"eventhough" poems
I wish it would
well rain harder
I wish that
the sky water would be salty
like my tears.
this way both could slide down my face unidentifiable
I wish the thunder was louder
just to help save me from my thoughts
I love how
well simply how
I'm walking to the beat,
crunching gravel to meet the sound
of my favorite song
even though it's no longer playing
I love that
the rain is blurring my vision
eventhough I couldn't see anyway
I love that with every step
I'm taking a shower
the rain provides me with good cleansing
I'm slowly scrubbing away every
remark, laugh, judge, scar and stain
and as my jeans, blouse, and shoes get wet,
I'm washing away some of this too
hidden deep within the seams
and yet some people wonder
why
why does she like the rain
well
It's not just rain
it's a friend
that I can talk to and actually leave with
a cleansed soul.
May 11, 2017
May 11, 2017 at 6:01 PM UTC
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Candies are sweet
But not as sweet as you
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Candies are junkfood
So, it is unhealthy for you
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Too much of 'you'
Diabetes may take due
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Eventhough you are sweet
Doesn't mean I have fallen for you
Roses are red
Violets are blue
There are many fishes in the ocean
And ***** animals in the zoo
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I prefer bread than candy
At least they give me more energy for the business I do
Roses are red
Violets are blue
If you haven't notice
I'm done of you
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Love is a complicated mystery
To solve it, there is no clue
Feb 9, 2014
Feb 9, 2014 at 3:45 AM UTC
By Arcassin B
I cant believe,
the last time there was ever love for me,
put me in the position of a lonley person,
Dont be late,
i cant believe,
she would believe them over me,
eventhough i didnt see it as something being worth it,
its too late.
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 9:45 PM UTC
It's hard to fall in love again
Because after all that I've been through
I very strongly believe that the only ones who can ever truly love you back
Are your parents and your dog
It's hard to fall in love again
Because I was born and brought up in a culture which said that all that matters is the outside
And the inside can just go **** off
It's hard to fall in love again
Because it is shown that being fair is the only way you can be lovely
That all matrimonials ever wanted was a slim and b'ful lady
If this was an MCQ, I'll be the none of these
It's hard to fall in love again
Because I'm scared all men just want the body with curves and face like an angel
That the only things that should be big are your **** and your ***
Because who gives a **** about a big heart
It's hard to fall in love again
Because the words that he said in the past still haunt me, telling me that I'm not good enough
Pretty enough, **** enough, anything enough to be loved
It's hard to fall in love again
Because eventhough I read quotes on how beauty comes from within, it's proved wrong with every single encounter
Which leads to be believe that all that movies and books ever taught us about romance is absolute ********
That the only reason Jack ever loved Rose was because, well, she was ******* hot
It's hard to fall in love again
Because people don't see that you're born with the skin but it takes effort to build the soul
Because the skin will form wrinkles and sag with time
But the soul and the mind won't
It's hard to fall in love again
Because I don't want to add more to my list of insecurities and brokenness which scar me forever
Because I don't want to dive down and down and down into my worn out self esteem
It's so ******* hard to fall in love again
So I laugh it off and joke around
But everytime I see you
I really, really want to fall in love again
But I'm scared that you'll do the same and break whatever is left of me
That you'll turn me inside out and rub my imperfections till they burn
That you'll laugh with your friends and say
Where did that ***** even gather the guts from to come up to me and say, "Hey man, I like you"
Like that's the worst thing anyone could ever say to you?
They say
Love is a drug
But I think I'm in rehab
They say
Don't be cynical about love because in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
It is as perennial as the grass
But I think I'm better off in a barren land
A place that can accept me for who I am
So the next time you ask,
"Are you dating someone?"
And I reply with a snort and say, "Huh, look at me. No one would want to be with me."
