farmer's mule
Zeal looked forward to his evening meal
Aug 28, 2013
Aug 28, 2013 at 7:11 PM UTC
the truth of the past with my thoughts
i remember when i was getting drunk with beer
and my mate lyle was saying my beard doesn’t suit me
but what he really meant was drinking beer doesn’t suit me
because i get too drunk
so he bullied me all the way to the train
he did mean that beer doesn’t look good on me
but he said my beard doesn’t suit me cause he ain’t my daddy
then a man in melbourne said just because you have a beard doesn’t make you a man
but he meant just because you drink beer doesn’t make you a man
young dudes used to call me woosey but they wanted me to stand up to them
so i could get bullied all my life, well, i don’t want to get bullied because only school kids bully
you see i stopped drinking beer but i kept my beard because a beard helps me be a sophisticated writer and artist
and i look good at the poetry slam with a beard, yeah lyle was right, beer isn’t the right drink for me
i prefer cocacola, i know it rots your teeth but it tastes ****** great, dude
beer isn’t a good look for me
my beard suits me down to the ground
just because you drink beer doesn’t make you a man, i could be a cool person who drinks coke, i love my beard
beard = the bushy thing on my chin, it suits me to a tee
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 12:28 AM UTC
i am a hobo and a *****
and my best mate is thommo
i have a beard and i never want to cut it
cause i am a hobo and there is no doubt about it
i have salt coming from my sweat
because i am a ***** hobo
i have a filthy mind, you see if you tease me
i will tie you up with fishing line
i am a loser, because i am a hobo
being a hobo is better than being a big rich **** anyway
i feel i don’t want to work because i am an artist
i get my mates looking worried because they really care for me
hobos are cool hobos are cool, i am a hobo and proud of it
i wish patrick would get out of my head because i was a fool to ever think i was as straight as him
i am a hobo and i’m a ***** and i never shave oh no no
cause i am a hobo, and never put foot wrong unless you understand that i have changed
you see i hear patricks voice saying that he wants to do what he used to do
i say you know what used to did, he just used to
cause i am a hobo and a *****
and i work hard at cleaning the bad stuff out of my brain, yeah
i am a ***** and a hobo and patrick is a ******
i am young and i run free, you see patrick is old and grey
cause we are getting on in years, and patrick is living in the past, what a LOSER
i am a hobo and ypbbo, i don’t believe in being woosey clean
i am not to blame not to blame, for the problems of the world, it puts us in shame
a terror in paris and the world trade centre, it is horrible what the terrorists are putting this world through
i am a hobo and a ***** and my best mates name is thommo
and patrick is stuck with lyle, like what should happen
ya see dude i am ‘cool man’ and he said cool you, yeah cool me
your a boy mmmmmm i am a hobo and ***** i am having fun, dudes
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 8:13 PM UTC
Ani
Bob
Cat
Dido
E...enough said
Florence
Grace
Hank
Ice T
Janis
Kimbra
Lyle
Melissa
Neko
Olivia
Poe
Queen (this one is tricky)
Robyn
Stevie
Tori
U2
Vic
Waits
XTC
Yo La Tengo
Zak
Many thanks
Jul 23, 2013
Jul 23, 2013 at 2:01 PM UTC
Lyle
I once heard
went to chinatown
had a son and
three brothers.
I have only met him
in
stories and faded photographs,
tears and insecurities.
Lyle
I once heard
looks just like my dad
with fingers crossed
hoping
they aren’t
really
the same.
