Twin type of lines they see a Pen and start writing, creating many Words that letters come out rushing.

Holding onto your Imagination this pen is alive Heart Beat Blushing, Depression touched it, could you ever trust it?

As My Eyes watched your whole world fade away, like a Mirage in a desert, sand games the sun would play.

Blue skies with no Stars small trees searching for shade, I’m as nerves as a Tear Drop that’s about to be caught by a smile.

My stomach is filled with Butterfly’s that have no were to hide, I’m shacking like a cloud that’s filled with Thunder, that’s about to bite.

I’m sweating like The Desert in the summer time, that has seen a mirage late at night.

I tell myself to be yourself because everyone is already taken, if words had no meaning and, Letters stopped Speaking.

Reality would fade away into a Lost Dream searching for some meaning.

Jidos Reality 19.4.13

You so boring every time I hear you speak, the words and the emotions you show on this page are never deep.




They never seem to make this tear cry and make it speak, it don’t make any sense what you write it sounds like a lie. 




There’s no feeling of compassion to bring life to your poetry that you write, I wish you understood that poetry is another life. 




A world where you cannot speak but you gifted enough to show them you can write something for someone that’s unique. 




That every time they read it to say I’m sorry ain’t as hard as it seems, Your words have no meaning have no story to what I think. 




See when I read your poetry it makes me tired I want to sleep, but I respect you for what you write about what you think when your eyes blink. 




As your words try to scream listen when I’m talking just let it in, It has always been a beautiful piece of poetry to be boring is truly unique.




Jidos Reality 22.2.2012

This amazing feeling of Self Control has me looking at my shopping list away I go, Don’t be Shocked if you ask me and I say no.




If you don’t do anything for me I don’t really want to know, if you ain’t got the Respect to respect me I think you should go. 




Why do you judge a book by its cover? When the first chapter is labelled do you know? My life ain’t a “Punch and Judy” show.




Were you can tell me where to go or tell me what to say, you can try to control me with you Puppet Strings but you will fail. 




I remember when people were around you would always try to bring me down, always try to make them laugh and point fingers at this Silly Clown. 




And when I cried it was the best feeling you ever had, always comparing what you had to what I never had. 




Now I think about it you were very Lonely always Sad Now you wish you had the talent I have! Here’s a Pen and Pad.


You will always be a little bully and nothing else, I’ve got self control and I’m happy because you will never ever make me sad. 




Jidos Reality 13.10.11

If only they could understand were I've been and how far I've come, this smile on my face is a Polarod Picture full of fun.



With love and cuddles there’s always a shoulder for you to cry on, it’s amazing because The Last Piece to my puzzle has been found.



I love my x-box the adventure in this game has just begun, got the keys to the Bat Mobile Gotham City here I come.



See the Joker thinks his funny until Robin comes along, my heart is like a diamond it sparkles all day long.



My smile is a memory that catchers you when you fall, I'm strong and I'm a leader and I’ll always be there when you need me.



My I-pad has an app that’s so relaxing when I need it, I'm **** and I'm Naughty I love teasing as you please me.



Hears the key to my heart love it as you become part of my destiny.



This poem I wrote for my friend “K J Phillips”



Jidos Reality  1.11.12

Darren this is a poem IV wrote for you, to let you know everyone misses and wishers the best for you.



We know it’s not the best of times and you are allowed to cry, but don’t worry mate because everything will be alright. 



We love that smile your family and friends are there to hold you tight, and bring you cuddles all day and every night. 



Make sure this memory turns out to be something nice; we all wish the best for you if ever u needs to chat we always hear for you. 



As time passes by and minutes go by please don’t worry because everything will be alright.



Hope you get well soon just to let you know we always hear for you. 




Jidos Reality for Darren’s cancer charity 6.3.10

Layla Rose this poem is for you because Daddy needs to let you know how much I Love You you the Diamond in my life, the sparkle that keeps me alive.


You take me to a place somewhere in the clouds were the Angels play. My smile is amazed by the laughter that you create.



My soul feels free when I Hold You in my arms close to me, your words are So Sweet when u speak they cuddle me.