And you say, "No, looks don't matter and the personality-"
I'll punch you in the ******* face
Because to hell with all your crap
You won't want to be me even for a single day
You won't want to be the ugly girl standing in the corner of the hallway
Oct 15, 2017
Oct 15, 2017 at 7:03 AM UTC
Hey there
Girl with the veil
Eventhough you cover yourself with a scarf
Your inner beautiness radiates through it
Displaying the real you
Without any other distractions
Hey there
Girl with the veil
You are not shy to voice out your feelings
Even with that hijab
It doesn't mean you are timid
The speculations of the ******
Makes it harder for you to go on
But you don't care
Hey there
Girl with the veil
You seem to have been writing poems
Hopeless romantic ones lately
Is your heart lost?
If you need any help
I can help you to find directions again
Feb 13, 2014
Feb 13, 2014 at 9:06 AM UTC
Oh, the great tree that sprouting the whole universe, I am just asking now for a little bit of shadow Many might have come meanwhile to friends with you And they might have supported you to give more power Besides they might have sung many songs in the rhythm of heartbeat And all the dusks have wept a lot No doubt they would have desired to see the garden of memories And all their deeds given inexplicable joy .BUT I saw the earthen monuments on all my ways and I thrilled in the floute- music of my life Moreover I saw the jasmine groves in the island of sorrows And my burning self have seen the depths of red-sea. EVENTHOUGH, may I sit and may think in this chilling canopy of ETERNAL LOVE.(originally written in MALAYALAM,kerala ,India.in 2008)
Oct 20, 2013
Oct 20, 2013 at 11:37 PM UTC
I CONTINUE TO TRY TO CLIMB FROM THIS PIT OF DESPAIR, WHILE REALIZING THAT THE MORE I CLIMB TO THE LIGHT THE FURTHER AWAY IT MOVES FROM ME.
MY HEART BEING SHATTERED PIECE BY PIECE, SO THAT I MAY FEEL EVERY NICK OF PAIN.
THOSE I HOLD DEAR, THAT HURT ME THE CLOSER I PULL THEM TOWARD, BUT THE PAIN OF PUSHING THEM AWAY WOULD FEEL UNBEARABLE.
IVE BEEN TEMPTED, AND HAVE FELL TO THAT TEMPTATION, TO MAKE THE ONES I LOVE MOST HAPPY, EVENTHOUGH I KNOW THAT AT THE END,
THEY WILL ULTIMATELY BE THE REASON I SELF DESTRUCT.
My deepest sorrows have been caused by those whom I could never picture myself being without.
Though at the end, I know I will be left even more scattered than before, those same people feel perfectly in place.
I yearn the attention and adoration from those who could care less about my happiness, yet I feel loved.
Eventhough they have made my life a living nightmare, I just wanna be the reason they sleep well at night.
WHY DID I EVEN THINK I WAS WORTHY OF THEIR ALL? THERE HAS TO BE A REASON I ADORE THEM SO HEAVILY. WHY WOULD THEY EVEN WASTE TIME ON SOMEONE LIKE ME WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY OTHERS WHO CAN DO MORE FOR THEM THAN I EVER COULD.
TO BE WORTHY ENOUGH FOR EVEN THEIR LEAST, MAKES ME FEEL THAT I AM SPECIAL TO AT LEAST SOMEONE, THOUGH IT BE SHORT LIVED.
Eventhough you are the reason these tears are forming in my eyes, and my vision is getting blurry, even being that you are the reason I’m lower than I thought I could ever be, I still just wanna be the reason you smile.
I wanna bring warmth to your heart in this cold world. My heart beats to bring you joy, because just you being happy, is the reason I can wake up and say that I have a purpose.
MY BODY, HEART, MIND, AND SOUL ARE IN AGONY, BUT IF THAT MEANS THAT YOU ARE JUST A SMALL BIT SATISFIED. IT MAKES ME FEEL THAT IT IS ALL WORTH IT.