Apr 9, 2011
Apr 9, 2011 at 10:25 PM UTC
little daddy waddy
******* his thumb
just like a stuck up little brat
i am a man, ya know, run of the mill
though i am penniless, but
that doesn’t stop me from being talented
but dad teased me like a stuck up little brat
is what he looks like to me
yeah, he helped me
but i wasn’t his cool kid, back then
what is wrong with me
to him, i was trying to be a cool kid
dad, to me was a nerd
cause he probably only liked together people
i tried to gain his respect
but i learnt together means theory for *****
i am never going to grow up for dad, but he isn’t around anymore
i am a real real man and dad was like a little baby wa wa wa wa wa
i liked pat in my head, because i didn’t want to pick fights with dad
i was visioning dad as a perfect little gentlemen, what’s wrong with that
i probably hear laughing at my mental health TV station idea, what is wrong with that
that’ll be fun for the poor and suffering to have a mental health TV station
mentally ill people love entertaining
i hate voices in my head saying to rob my stuff
i was a little young dude, who isn’t too woosey for life
who’s a little young dude, who isn’t too woosey for life
brian’s a little young dude, who isn’t too woosey for life
ha ha ha, i hear voices of old mates protecting me
they look like geeks who are trying to be like little homely kids
dad never understood that i was trying to be nice
he didn’t understand i liked partying at shopping centres
i wanted to be a real hotshot cool kid, to all the party young dudes, i liked that
i chucked a tantrum because dad wanted me to be with disability workers, i wanted more
ya know mucking around in groups with them, yeah they are nice
but i am an independent artist and writer aqnd youtube entertainer
mind you carers are helping me be an independent artist and writer
i was having delusions that my mates pat and lyle were treating me like a little cool kid, they ain’t my daddy’s though
dad was, i never got on with him, i wish i did
dad tried to say, your one of the young dudes, treating me like him and mummy, i hated that, but i tolerate that now
i heard old mates saying, leave the more big bad brainy winey, your not like us, NEVER
when i committed that awful act on an 11 year old boy, i heard my mate pat say in my head
you are not ever going to be treated like one of US young dudes ever again
the voices say to me, i am a cool kid to the young dudes, but i ain’t better though
then the voices say, ***** are better, i told the voices, i am not a criminal, i am not a pheadphile
i am party loving, poetry loving cool man, dude
the voices can say **** till they are blue in the face, i ain’t getting worried, but the voices are annoying me all day, I HATE THAT
i tried to be a little cool kid playing cool for people going to bed, and dad said, uhhhh! get away from me, kid
dad was a man, and now he’s little betty campbell, see ya betty from cool man brian
you see dad up there in NIRVANA, i am the only disabled person in our close knit family
and you are being forgotten too, in a way, in the cool way, dad did say, he doesn’t wanna be cool
well, this affects betty’s mojo
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 5:06 AM UTC
you see i had problems with my electricity
it seemed to be pulled right out
i shouldn’t worry and i don’t worry
but it could’ve been one of the neighbours
getting sick of me yelling, i know it seemed stupid
and why would they, but i hate the fact of blaming them
it might have well as been another electricity man
but if it was someone teasing me, i say won’t you stop
PLEASE STOP PLEASE STOP PLEASE STOP TEASING LIKE THAT
it’s illegal it’s very illegal, please don’t tamper with my electricity
because if i catch them, i will call the police
i am not like lyle, i am like myself, i hate people teasing me
i made mistakes and i know i am being treated like steph from neighbours
but i just didn’t want to talk to those people who sat down on the seat near my house
i haven’t any reason to talk to them, they have problems
but if they pulled my electricity cable, it will upset me a lot, LEAVE ME ALONE
for i am a family person, who is being treated like a weird person
i have mental issues and i don’t know how to get rid of it
but the big fat rich ***** of my past, want to tease me till the day i die
i don’t really want that, i would appreciate it if the teasing would stop
i have problems but not half as bad as the problems the person who tampered with my electricity
i know i am not strong, but i don’t deserve crap teasing like this
so, you don’t have to talk to me, just stop planning to tease me
i don’t think i am a hooligan, no, i am a fun loving guy who loves life a lot
i want to do my youtube shows and not worry about being told i was too woosey to be a computer nerd
but i would like to see the people who say that and say pull their electricity cable out to see how they like it
but it won’t be me, because i am a nice person, but not cowardly nice, i want to enjoy my computer,