You dry the tears from my eyes before I cry, your eyes are so deep they take me to a place were My Heart never bleeds.



They make it come alive I feel a rush running through me, You Love protects me like the thorns on a Rose it sets me free.



When all my problems come around and take me to a place that’s filled with misery, you Love catchers me before I fall and Cuddles me.



Layla you the only Rose in my life that makes me Blush you teach me how to Love and understand how to trust.



You the Angel my eyes see when I breath, you the Paradise in my Heaven the star that shines bright when I need some light to show me.


No wonder why My Happiness sings your Love has given it Wings


Jidos Reality 6.7.13

Woke up this morning to find London on fire, and not the homeless little kids with tears in they eyes.

They stomachs are so empty all they attract are fly’s; they’ll never go to school and remember that smile.

London’s on fire with smoke clouding the sky, you all a bunch of funny people can’t you hear the little homeless children Cry”

This poverty is a disease it eats away like a parasite, she’s only 12 years old and she’s lost her mom and dad.

She’s got 2 brothers and 1 sister to look after it’s so sad, shell never be able to open up a book and read and grow up to be a doctor, and never worry about greed.

Shell walk for 5 hours just to find them something to eat, It hurts all her knees, all this walking and stressing she never prayed for this.

But she never gives up she’s always strong never weak, Poverty is a curse can’t you listen to me.

  
Jidos Reality 10.8.11

From the moment I saw you and looked into your eyes, when I held you close to me and saw your lovely smile.




I will always be your dad and your best mate, you will always be the reason I’m happy every day.




When you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, when you find things are hard you the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. 




And I thank you for this I will always make sure you get your every wish, Layla Rose you my world you my everything. 




You the dream I was wishing for my one and only everything, from today and tomorrow and for the rest of my life. 




Me and mummy will always be by your side, So with this I just want to say thank you for the love you have brought into our life’s.




We both wake up every morning with a smile on our face.




Jidos Reality 9.7.12

It’s time for you all to understand! I hate the past but am happy because it came and turned me into a man. 




Made me who I am today and yes I had to learn the hard way, that’s why I Write what I feel hard to say. 




The Hour Glass has now turned as the Sand falls there are lessons learned that we should be told. 




Every Past has a Beginning and every beginning has an end, every day brings new meaning to every decision I have made.




I take My Medication everyday so I don’t go insane, I’ve learned how to put a smile on my face every time I don’t feel okay. 




Sometimes I sit in the Corner and cry my eyes out all day, a smile is all I need Happiness is what I crave. 




It’s the only thing in this life that I wish for everyday, I’ve stopped and I’ve thought about it all I can do now is get on my knees and pray. 




It’s time now I’m ready to show the world what I got to say, this is “Jidos Reality” hope you like what I got to say.




Jidos Reality 25.10.11

Look at a picture of your self in the dark everything will be turning over, no body cares you always thought that.


I was always a Lost Soul always searching for love, creating words and situations that would always turn on the light of random pictures my eyes see.


Making my heart beat never stopping, like the sea with the wind blowing confusing the weather whilst I’m rowing in my little boat.



The birds flying above the water safe from the emotion we feel called fear, we are our own Artist painting pictures we want this world to see.


This little Light of Mine always shines but not for me, my days have long minutes and plenty seconds running away from me.


Every step that I take makes My Destiny run away, hide and sick is the game I have to loose if I want to play.


Take a look at a picture of your self in the dark everyday.


Jidos Reality. 20.3.13

I can’t wait till I can hold you in my arms all night and watch your smile and feel your heart beating against mine.



I will always be your mum and your best mate, you will always be the reason I smile every day.



When you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, when you need a cuddle when you find things are hard.



You the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life and I thank you for this, I will make sure you will always get your every wish.



From today and tomorrow and for the rest of our life’s, Me and S.J will always be by your side, we would like to thank you for all the love you have brought into our life’s.



See this smile is a memory we both treasure all the time, our happiness is a dream come true because of you.



So till we see you smile and beautiful sparkle in your eye’s I’ll keep you warm and safe, in that special place were life is made.



