I am envolped in darkness
currently just I
searching for a dark soul
to join me
he will understand
my desires
my want for pain and love
his views as twisted as mine
understanding the earths flaws
digging at them
scratching
healing over time

There was once a man
Who sought out wisdom from the Gods
Old and New

He ventured from the East to the West
From the North to the South

Upon a desert he stopped
Wrought with hopelessness and despair

He gazed up to the heavens
As he thought
He began to count the stars and pay homage
To each one

When he had finished
He knelt
The sand below drenched in his sweat
His tears

He closed his eyes and opened his ears to hear
The whispers and whims of the desert

As the sand envolped him
The whispers and whims
Paid him homage

All that was in him and was him
Returned from whence he came

I woke to the news you died,
Your face I won't see when walking down the street. I won't stop and pass the time of day with you again.

I see your loved ones envolped with grief and a sadness fills my soul.

Your passing made me see life is preciously fragile.
You didn't plan to die, you didn't want to go.

You made a difference by dying but I'm not sure you will ever know.

I promise in your memory I'll hug my babies more. I'll treasure every second and live my moments more.

I don't wake up and dread the challenges of the day. I'll enjoy the testing moments and thank God I'm here to stay.


I'll think of you often. I'll whisper your name in my head. Even though I still can't believe you are actually really dead.