PLEASE STOP PLEASE STOP PLEASE STOP TEASING LIKE THAT
i feel that dad is pushing the Australian into me, by buzzing flies in my face
to protect me from those awful teasers of my past
i always was a cool dude, and i always had a lot of fun
i preferred to go to the movies or to the water park or go to the footy
rather than muck around hearing nerds say, have you been behaving
but that is a sign of not really being in trouble, i don’t believe in being a tough kid
but i hated being treated like a bad person all because i yell in the street
i yelled to stop the voices, and i told them to leave me alone
PLEASE STOP PLEASE STOP PLEASE STOP TEASING LIKE THAT
i am too nicer person to be treated like this, true or not
I AM NICE I AM NICE I AM A VERY NICE PERSON, DUDE
don’t mess with my electricity, because dudes, i deserve praise for doing writing and art and not teasing
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 2:58 AM UTC
i am a little cool kid looking at my little thumbs
you see i might look timid but i ain’t that dumb
you see i hate people trying to rob me, i am terrified of that
you see if someone hassled me on the street
i will be naturally scared oh yeah
i don’t like trusting people because they scrub me off
you see my little thumbs are going eeeeee like the fonz
maybe i was teasing my father thinking that is what family people do
i really like my father because he protected me oh yeah
i was scared of dogs and it drove my brother mad
how i never passed the dog, even if it can’t jump over the fence
and when i tied myself up because i was scared of being kidnapped
i know i was big but i don’t want people to want to fight me
when a kid said i was his mob and i tied myself up on family
but i ain’t into being kidnapped because it is horrible ya see
i was a little cool kid, never told a lie
that was because i wanted to hold my hand on the pie
you see i asked a man to kidnap me and i stopped cars
to get a ride, to nowhere in particular just so i can feel i have been taken
but my little thumbs and little fingers
sit around the coke oh yeah
i have always watch cool shows dudes like you can’t do that on television and the young ones
and neighbours yeah
and i watched a lot of movies and had popcorn too
i went to Jamison water slide to swim with the kids
and then i go to the belconnen mall and have a puffin donut yeah mate yeah
but if banyone who fought me i would try and say, i don’t believe in violence
cause the world ain’t ready for my eternity things
i know just one thing, fighting doesn’t solve anything
you could win one battle and they come and rob your house
and you look at the ship marks on your legs and then i will shy right up
i know i like being safe in my own little home
drinking a coke saying with my teeth clenched,i am a little cool kid
because i had lyle as a friend, i tried to be a cool kid
flashing my little thumbs up and down
that is how i was a little teenager
Dec 15, 2015
Dec 15, 2015 at 5:40 AM UTC
Rainbow village episode 13
It was getting late on January 24" and Lyle brought his bin to the road outside Rainbow village, and as he got to the road. He saw his old drinking friend, Walt Sullivan, and they had a lot to talk about, like that Austealia day in the sports bar, back in 1985, where it was decorated in Aussie flags, and boxing kangaroo flags as wel, as green and gold streamers and a poster of Captain Cook, and they remembered every joke that was told that night,
Like what did the gum tree say to it's owner when his wife went shopping
And the answer is, how much can a koala bare, the joes hardly made sense, thinking back, but we had ***** down us, and then Walt told a joke, how Many Ausies does it take to ***** in a light bulb, and the answer is, none, they are too busy drinking beer and saying
G' day, and then Lyle told a joke, which was what was the first thing captain cook saw as he arrived in Sydney, and the answer is, the first thing he saw is a drunken man lying on the ground because right wing governments don't give a rats *** and after that Lyle started to tale about life in the village, and he said he has never been happier, he doesn't have to worry about being lonely because he knows everyone here, and he can come and go as he pleases, And that is better than a nursing home, heaps better, and then Walt gave Lyle a VB to celebrate Australia day with and then they started talking about the formalities of the Australia day celebrations down the pub, and one formality was, the new Australian citizens, who are celebrating being Australians, as well as the annual beer gulping contest, and Lyle won two years of that, and then Walt told them that he liked the annual cricket match, which was played at the sports club oval, and Walt is still bragging about hitting heaps of sixes, and heaps of fours too.
It was a great experience to play cricket, cause it is the Australian game, and we had an esky full of beer, soft drinks and salad as well as a BBQ, and the Australia day was cool.