AND HONESTLY, AS MY TEARS DROP ONTO THE SCREEN AND IT GETS A LITTLE HARDER TO BREATHE, I WILL DO IT AGAIN, AND WOULDNT HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY.
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 3:10 PM UTC
You are so beauteous
your smile is enchanting
your eyes is so precious
you are very admirable and loving
you amuse me, delight me and laugh with me
i felt i dont deserve you,
or you dont deserve me
with you i felt free...
until...
we had a fight, the person i thought that will save me.
is the person that wrecked me.
i lost my self esteem, the light become darkness
happiness become sadness
love become madness.. to anger.. to hatred
you didnt hurt me physically,
but the selfless, narcissistic action of yours
****** me up emotionally
You gave me roses but handed me the thorn first.
i am love and i cant denied it,
Love made me barely eat,
Love message you even its late. that eventhough your taking so long to respond, its okay love will wait.
but you hurt me over and over again,
and im still here for you eventhough you are so vain.
because i have faith that you will change
cause i thought we are in the same ******* page...
We once used to be in the same page.
the wound you gave me did not appear in my body
but hurts more than anything that bleeds
I become blind, because of wanting for you to love me so badly
i cant even tell if this still what love means.
if the wounds on my heart and the bruises on my soul translated into my skin, you would probably recognize it.
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 10:51 PM UTC
some days even when
everything in my life is in a crescendo
a part of me feels numb
a small part of me is numb to all the love,
all the joys, all the sadness, all emotions
all I feel is this numbness that comes out of
"a deep emptiness"
I know I cannot fill this vast emptiness,
so I cry out to a something greater than myself,
eventhough I don't have a clue what that might be
I embrace my numbness and accept that
life cannot be lived in extreme highs and lows
I want to embrace stability and not reject it as boredom
But some days I just want crawl into bed and not wake up
I feel so numb, and I have to remind myself that
"feelings aren't facts."
So I get out of bed and go through the motions
hoping against hope that someday my "deep emptiness"
is filled with an abiding love that will fill me to wholeness
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 10:21 AM UTC
I could be what you're looking for
If what you feel is right for you
Do you love me more than your man
Is my love for you more pure than what he has
Eventhough he makes you the center of his world
You don't love him the way he loves you
No one can touch you, hold you like I do
Only I can open up wildest fantasies
So don't be shy, open your dreams to me
Only you know how you wanna be loved
Tell me, have I always been on your mind
Do I make you smile, am I sunshine
Does he talk to you the way I do
Does he look at you the way I'm looking at you now
C'mon baby, feel the electricity
Let me get into you
Let my pleasure slide
I promise you, I'll do things he'll never do
Jun 24, 2010
Jun 24, 2010 at 2:31 PM UTC
It's funny the way i felt
Brokenhearted eventhough
I've never been in love before
Dec 12, 2013
Dec 12, 2013 at 8:12 AM UTC
apreciate the world for all of its beauty,
& please dont dwell on all of the negativity,
eventhough society is cruel and ugly,
please remember my love, that you are lovely.
you're too young, to be so broken down and sad.
dont let bad people, make you feel so bad.
& i know, you have a million scars on your broken
heart, but its time to let it go, dont let toxic people tair you apart, its time to move on, be strong and let yourself grow.
lifes too short and too precious,
time flys by far too fast, dont destroy your
future, dwelling on your troublesome past.
hug more, fight less.
relax, and dont stress.
live every day like its going to be your last.
if i had a time machiene.
these are the things that i would tell myself.
at the age of seventeen.
Aug 14, 2014
Aug 14, 2014 at 2:35 AM UTC
Someone knocked at my door,
I came running almost slipped on the floor,
You ring the bell up to four,
I said "I'm coming" and was shocked to see an Unexpected Visitor,
My stomach cringed when I saw your face,
My lips are trembling by your presence,
My weary eyes are full of dismay,
And then you asked me "How are you my sweet nightingale?"