Wrote this poem for “Hayley & S.J”



Jidos Reality 17.7.12

It’s Story Telling and a good night to you Baby Girl close your eyes and let Daddy make your imagination grow. 
 



This is for you just to let you know how much I miss you time always traps me when you speak. 
 
My sense of Listening starts to think as I see.


The imagination from each word you creating makes me feel a memory like a feather so soft from an Angel it came to me. 
 



Makes me want to take your Heart and keep it close next to me, you the Life to my heart your smile always takes over of me. 
 



The way you look into my eyes as your love takes hold of me, your world is my oyster you the only pearl my eyes see. 
 



You the angel in my Dreams the heart beat I always feel, the light that you shine in my life sets me free. 




It’s amazing the way I feel when you wrap your warm angel wings around me, its Story Telling Baby girl I had to let you know what you mean to me. 
 




You my everything you my world you the heart beat to my life you the smile that makes me breathe all the time. 



Jidos Reality 15.10.12

The world in your smile comes around the corner to watch me, as your Sadness brightens up my Shadow the further you take it away from me.


My eyes try to call it it’s the only memory with a Reflection that’s been set free, it comes alive when I sleep, I am like My Shadow like how my shadow is to me.


My Words have no voices your smile makes Many Noises that are darker than my shadows tears.


You smile is a story in My Tears Dreams my screams are the soul to your every Heart Beat.


You make me feel like A Silent Picture whispering some were in the wind, your thoughts fill me with Hate and consume me with Rage.


My memories seen to stop every time You Rip you self out, you come from a world that lives in a place were time has stopped.


You secret is The Evil that makes my thoughts rot, you empty and as cold as a rainbow with out life.


Your Light is as bright as the darkness in the night, the stars refuse to shine they never bright when u smile.


You are my Dr. Jackal as I am your Mr. Hyde.


Jidos Reality 20.3.12

It was as though my world was in a Dream with no road, it felt like I was brought here to do as I was told.
  


Even my alarm would wake me up in the morning to tell me I had to go, it’s half four in the morning and I'm surrounded by Silence sleeping in the cold.


My mind wants to be warm in my bed and not out here in this snow Cash Machines turn they faces as ******* Bins take they places.
  


My eyes beg me to sleep as my body becomes weak I'm cleaning this shop with a bucket of water and some bleach.
  


I've got to Hoover and mop and clean up these ***** spots, the toilet is blocked its stuffed and shouting out loud.
  


Everything that I touch must be left looking as bright as a star must smell so refreshing attracting nothing but beauty.
  


Life as a cleaner wish my wages felt bigger, I'm caught in a moment trapped like a hamster there’s no slowing.    
  


I'm cadged like The Dirt that you walk on in the street, there’s no beginning to any good this Life as a Cleaner only gets harder.


Jidos Reality 5.12.12

We touch I feel a rush so much it makes me blush you make me want to hold you close to my heart and catch all your tear drops.
  
Make them smile and feel amazing keep holding onto this trust, your kiss is a day dream as our lips start to touch.
  
This rush is tingling our *** is always banging; I tell you I love you and you tell me you love me two.
  
Its amazing when we holding and it feels so nice been in you, I love it when you scream and take me to a place deep within.
  
My tough has me thinking twisting as it thinks! I think we should agree your ***** tastes so sweet.
  
What style should we do? ******* makes you weak I love it when you grab me and wrap your legs around me.
  
We sweating with loads of sexing moaning as you feel it, the trick was another world that had your heart beat blushing.

Jidos Reality 5.8.12

Dreams are emotions that run the feelings one can only relate to, controlling pure lust with mixed feelings of illusions.

Strange places we get taken to another world were the ~ Boogie ~ man stays protected by the sweet feeling of peace and control.

  
Flying all around without the outcome of falling, wired people chasing you with all sciences under deep control, paralyzed by the feeling of self-control.

  
Afraid to run but amused by the beauty, deep into the rabbit’s hole you go! From ~ ALICE IN WONDER LAND TO HUMPTY DUMPTY ~

something so pure your brain starts to ****** as the the scence of control starts to take over.