And Walt told Lyle that he liked playing up back in the old days, by meeting his friends down the drains and drink to people's health down there. And Lyle who didn't approve of that said goodbye, and went inside, and Walt went back to his house, and Lyle went into his villa and watched the box, and yes he saw the tennis. Which made him automatically think of the Australia day annual Tennis contest, which went for 10 years, and Lyle wa thinking about it smiling because he won all of the 10 years, and the prize was a trophy as well as a $1,000 cheque, Lyle was very happy, but looking back at it, the tennis event is sadly missed by the community, but you can't take the success away from Lyle, yes, it was cool
Thought Lyle, the end
Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 3:13 AM UTC
1.
I feel strange
grandfather
referring to you by
your first name
2.
did you know
people always ask me why
as though i’m supposed to know?
3.
I don’t even question
that
you would’ve been proud of me
4.
can you miss someone
you’ve never met?
5.
I just want you to know
I
don’t
blame
you.
Apr 13, 2011
Apr 13, 2011 at 5:07 PM UTC
you see i fear the hooligans of this town are doing to me like i did to dad
you see i hated what i did as a child, because everyone was nice except
the bullies who bullied me to get posers out of my television guide
even if it ruined my guide, I don’t want people bullying me in that way
you see young dudes watch TV and adults out for walks
well young dudes go fro walks occasionally and i am in young dude heaven
you see people are trying to pump my body up to make me fight them
I don’t believe in violence and i don’t believe in mucking with cowards who want to fight
you see dudes, i am not a hooligan, i am a family person
you see i hate being told to stop looking at someones baby
especially when i ain’t really looking, and i hate being forced to fight the hooligans
who pick you on the the street and start bullying you for no apparent reason
you see dudes i am a reformed man now, I hated what the men used to do to me
I would hate to be treaed like my mate because he is such a loser and he is so negative
and he probably brought it all on himself but i don’t want to be treated like him
especially when i am a nice person and i don’t want people to bully me
i had too much of that bullying in school and at the LETS course
and i remember being bullied at fyshwich TAFE, i just want people to leave me alone
whether i can fight or not, I don’t want to fight, so stop trying to fight me
you see last night i heard dad coming into my dream trying to explain exactly what he was doing
but i said, dad work on Betty, because i was just trying to be a normal kid
who was suffering through bullying all my childhood years
well, i might not have showed it, but i hated giving up my posters and i hated being with Lyle
you see he had anger management issues and i hated giving up all my money to Paula
mind you i like helping the poor, but i don’t want to be forced to, only when i have enough money
I hate when the poor drunken louts of this town treating me like a man to bully
if i don’t pay attention, and i hated being tread like a hooligan who has to be an on looker
i prefer if people would stop trying to pulley me, i don’t believe in bullying or kidnapping
I feel people are trying to keep me with the losers and if i don’t go near the losers
like the poster boy and Paula the lady asking for money
I hate being asked for money, I wish i had money, so i can be famous
I hate when people laugh at me, i have been laughed at all my life
I don’t want people to treat me like a little shy boy, or a target to tees
you see they are little wooseys for life, you see i love life
I love life more that any of these mates, ever did, and if i wanted to **** myself i would have done it now, I am not shy
i just don’t want the people at the mall to keep fighting so close to me, fighting is for the hooligans and i am not a hooligan
I was a nice boy at school and i didn’t believe in violence or bullying in anyway
If i could have that time all back, I would say NO, because i hate when people treat me like a ****** push over
i am no push over, and i wish people would leave me alone and stop treating me like a man to a fight
fighting is for the pits,and i don’t believe in violence in anyway
i prefer to be in young dude heaven which is with people who would treat me like a normal person
Nov 10, 2015
Nov 10, 2015 at 7:50 PM UTC
i am a slob and i live life oh yeah
being a slob of the century
you see i don’t shave because i don’t want to be a pretty boy
and i am a nice person but i can’t be clean
the more i try i have problems oh yeah