My voice was caged inside my mouth,
Sending you out is what I want
But instead of that I open my door,
Cover my oblivious uneasiness and said "I'm fine, come into my house; just sit in the sofa, I'll be back in an hour"
My breathing is too hard,
Being with you is too harsh,
And after a while I came back to you, holding a glass of orange juice
I saw how you drank the remaining drops, wishing that you'll be choke and die in your spot
I asked you"Why are you here?"
Anticipating for your answer "It's all because of you"
But who I am to fool myself?
When you answered me, you're here to pick up your new girl
I wanted to strangle your neck with my hands
How could you visit me like I'm not your ex lover?
But as an educated person I treat you like my guest, eventhough I wanted to send you--- back to the hell
Then you finally decided to leave, before my hand meet your face, but before I close my door, I said something that made you stiff,
"Never come back in my life again, for you are not welcome here anymore, you wasted the chance I gave you before, so please Never Come Back you are an Unexpected Visitor".
Aug 22, 2017
Aug 22, 2017 at 11:45 AM UTC
Her light white skin so soft , Her eyes blue like water , so beautiful she is , so sweet ,so awesome ,
Me myself interested with the connection I feel ,
is it love ? Or is it fun .... , I think I feel Love because Love is fun , Love is real ,
with her soft white pure skin against mine , her sweet lips touch mine , her hand in mine , the touch , the spark so big like the fourth of July ,
but the bitter fear of her gone , I sulk I sink and I think , I Love this girl , close or far , here or gone ,
her voice in my head like a record on repeat , I close my eyes and there she is ,
here with me eventhough she is gone , I love HER !
Apr 22, 2013
Apr 22, 2013 at 1:31 AM UTC
I remembered the days
We use to gaze upon each other
Under the lit sky
of fireworks and explosions
Your touch used to electrify me
As I was shy
Yes, I was
And we shared our laughters
Forbiddenly
As no one knows about us
And we shared our tales
Of love and desires
To the extend
That we are more than friends
I remembered the time
When I got that call to far away
A place not known to us
As you found out
Your heart was flooded with tears
As mine withstand the horrendous emotion
And as you let your body collapse to mine
A meaningful hug was grasped towards each other
And our feelings are poured
Into a goblet we cherish together
Now, seems like to only medium to converse
is with the social network of the almighty internet
We text message at twilight
Send emojis during the afternoon
And shared video calls when the sun sets fully
Eventhough we never see each other face to face
Our heart will always be together
Always
Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 9:03 AM UTC
every winter i wait for it to snow
cover up the road
and get excited for feeling it
while playing snowball fight
i get hit by the snow on my face
my face gets red burns everywhere
but i love the snow so much that
i can't just let go and leave
cause i know that the snow isn't here forever
every winter i start loving you like the snow
again and again eventhough the pain
and i know you'll be leaving soon
i'm still waiting for you my snow
please be sure to be a snowflake this time
and don't hurt me for once please
i'm really tired
but know that i'll always be loving you
my snow
Nov 11, 2013
Nov 11, 2013 at 4:40 PM UTC
10 years of friendship.
4 were drowned and forgotten.
Found our way back
To shore in 2014.
Without much introduction,
We clicked and fit eachother like two pieces in a puzzle.
We both went through laughter and tears together.
Sad to know that these are the last tears that I will share with you.
You've always thought I was an idiot,
You weren't any different either.
But we contradict so much and it was never an issue for us.
Playful punches on my stomach,
I laugh off the pain as if it didn't hurt me as much as I thought.
I've insulted you so many times,
It's amazing you're still here.
But remember that behind every insult,
I always compliment you inside.
How great you are,
How incredible you are,
How strong you are,
How beautiful you are too.
I never agreed when you say you are ugly,
eventhough I said I agree, I don't.
You're beautiful, You've always been beautiful.
I find joy in making you smile,
I do it as much as I can because I'll never know when's the last time I'll live another day to see your stupid face.