  
Eyes wide shut heart beating faster like the rabbit and tortoise race, what a strange place to be so peacefully uncontrollable.

  
Hypnotised in the mind with joy with joy mixed sorrow. And then it happens awake to the real world just for a few seconds reality kicks in.

And the dream was a journey your mind had to take, till another day I’ll be waiting for another night ~~ DREAMS ~~

Jidos Reality 21.1.11

As my mind twists and turns Deep within inside, My Broken soul has no were to run away and hide.


From all these fear’s my tears create from running down my eye’s, If only I was taught how to laugh then maybe these tears would be a memory I’ll never ever want to be lost.


I’m scared of loneliness I’ve got no one there to love my heart I don’t even have my name on any ones Christmas card.


I’ve lost everything every one I’ve ever loved i took for granted everything they did for me back in the past


The future holds nothing for me but pain trapping me in the the dark. My poor souls crying out can you help me because I’m lost, can you fill this emptiness that I’m feeling in my heart.


I just want it to stop. I don’t want it to ro. I don’t want it to take away the little happiness I have left in my heart.


Because if it’s taken away it will be gone it will be lost, It will never come back to my broken beating heart.


I hope you like my honesty I just don’t know where to start. I’m only looking for love that thing that protects and always warms up your Heart.



Jidos Reality 13.10.11

Respect could be described as a suttle word to describe the liar in yourself were does it begin?


Within our own bubble or out of your comfort zone, one man’s likes could be another man’s dislikes.


In such a situation respect is the one thing that has to bring the two together bonding in such a way that it brings smile to our faces.


Good morning mam would you like to take a seat? Please I must insist! That was the conversation I had the other day.


When an old lady jumped onto the bus with no were to sit down, no she said but thank you.


So we had bonded with that i stood up and offered my seat and as she sat down she looked at me and smiled and with a sweat voice she said thank you young man.


Funny faces on the bus looking at me! But I never cared at they Thoughts, I was happy with the respect I had shown the dear old lady.


Jidos Reality 8.1.10

Little Jonny Boy could never see it coming, he always spend his life looking back as he was running.

See his world was not a picture in a story that would ever excite him, His past switched places with his future so it could come back and bite him.

He runs away like a bat searching for light, only sounds and vibrations could ever save his life.

Vibrations coming around from every different side little Jonny Boy could never see it coming thought his life was cursed because it never felt right.

You talk about a dream let me show you what it feels like in-side, The sofa never moved he could only sleep on it every night on his side.

See he cried in a dream that chose to come into his life, hid past was now smiling as it held him close and tight.

Guiding him close to the cold thing little Jonny Boy never understood why the birds sing, in the afternoon searching for they dreams.

His mouth was always cold his words were never clean, sleeping on the sofa with thunder storms chasing him.

Jidos Reality 1.8.12

Does Your Shadow have a Reflection? Is a question that gets you guessing!

Could it be alive the only one thing that has never left you.

See the day you know your Time is Over is the day when you turn around and take a look over your shoulder.

As your eyes start to see your Shocked Heart starts to beat slower, Polaroid pictures capturing a Silent World, caught in a moment.

Thoughts watching and pacing Pausing Time as it’s created, no Mirrors for your Reflection see it’s about to be taken.

No mistaken it’s true Your Shadows ready to leave you and trade places with Your Eyes and stand there and watch you.

As you Wonder and Think and feel every Memory that Speaks your body gets cold your heart beats away slow.

Every beat is a step running around trying to capture Tears in your head.

You Shadow shows you why it never spoke or touched you.

Your Reflection was the only face that its mirror ever knew.

Jidos Reality 16.6.13

His toned good looks defined his face. His jaw dropping Chin has finally found its place. Tom’s Chin is amazing it could never be replaced.


It’s truly a gem defiantly one of a kind. Once you lay your eyes on it you will never forget it.


You will always sit there and wonder how he got it. How would his life be if I cast a spell and made him miss it?


Amelia would not be happy if I made it look as small as a zit. With a Chin like that you know it will always take you places.