but i need to clean my house, so i will let my beard grow long
i can’t approve of little babies teasing
but i wanna be a man with hairs on my chin
come on pretty boy, tease me like a nerd teases a crazy person
cause i am a crazy person, oh yeah i am
i don’t believe in violence like you do
but i believe in being a crazy bearded ***** and hobo don’t you know
i stink i stink i stink i really really stink, people say i am smelly, but i don’t care
because dude oh dude i am a crazy person who believes in previous lives can’/t ya see
i could be like mr bean, but he is too clean
he obsesses about it, why should i
why am i treated like the worst enemy of you
i always liked patrick, but i hate him siding with lyle
cause he is a bloke with anger management issues
with me oh me, i have no problems at all
apart from the fact, that i do smell
i just had a shower but i don’t wanna shave
cause only little pretty boys shave, and i am no little pretty boy
my beard suits me to a tee, i am a cool person
and if anyone says i am not cool, they can kiss my curvy **** GOODBYE
you see i like doing art, doing art is cool, and if that makes me a loser
well to them i am a LOSER, but i am a winner who loves being artistic
pat and lyle seem shy to me, all they do is drink cups of tea
i liked patrick way back then, but i thought he didn’t like bullying, cause bullying is wrong
i don’t **** people off ya know
ooh ooh ooh it might start to snow
i smell, but i can clean up
i have a messy house, but i will clean it
i will probably see losers teasing me, i can handle it
I AM RADICALLY AWESOME DUDE
i cause happiness in canberra, i am the christmas man
the cool kids man, cause cool kids muck around mate ooh ooh ooh
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 11:06 PM UTC
There's two sugar dumplings
called Tate and Lyle -
one just frowns
at the other's queer smile,
for Tate is different
to the rest of the sugar pack;
he harbours an overbearing weight,
an abnormal secret strapped to his back.
He's attracted, not to women,
but to tender men -
an odd manifestation within
that yearns again, and again.
O' sadistic Lyle knew this of course
and so was furious to the core -
for the little sugar brat
nursed a bleeding heart, broken and sore,
and as the pendulums of time
did eventually sway,
Lyle allowed his own brother
to be taken on a spoon, up up and away -
down into a boiling furnace of tea,
alas 'twas sallow anger,
not guilt, that Lyle felt,
his crystals of sugar bristling,
as he watched his younger sibling drown and melt.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 5:19 PM UTC
You see I wanted to be a young dude and sit on my chair with my little mouth half open
You see I can vision people saying I hate life and they call me bud I hate that
The hooligans are trying to reach my body and they are trying to make little
But it is the medication
Cause I am not living in the past
I don't want to be turned off
I don't care if it makes me a hooligan I am a family person
Who loves life a lot
But the big fat body needs to offload the stress on his body
So I try and bring back my little young dude
It isn't really want I want
But I understand that you would
Want to protect me
I understand that you are tying to stop me pooing my pants
Or peeing my pants
And I don't care if I have to wait
For my next life to finally learn
But I am going to the toilet
But I don't want to drink wee
I don't want to get teased
By people who used to like me
But now hate me because they can't get their faces out of my past
You see I used to like pat more than Lyle
And I was and am a nice person
Who loves life
People say I sound gay
But I am not gay
I am as straight as a knife
A knife I tells ya
You see I don't want to get killed by psychos who are having problems
I understand why you need to protect me by making me a little young dude
Hey dude don't take a long road
And makes you suffer more than anyone else
You see I can live forever like a Buddhist
I am not a little yeah Nate yeah kid
I am a Buddhist
I know all I can about Buddhism
To believe that it is true you come back and that is the truth
You see people std trying to bring my little shy kid back
But I have killed him off out of my body
You see the only thing that
Is going to bring my fucken shy kid back is people who want to protect me like I partied in nite clubs
I danced to bands in clubs
I went away with people in sports
I walked up mountains
In shoes and thongs too
I have voices of people trying to
Bring back my shy kid because
They are scared of what will happen to me if they found out it was me is that him, mate
I have been everywhere man
I have been Gold Coast south coast Adelaide Melbourne Hobart Newcastle Kosciusko
