whatifineverknoweventhoughitried
itwhatifitallfallsapartrightinfrontofme
icantcomprehendevenifitsexplained
righttomyfaceicantreciprocatemyfeel-
-ingsforyouitsjusttoohard FULL STOP.
receptorial, over and under again
whatifyoudontremembermeevenwith
allididimstillaspeckinyoureverlargereality
somymindisfilledwithyouonlyyou
onlythinkingofyouandineverwant
toletyougokeepyouinside FULL STOP.
everlargerealityeverlargereality
doyoufeeltheseemotionsswelling
upinsidecanyoutellwhatimthinking
orisitjustachainofthoughtsatrainofideas
garbledrunningatyoulikeadeer
caughtinatrucksheadlightsbut DASH-
why why why cant i be why why why
whataboutallthesearbitraryideas
thatihaveibelongtoyouandyouonly
icantsaywhybutyourebeautifuliwant
youyouyouyouyouareminemineand
mineforeverandevereverever FULL STOP.
brace for impact brace for impact
keepyouinsidesafeinsidewideawake
andalivewecouldstaylikethisdoyoulikethis
orisitkindadifferentdoyouhave
adifferentopinionitriedsohardso
staystaystaywhereyouareso FULL STOP.
dont go away please stay stay stay
whywhywhyitreatedyousowell
whywhywhyikeptyousafeinsidejustfor
youyouyouaremineminemine
whywhywhyarethesethoughtsinsidemyhead
getoutgetout get out. stay AND?
hatehatehate i hatehatehate
willthesepillsfixmeorwilltheybreak
mefillmewithregretneverknownevertried
likethepomegraniteseedstheygo
downmythroatthoughtsthinking
ofthemomentyouleavemebut HOLD ON,
too late too late too late too late
isaitallsoemptythereisnothinglefttohold
ontotogetagripalsurfacesboundbybricks
slipperylikeaneelsoelvenpillsinicantfeel
memyselfandijustthinkingof
youyouyouholdondont WAIT-
waitwaitwait, waitwaitwait
leavemealone, dont, leavemealone,
dont, leavemealone, dont,
leave me alone, dont, leave me alone dont
dont, dontdontstopstopstopstopnomore
nomorenomorestopstop DONT STOP…
awake, awake, awake, dont go away
nevergoneawaygoneawrylikeatrainoffitstracks
snapcracklepopthesecracksinreality
takemeoffthesedrugstheymakeme
nothingandanything, everythingelse
everythingandanythingbutnothing INSIDE
hey, hey, hey, dont run away
imbackagainsocomebackbacktomestay
staydontrunawaypleaseplease
stayyouaremyonlyifthereisnothingleft
butmethanaspeckisprettybigsodont
dontdontrunawayplease DASH-
great big speck great big speck
maybetheproblemismeimightneedto
stopandthinkthatmightmakemenormal
normalnormaliwanttobenormaliwanttobe
like jack, like trevor, like whoamiwhoami
whatismynamewhoisthis BUT;
thisismethisismethisismethisisme
withoutmewhatismebutahuskofskin
veinsfilledwithadrenalinehaveimessedup
haveisinnednotimetorepentgenerational
defectsinsanenotnormal, i want to be normal
stopandtakeabreath, this is FULL STOP.
i'm perfectly fine, I was watching a show where the main character was... a bit clingy, at the very least.