I first saw it in Borne Identity attached to Mat Damien’s different faces.
It got me thinking that Tom’s Chin is actually living, and moving around multiplying and breeding.


Because wants it got you hooked there’s no escaping this big Chin.
The 8th wonder of the world hope you enjoy the life of Tom’s Chin


Jidos Reality 7.9.11

There is something that i need to let u know, you not only my best mate you are my lover, the only happiness my heart knows.

You are the reason I smile it is amazing when you hold me tight, when you cuddle up to me all day and every night.

This smile is a memory that makes me feel wanted all the time. Every time u touch me I feel a rush deep within my soul, I care for you and I love the trust that we have built.

You are my one and only you are my everything my world. From the first day until today and every other day I will always love you and make sure you are ok.


Want to hold you when you are lonely and be the reason you smile, I will always be there for you whenever you need a shoulder to cry on.

Love you and only you always


Jidos Reality

They say Poetry can alter moods and Talk to you, It can take a Word and make it get through to you.


Make you understand this Imagination that’s so Close to you, forever word Spoken sometimes a heart is broken.


Poetry is Deep it starts because your heart is soul searching for something that’s Amazing  to the Questions that you asking.


Creating a Dream that all your wishes come out Rushing with this Pen and Pad I can express myself I can let you know if I’m Happy or Sad.


I can take a Word and bring Meaning to it I can make you understand what it means to me.


You can Read it all day I’ll be Writing all Night. And by the Time I finish this  Page would have come alive. I hope you like my Poetry loads because it’s the only talent I got this world to show.


So Please hold your Breath whilst I Read to You Take this Pen I’m holding let me give it to you.


This is my type of Poetry and I Thank You.


Jidos Reality 2.9.11

Just to let you know how you make me feel what you make me do, the love you give cannot be replaced your love is one in a million.

You make me smile all day and make my heart speak, Personality and the things you do makes me feel loved and yes I love you two.

Your smile your trust it goes on and on it gives me a good feeling all day long, I’ll be more than your brother I’ll be your best friend.

I’ll always hold you when you thinking about something that may hurt you, you my little sister and nothing will ever change that.

Happiness is a dream I would always with for you, because it’s true you my sister and i loves you two.

Jidos Reality 16.7.11

It feels slow like a rollercoaster watching the world moving by as it gets closer.

A sweet lemon trying to find its taste buds, handpicked with eords falling out the sky.

Each letter brining meaning to the shape of its style as we wonder and look up so many words coming alive.

Bringing every color we have seen ridding on a rainbow let’s watch the magic in the sky.

Snowflakes falling down shape changing as we smile, the sweet smell of lily’s growing in the war summer heat.

Butterflies and Bees spending they day collecting nectar, the lovely sound of the water running down the river.

Salmon trying to swim upstream to create that lovely gift called life.

Jidos Reality 12.8.12

Temptation well there’s never second guessing she looks so beautiful I want to get her sweating.

Rip all her clothes of so I can get her to start ******* no questions asked she knows that well be sexing.

In the shower now it’s wet and I’m caressing texting all day ******* she aint messing, I got her tingling got her needing and wanting.

The way she’s breathing is so tempting oh it’s so ****, the way she plays with her hair and smiles when we talking.

Seems to get her heart beat racing and calling, she loves four play weather it’s at night or in the morning.

She’s always up for trying something new see she’s never boring, Flip her over pick her up against the wall shell be moaning.

I got goose bumps running down her back like it’s snowing, Her blood is boiling over see I’m about to transform her.

She wants to do nasty things she’s tempting me to control her, grab her hair and pull it back and show her I do love her.

Jidos Reality 1.9.11

Twinkle twinkle little star humpty dumpty fell a bit hard rocker by baby on the tree top see crusty the clown never knew when to stop.

Up above the world we smile little red riding hood should have learned how to ride, and get far away from the wolf  that made her cry.

Three blind mice could never play only hide from the farmer’s wife who was always holding a knife.

See she was ****** she never cared they were blind. Until the three little pigs came running came along and tried to blow her house down.

With marry who had a little lamb that was the plan. But Goldie lox came up with another plan she took the spider and washed it down the drain.