Tumut Sydney Hervey Bay
And broken hill travelling on the Indian pacific and off to kangaroo island great ocean road and Grampians
I have been to Dubbo zoo Dubbo gaol Merimbula where I partied on New Year's Eve
And the people thought I was cool yeah I partied at uni of Canberra and Ainslie and southern cross club
But the medication is stopping me in my tracks dude
I have been everywhere
Sep 20, 2016
Sep 20, 2016 at 3:26 AM UTC
I don't know what happened exactly but my dad and gran
Came into my dream last night to try and get me to understand
That they had no plan for me
And they just wanted me to be happy but they were looking at
How I am suffering with my voices, especially when I will tell my voices I love my life too much to want to **** myself
I know I need to be careful what I say on Facebook and it might be hard when I keep airing my ***** laundry on it but sometimes I find it fun mention the past of what caused my mental illness, I believe in previous lives and I am starting to see proper psychic visions
Last night and it made me feel great, you see I like watching daily vlogs on YouTube because it makes me feel happy and as much fun as me and Patrick had when we were young
I don't want his voice in my head because I hear him saying
Let's give him my voice do me and him can play with Brian all the time till he dies and when I say I am getting tired of that
The voice says don't be like Lyle
Saying I am tired all the time
And dad told me he was worried if I talk about Christmas I might get tease because I was very negative back then, and I want to say just one thing I didn't really like going to church
It is not because of the messiah
I found it ever so boring
Back in 2003 I tried to had excitement to church by bringing a coke drinking man to the church and when I participated in church it was like a kid who wanted to be famous
Even if mum didn't want me to go for her, I just couldn't resist
You see I wanted to show I was a stupid arrogant drunk who
Smoke and drank himself to an early oblivion and I know I really made my family scared of me
And that is why I gave up drinking
I didn't give up partying
I still want to party
You can still party without beer
I wanted to buy a 24 can pack of coke so I can have a big party
But I mainly party at home now
And other places which are cool
For me to go to
And what is cool for me isn't what other people say what is cool for me, no I am an individual you can't fool me
I like doing my art but when o was trying to do my art last week I felt lazy and I just wanted to watch tv to get my inspiration back
You see back in 2003 I wanted to inspirational but that wasn't the word I meant to say
My motto is give up what
Makes you angry no matter how cool it is and enjoy life like me
Oct 12, 2016
Oct 12, 2016 at 1:04 PM UTC
Tate and Lyle were the very best of brothers
but one hid a secret unbeknownst to others,
for Tate had hidden a sick infatuation since the age of 10,
a ***** manifestation that had evolved into ****** pleasure with men
alas Lyle had known this for quite a while
in more ways than one he was manipulative and vile,
distancing his brother from the rest of the sugar pack
his sanity twisted from the overbearing secret strapped to his back
oh is homosexuality completely incorrect?
A taboo subject only understood by the superior intellect -
sugar cubes don't have brains, but they are cunning,
for when the spoon came, Lyle trapped his brother as the others fled running
and as the pendulumns of time did eventually sway
Lyle allowed his brother to be taken on the spoon up up and away,
and 'twas sallow anger, not sorrow, Lyle felt,
his sugar crystals bristling as he saw his sibling slowly drown and melt.
Dec 4, 2016
Dec 4, 2016 at 4:40 PM UTC
Your words fall like rain on an aching earth,
soft, yet heavy—
each drop a link in the "chain" you carry,
"every word a new link, clink, clink, clink,"
dragging through echoes of silence.
You paint emotions raw, unfiltered, true—
“What’s wrong?” they ask,
but it’s just “easier” to smile,
to let the world see only what’s palatable,
while the storm brews behind closed doors.
Your poetry is the mirror no one wants to gaze into,
the "picture perfect" frame cracked,
the "jagged sharp broken glass"
of a life they assume is flawless.
You cry out— "Help, I need you,"
but the world keeps walking, oblivious,
leaving behind a voice that deserved to be heard,
a heart that only asked for "one minute more."
But here, in the rhythm of your verse,
in the aching pulse of your lines,
you are seen.
You are felt.
And your words—
they will never be left behind.
Mar 8, 2025
Mar 8, 2025 at 11:00 AM UTC