I'm sorry that I have to leave like this,
It was never in my plan to just go.
You can be mad at me all you want,
No one can disturb you behind these white walls.
You can hit me all you want too,
I promise I won't feel the pain.
You can curse at me as much as your heart desires.
I'm deeply sorry for this.
I can't be there on your birthday and tell you how much work I've put in decorating Your birthday place.
Or how much my present for you costs.
I can't be there to complain of how late you are to our meetups.
Or tell you how stupid you look in that dress.
I can't be there on your wedding day to watch you walk down the aisle heading towards that lucky guy you finally found.
He might be shawn.
I can't be there to see that.
I can't be there to cry for you because I'd be so happy.
I can't crack jokes to you anymore or make puns that don't make sense.
I can't see your confused face when you don't understand me.
I can't be there to hear you say that you hate me..
So if you still see me breathing for my life someday,
Before they pull the plug.
I'd like to hear your last "I hate you"
Because I know that you actually mean
"I love you"
Sep 3, 2015
Sep 3, 2015 at 8:47 PM UTC
Their heartbeat does not define love
Their eyes do not define love
Their smile does not define love
Their presence does not define love.
What does define love is
Their actions - do they dare to leave something just for you?
Their sacrifices - do they dare to take chances eventhough the chances of both of you to last is unpredictable?
Love is when you do anything in the moment although you could not control fate.
Love is when you take that leap of faith and risk something.
Love is when you feel it is worth it to let them take something from you.
Love is when you feel you want to spend the rest of your life with them.
May 25, 2014
May 25, 2014 at 5:22 AM UTC
After you left it lasts for a week
those pleaded and weep
I've done everything to keep
but still you left and now I am weak.
No text, no call
no you after all
I think you've forgotten me I don't understand
I've got this fear now that I cannot stand
I am no longer open for companions,
I don't even take everyone's opinions
I don't talk I thought doubtly
I think they'll just reject me.
I don't even talk to who's not committed
Cause I have this fear now of being rejected
I am now sealed with this fear
Be forgotten by a person eventhough I love for real.
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 6:04 AM UTC
Secrets untold behold my eyes.
They are very expressive otherwise.
My screams and cries have been locked in a dungeon.
Iam a mute spectator, eventhough with a vision.
The world seeks the lies and not honesty.
There is room for evil and none for piety.
My grief gets capsized in the teary storm.
In the long run, nightmares they form.
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 3:27 AM UTC
Here lies a scar
a short cut to a shortcut
on the journey home
to the heart
I almost died trying to
find a way out of myself
to release my own demons
free the inside of me
in the split second
of a split vein
the moment i almost lost
all of my moments
the breath of life
i realized its importance
there is no easy way out
you will hurt the ones you love
when you are here now
then suddenly gone tomorrow
there is no easy way in
there will always be trauma
that aches beneath the skin
things you want to escape from
escape into
life is full of paradoxes
you want to live
but self sabbatoge your life
though the same God
who created the stars
created you
you feel yourself undeserving
to be among the living
Yet you are here
In almost giving it away
I learned life is a gift
i must not squander it
eventhough I feel squandered by it at times
that I am wasting my time
These ill feelings pass
and ill get past my past
and the future will at last
be the last thing I grasp
my last will and testament
that I faced the present
my sadness, my fears, my anxieties
deep depression
fought them all tooth and nail
raised hell
to be comfortable in my shell
accept myself
And I outlasted it
won the battle
Lived
Survived
Thrived.
I am here.