She had the munchies she found the roach she had dropped, broke into the house ate all the porridge ate the lot.

The bears went crazy like everything looked hazy bed broken food missing someone was searching?

Old mother Hubbard spend all her life searching every cupboard, But she lived in a shoe who would of knew nursery rhymes could twist you.

Jidos Reality 15.9.12

The Best Dreams I have are when I dream about you, because not only do you know that I miss you, I can see it in your eyes your smile misses me to.



The laughter all around in this dream is such a Beautiful feeling what a lovely memory you bring.



Every time I sit down and smile when I think of you, and missing you is hard so My Tears cry for you.



The sweet sound of your voice as I see Angels all around you, You closer to me now more than I would have ever knew.



My world turned up-side down the day I heard I Lost you you now sleeping in a dream that’s Peacefully following you.



Your soul is like a light when it gets dark thinking about you, I miss you so much and its hard not thinking about you.



Your eye’s were amazing always filled with love around you, Your smile is a memory kept in my heart just for you.



You touch is my only wish so every day I send a Dream to Cuddle you. Ray Ray I love you now and forever and my heart knows you love and miss me two.



Jidos Reality 2.12.12     “Dedicated to my little sister who passed away Rahilla”

Through thick and thin pennies over taking this piggy bank bin, still living in the gutter were the waste man lives.

Overdraft has the bank got you searching for change, for many penny’s” paper chasing for tobacco that I need to roll.

Had wash because I’m in a rush, I really miss soaking up when I’m  washing needing a bath.

Off to do my shopping won’t you wish me good luck, I had to budget with this £5 pounds i just won on a scratch card.

It won’t take me far but it will stop my stomach from feeling like it’s been torn up into many little looking scars.

It will stop my stomach from rumbling just before it thinks it’s going to starve, I don’t really know where to start this situation hurts me so much.

Searching for some hope that’s lost some were in the dark through thick and thin living a life that’s full of sin.

Searching for left over’s going through my neighbor’s bin.

Jidos Reality 22.7.12

I cannot describe the feeling of anticipation, waiting like in a food restaurant wondering!  Seen all there’s people munching. Drinking they fine wines away, all I can feel is the smell of the food around me.


I’ve been told my order will be out soon, not sure what it is?    The menu is in French I have this feeling of desperation! Wondering if what I’ve ordered would be good news to my palate.


Like been told you were adopted waiting on that park bench to meet your mom and dad for the first time. The time seems to go slow as you look around! Is that them? Hearts racing with anticipation.


I know what I want the outcome to be, but feel disappointed and sad at the thought that what I want to be would not be. See now I’m thinking why am I causing this emotion of lose through anticipating the worst outcome.


Fatigue and tired my brain becomes as these thoughts of been disappointed take’s over my mood. ~TICK TOCK, TICK TOCK~ the grandfather clock ticks but never stops i suppose it does in a way when you fall asleep.


Because for that moment your heart beats. Your brain is telling your body breath. As normality become thoughts. I now enter this dream this dream like state of emotion makes me remember that my mind is my temple.


It’s absolutely amazing this place I’m in. strange things in the world that my eyes have seen. And like a shadow fading in the distance light of this special place.    My thoughts stop been images and go back into my mind for only me to feel.


~ How Delighted ~ I am for waking up in the morning and breathing that first breath of life I will live for today and pray for tomorrow.

JidOs Reality 1.2.11

Happy days often seem like lazy days taking absolutely no account of the time passing by, Blinded by the memory of happiness which seems to have been lost.


Shadowed and over taken over by the feeling of guilt and failure, I’ve come to terms with my illness.


My compassion to be more accretive with myself has grown, like a little baby who’s found the beauty of taking its first steps feels so pure and natural.


To make the same mistake twice would shawley make me a fool, a fool i was once always craved to be happy.


When i was little growing up in a situation were to be loved and cuddled, was almost to impossible to ask.


But for that second when you felt that love you would spend the rest of your day smiling, I found happiness and could not understand it so I let it go.


Now I’m ready and it’s too late because she’s gone and never coming back.


