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"dug" poems
Zindagi ne, is kaddar, kiya hai, bas vaar Bina koi, churee, ya koi, talwaar Ghaayal; dil ye hua, baar, baar Zindagi ne, di, chotain hazaar Gaye thay, hum, is tarah se, bikhar jooda na, paye thay phirse ye jigar khaamoshi se, milta tha, bas, karaar tanhayeeon se , karte thay, iqraar Jhanke, hum jab, dil ke, jo andar Sach nikala, gehrayion se, baahar Shikayat hai, ab na, koi takraar karne lage hai, hum, khudse jo pyaar! Translation in English Self Love Life has waged on me many a war Without even a sword or a dagger so far The heart was wounded time and again Life hurt and caused me so much pain My life was but thrown helter skelter I could not piece my heart together Silence was but my solace Solitude was my only grace When I dug deep within me The truth I could clearly see I have no grievances or complaints now Having realized the importance of self-love
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Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 2:28 AM UTC
Hindi poem with English translation.
#there are the ones that feel it climb up the shadow towards the light, hesitation on every rung, each wave of the arising       overwhelms  unabated ― and woe betides those who are on the run from a storm's deluge A rousing ocean breeze stirs inside the memory of an unframed seashell lying on the hearth mantel; heightened sensitivity lapping soundlessly, spindrift plashing the shoreline of another world's feigned peace Perhaps the muted voice of guilty pleasures, hushed by their own hidden truths Feeling the unfelt textures of every stifled vibration left unbreathed The naked truth befallen so cold and lonely Running in circles, volatile as all those      unspoken excitations raging ― and the whispers of those who hear not the voices in the wind An emotionally enslaved  heart tarries,  marooned high and dry in a memory on a distant sand bar      lain fallow for so long ― stagnant darkness of an unsated soul gathered on the back of a parched tongue sullied wordless Rising up through a dusty hieroglyph corridor through an unlocked labyrinth gate;  vestige echoes from somewhere left behind in an incomprehensible abandoned wake It's getting harder and harder    for an insatiable soul to breathe ...    climbing up a tree trunk― up within the silence of the listening tree   Toes dug into the rough bark furrows ― fingers reaching upwards beyond their deepest known grasp A shadow stranded out on a hangin' bough hearkening without ears that hear: “perhaps they’ll listen now“   the wingless bird sings in psalms that fly away on tattered feathers over untamed waters roil Back to nature’s waning youth, the bough bends unbroken to taste the freedom of the wild absolving seas Jesse Stillwater June     2018
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Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 12:41 PM UTC
"Perhaps they never will ..."
#there are the ones that feel it climb up the shadow towards the light, hesitation on every rung, each wave of the arising       overwhelms  unabated ― and woe betides those who are on the run from a storm's deluge A rousing ocean breeze stirs inside the memory of an unframed seashell lying on the hearth mantel; heightened sensitivity lapping soundlessly, spindrift plashing the shoreline of another world's feigned peace Perhaps the muted voice of guilty pleasures, hushed by their own hidden truths Feeling the unfelt textures of every stifled vibration left unbreathed The naked truth befallen so cold and lonely Running in circles, volatile as all those      unspoken excitations raging ― and the whispers of those who hear not the voices in the wind An emotionally enslaved  heart tarries,  marooned high and dry in a memory on a distant sand bar      lain fallow for so long ― stagnant darkness of an unsated soul gathered on the back of a parched tongue sullied wordless Rising up through a dusty hieroglyph corridor through an unlocked labyrinth gate;  vestige echoes from somewhere left behind in an incomprehensible abandoned wake It's getting harder and harder    for an insatiable soul to breathe ...    climbing up a tree trunk― up within the silence of the listening tree   Toes dug into the rough bark furrows ― fingers reaching upwards beyond their deepest known grasp A shadow stranded out on a hangin' bough hearkening without ears that hear: “perhaps they’ll listen now“   the wingless bird sings in psalms that fly away on tattered feathers over untamed waters roil Back to nature’s waning youth, the bough bends unbroken to taste the freedom of the wild absolving seas Jesse Stillwater June     2018
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rain mud and grass common prayer good weather good people art and umbrella bags because who wants to get wet? unless it’s with you I could I would jump into the lake for that rock sew cleanse initials made in sharpie and unclamp we run around the park the afternoon surrounds us the woman in the bikini passes and we laugh iced tea decaf coffee cake without teeth and that airstream camper you always wanted I could live in your backyard I could live somewhere not here in silver prostrated with my back to the moon like dead like a mummy like a mirror and life would make sense life would be beautiful like this run with perfect amounts of sweat and conversation that runs waves in the sand and tells the squirrels *goodnight, tractor see you tomorrow* and the land that billows is dug up and chewed like a goodnight poem this run with you takes rest on my soul and I crack my ribs to take the spring’s twilight aroma
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May 6, 2016
May 6, 2016 at 10:36 PM UTC
all things beautiful