Jan 24, 2017
Jan 24, 2017 at 1:23 PM UTC
Gifts. Not all gifts consist of contagious laughs, nor shrieking woes. For most children, they receive joy, and sometimes a coffin for the old. Mine was hard to distinguish even up today. Because it was dressed like a daydream under the sheets of gray. A snowglobe, a sculpture of two faces, the atmosphere that surrounds it like a womb. It felt secure. A city of our dreams where no one can touch. The love that never came to me was there to watch. I remember feeling almost everything to the sound of your breath and fascinating wonders. With you the glitters there form a twister. The figures within will dance until their feet numb. Christmas hums whisper through the effect of the words 'i love you'. And those were the reasons I forgot it was all a lie. I forced myself a sweet lie. Because somehow, I lost the sense of reality. Your hands will never intertwine mine. Your eyes will never see that little world. Eventhough I admit I was fine, I blinded myself in this light. The thought of you managed to make chilly snows as glitter. The colors turned dull as I make out our figure. As if a midnight train, you abandoned our memories at dawn. And your heart making decisions like stone. It was gloomy and cold and funny. The perfect piece of broken melody. So I sing with this gift that you bestow, locking my soul in eternal sorrow.
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 3:27 AM UTC
If you looked inside her heart
You’d find a deep cavern
A lonely spirit trembling in the corner
If someone strums her heartstrings
A spirit quakes in fear
of loving, of falling, of being broken
She has made many mistakes
Doesn’t want to repeat
She has been dropped once
Shattered to pieces
Lie scattered on the floor
Like the pieces of a puzzle unsolved
She is terrified of love
Afraid she would not be able to solve the puzzle
Eventhough she has all the pieces
She needs to take a chance
and find a spark of courage
If you looked inside her heart
You’d find a not-so-empty cave
A hopeful spirit curled in the corner
Looking up to find a light
In that light she sees the picture
And is finally able
to solve the puzzle
{ n.j }
Aug 15, 2013
Aug 15, 2013 at 6:22 PM UTC
I'm not interested in small talk
I want to listen to your childhood memories
the day when your father taught you how to ride a bike
when your mother read you a fancy fairy tale before bed
when you were so happy because your parents complimented your drawings
eventhough they were bad
when you sat on your mom's lap in the evening of spring
as waiting for your dad to get home from work
when you blew a candle on your 8th birthday
I want to hear your voice
and see your crinkles on your beautiful eyes
as you laugh uncontrolably like a little kid.
Sep 15, 2013
Sep 15, 2013 at 7:55 AM UTC
hair bleached, blonde, orange, ginger
(it's funny cos i'm not quite sure)
she brightens the rooms' darkest corners with just a mere twitch of her lips and her bright blue eyes and her giggle
it's perplexing how she doesn't see
(then again none of us do)
that she's as beautiful as the girl down the street
in fact even more
with every inch of skin and scar
it makes her prettier than anyone else
but the best part that no one else had
was the heart she held within herself.
tucked away and hidden,
like her arms always were under those huge school jumpers
she kept her soul and eyes away
from the nosy ones and lovely ones alike
despite them caring or not.
she always thought she'd never matter
to anyone else or even herself
but she failed to see the hearts and arms opening up to her
because she refused letting anyone in
(why katy why?)
so no more scars my lovely girl
put the blade away
don't even store it for those bleak rainy days.
because you're better than that all of this
because eventhough something in life may be amiss
there's always a gorgeous yellow sun to shine down on you
to light up your freckly face and your fluffy golden hair
and the scars are enough
so even though times are rough
your skin just needs a break
and so does your heart
though it may break apart
it will eventually come to its senses and piece back together.
you're oh so strong and one day a guy will come along
and you'd probably punch him in the face
but I hope that day would come soon
so I could see you giggle and swoon
over some white boy
(you better have good taste)
this pretty little flower
is such a blessing to me
and i'll never forget the trip we're going to plan
and i hope when we meet for tea perhaps
we'd still gush and laugh and rant
about things that mean too much about nothing
and we'd still be somewhat best friends
stressed and depressed but well-dressed is what they say
but i've only always seen her in ripped black tights and a short black skirt
is it weird that we've never met but i feel like i've known her for years?
Nov 9, 2013
Nov 9, 2013 at 4:33 AM UTC