Jidos Reality 2.1.10

If you think about it? Why did the chicken cross the road? How many people have you meet in your life? Is a question you cannot answer! But what you can answer is the memories of those you miss and no good or bad memories that would have built your character made you who you are today.

  
But one got to think about the reality! Outside the box it’s not about Now or when, or were, or why! It’s about hope they say time is a healer I beg to differ healing begins with in yourself, take control of your thoughts manage them like how you prepare your bath put the plug in Run your water till it’s nice and warm take your clothes of and jump in the bath.

The same concept works with your thoughts and feelings take control and feelings take control you cry when you happy you cry when you sad! But the two have 2 things in common your tears filled with memories and an Ocean filled with emotions.
  
I’m running going faster and faster not stopping or thinking to tie my shoe lace Next thing I know the thought kicks in! as I look down I need to stop and tie my Shoe laces as I slow down I stop and realize I have tripped over and landed on my face DISAPOINTMENT And anger is the first emotion I feel.
  
But now this accident has happened! All I can do is pick myself up and clean up my face and tie my shoe laces. Wants its broken all you can try and do is try to fix it or move on! Just like a beggar or a *** living on the street moving from one place to another just to survive it’s the same with your life surroundings it’s hard but you have to move on to take that control and mend your broken heart and thoughts you think you have it hard!

But just think for a moment imagine been BLIND Can never see your loved ones. Or been “DEAF” Can’t hear the whispers! Oh no feet or hands can’t walk we must understand we are all unique in a certain way and should not judge our selves’ against others around us!

Be pleased for your life you have because once you lose your personality through judgment or depression that hole only gets Deeper, Darker, And Cold then it kicks in the chain reaction. Doctors Medication! Deeper and Deeper it gets.
Your mind becomes like a rubix cube how to fix it now? It takes DAYS, HOURS, YEARS To fix it if you see or feel that hole in the distance change your path so
to avoid it.

And you won’t find the truth or answers to your Questions. Or the light at the end of the door! NO you won’t find them they will find you when the time is right. People are absolutely “amazing” some good some nasty you don’t feel it but you tend to take a bit of they personality which makes you learn and find you’re self
so be careful with who you meet and how you react in situations Live for today and Pray for tomorrow.  
  


Jidos Reality 26.8.11

He looks as he Blinks see his eyes see what he sees! It stimulates his brain like he’s Medically Insane psychologically he’ll never be the same. 



Many veins with different story’s scratching away at his brain, He’s gone way past depression as his personality slips away.




Mind tricks every time he thinks his medication will make him feel okay, It makes him go more crazy the more he tries to remember his name.



Every blink leaves a mark with a scar on his heart, his trapped in a Cold long room that’s filled with stairs that seem to go no were don't stare!




His down on his knees as he looks and sees his life scatter everywhere, getting lost by the cold sound of weakness in his head. 



His words don’t want to speak as his Anger Screams at him, Time was never on his side his Reflection tried to hide.




In a deep dark hole were broken souls wouldn’t even go, a broken memory with a heart that was cold. 




Addicted to the pain the past is all he knows, he lost the key to his future his eyes only showed him what he saw. 




Jidos Reality 18.10.12

And then it happened A Secret and Words that could never be spoken, lost in the reflection of a shadow were hatred and love become happiness.

A situation you could never answer leaving you In a position, of thoughts and emotions.

Anger and happiness confuse the soul as it searches for answers to to questions it’s been told.

A deep hole rotting and first fighting some times two faced hiding away and crying, always waiting.

A lost puzzle were pieces would never fit into a world, with out sadness you will never be missed.

The pure joy of happiness how could this be? that a secret could live and eat away at me.

And it makes me wonder does the Apple really fall close to its tree, the truth can not be spoken there will be no hearts broken.

Secrets come alive like A Mid Night Emotion how could you find your self when the secret learns how to live.

Jidos Reality 3.4.13

I hate what you have done to my life; I hope it makes you happy destroying everything in my smile.


I hate you smile I hate the way you cry, I hate every emotion in your smile, I hate all the time that you talked when your shadow never seen what I could see.


I hate every time you tried to talk to me, I hate the way you think when you thinking about writing to me.


How could I ever see? Why do you make me hate? Why do you break my every heart beat it tries to make?


How can you take away the laughter to my world and throw it away?  Why do you have a heart that’s filled with so much hate?


How can you hate me for all the things that are wrong that come your way? I hate the way your eyes try to lie as they watch me cry.


I'm holding onto this smile that I keep hidden some were in-side, I live for the day when hate was out of my life.


Jidos Reality 25.11.12

Thank you for the smile you put on my face. Thank you for showing me my dreams, such a beautiful place.  


You held my hand when I cried and said ‘don’t worry, everything will be alright’.


You saved my life and I thank you for this and I pray and hope you get your every wish.  


The things you did and the things you said, such a beautiful memory, truly blessed.


I wrote this poem saying thank you for everything you did, you will be missed.
Your friend,  Majid.

Jidos Reality 16.6.11

If only I told you what you mean to me, it’s been three years and you still mean loads to me. 




I love the way you walk and the way you talk, you always seem to find away to make me smile. 




I want to hold you and cuddle you every morning and all night, It’s been a long time sometimes I feel like I want to cry. 




We talk for hours on the phone every day and every time we speak you tell me everything will be alright. 




I should of stopped and listened to the words that come out of your mouth, I thought I knew what to do, but by thinking that I was hurting you.




I became friends with the bottle the more I poured a sip it made me feel hollow, I slowly threw away the love we had build our trust was getting swallowed.




Our arguments always used to echo if only I told you my life was perfect because of you, so complete because you needed me like I needed you.




I’m sorry for ever hurting you.




Jidos Reality 20.10.12

For every smile and every cuddle from every wish to every tingle. Happiness creates a memory that will never be missed.    

Kept close to your heart where happiness is never lost. You always make me smile when I’m crying and text me when I feel lonely late at night.    

The way you look into my eyes and make me smile it’s so nice. You’re truly amazing and one of a kind.  

Want to hold you and tell you I love that smile. Happiness is all I feel because you’re in my life.    
Angels and roses, Sweet candles all night, you asked me to write you this poem to show you how I feel.    

Happiness is lovely so thank you for what you have done. Let me know how to win your heart because I want you.    

For this happiness it will never be missed.    

Jidos reality 11.8.11

Destiny is a word filled with hope and wishers that our dreams come true one day. From every laughter to every tear that is filled with every emotion that some time brings out the fear.



The same fear you have to feel all your life. So you can understand and become friends with that special thing they call happiness.


With every breath that we take and every step that we make and all the lye’s and the truth that we tell every day.



We should never worry it’s not scary it’s okay, our destiny will come around one day. It will knock on your door step and look you in the face. And show you there’s more to life than living it and worrying about thing’s every day.


Because not everything is so bad everything will be okay. My destiny’s not my option it’s just a story on this page.


Just remember the things the same emotions that scare us are the same.
Our tears are lovely they tell a story that says I wish I knew my destiny, so I can prepare for the next day.


Not to make the same mistake I did that was just yesterday, the same day i thought today will be a better would be a much day.  



Jidos Reality 27.9.11

Never let it go as long as you know you unique, there’s only one of you that the world can see.




Your Soul is Peaceful like a cold summers breeze, your words are like a Sun Set to my eyes so sweet. 




Your Smile is locked away deep in my Heart as it beats, when someone feels lost you always there to help them breathe.




You Trust comes at no cost your Characters build on honesty, you get rid of all the tears from my eyes as they think.




You open You’re Heart and set you Laughter free, every star that shines at night is a memory you have given to me.




You the missing piece to my puzzle you make my world feel complete, time always seems to pause like a rivers stream. 




Like the Blue Sky above you the cloud that shades me Never let it go I see Paradise by your feet.




The Sweet smell of Roses makes my body rush as I breathe; you always got a Twinkle in your eye as your imagination take hold of me. 




You make every word on this page come out and speak, never let it go you’ll always be my everything.



Jidos Reality 21.10.12