Walking down the street, you catch a glimpse of the most beautiful woman And in a second, your life flashes by, she’s with you till the end Your grave is freshly dug, she sheds a tear You've not had enough of her, you refuse to leave She goes home and your ghost follows She holds a picture of the two of you, forces a smile Dinner seems to be the most silent and most painful The television helps, at times The actors fall in love time and again, this gives her hope They make her laugh, yet your ghost just sits there. Expressionless She reads, and reads some more Books seem to be her new love The pile next to her bed grows weekly as she can’t stop turning the pages An old friend visits her, they speak about you She puts on a smile but she’s not ready yet They drive down to the fields and the grass clears her mind if only for a while Your ghost takes a walk and leave her be for a while, but it’s not done yet Weeks pass, your ghost wanders She smiles a lot more, even laughs time and again Once again, she has others in stitches The second passes. She walks past. And yet her ghost just sits there. Expressionless
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Oct 27, 2012
Oct 27, 2012 at 8:04 PM UTC
Death isn't the only end of something beautiful
it was on the 2nd floor on Coronado Street I used to get drunk and throw the radio through the window while it was playing, and, of course, it would break the glass in the window and the radio would sit there on the roof still playing and I'd tell my woman, "Ah, what a marvelous radio!" the next morning I'd take the window off the hinges and carry it down the street to the glass man who would put in another pane. I kept throwing that radio through the window each time I got drunk and it would sit there on the roof still playing- a magic radio a radio with guts, and each morning I'd take the window back to the glass man. I don't remember how it ended exactly though I do remember we finally moved out. there was a woman downstairs who worked in the garden in her bathing suit, she really dug with that trowel and she put her behind up in the air and I used to sit in the window and watch the sun shine all over that thing while the music played.
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A Radio With Guts
I know I'm not as quiet as I could be when I should be. But thoughts are just perpetual graves dug over and over. That seems a bit redundant, but so is this thought.
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Oct 3, 2014
Oct 3, 2014 at 4:31 PM UTC
thoughts for thoughts for thoughts
i have sunk into a slow numbness, perhaps because something broke over me the second i saw you again. i realized, it's better to be in full-blown sorrow than in a fragile happiness, forever staving off the blackness. but instead, i have sunk into a slow numbness. perhaps because you look away from me now the exact same way that i look away from you. your aversion gives me numbness. don't you see it? that's all this ever was. a fear of the numbness. a fear of the pain. your indifference gives me numbness because who wants to feel it when the ripping apart begins. i have smoked to numbness. i have cried to numbness. i have raged to numbness. i have laughed to numbness. i have embraced the numbness. i have dug myself into numbness but you gave me the shovel. you gave me the numbness. and i feel absolutely fine. i feel nothing at all.
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Apr 9, 2013
Apr 9, 2013 at 6:08 PM UTC
a lie about numbness
Kevan Fuchs died today in his sleep In a similar way as his father of one And actually, also my father did too Of those bitter, big cancer scourges Which always come in unexpected In this short enough life, a bit early I've known him ever since first, when We were knee high to Dad's shotgun Throughout our small neighborhood We would all roam to see and look For ***** toads and such other fun Without any known end in our sights We often, came all together, at once In his parent's, little Clovis back yard In the under ground, in our deep dug Wild little clubhouse of our new pride Approved by our jealous Dad's stare Made all by ourselves, with great care Eight by eight, with three feet of deep Shagged carpet floors, walls around And places to hide stuff with those **** magazines we wished to remain Unseen by our parents, although they Surely lived through similar wild times Black lights , fluorescent mod posters Fans to cool, while there in the deep Kept the place comfy, from several Hot summers in New Mexico's heat Staying nights over, in conspiracy we Came colluding, while hoping no fame This place was our place, of known Refuge from all of the big crazy, with Frightening world still yet to come Giving us our youngest freedoms And also so much being in trouble As kinda neighborhood hoodlums Far up his Dad's, tall, two-way radio tower One of us in care would climb With binoculars to see the dark night With our pair of walkie talkies held Warn the others, carousing around Of any plight, in appearing headlights Kevan's brother, still alive,  Keith My other brother by another,  Buddy Also at first, a weird guy, named Chris One other member, as second cousin Who actually, was my very first kiss When it was hard to aim, lips to miss All bound as one, by made up signs And part of something called PSO Which, if you don't know well, what it Truly means, then you were definitely Not a part of the so very high bliss Which we suffered through so often Kevan's true nature is clearly proven Finally, most completely, at his end In the nature of his wonderful loving All his family, who also so loved him And all those other parties to trouble Who also so loved, really all of him ©  2017 Jim Davis
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May 4, 2017
May 4, 2017 at 9:18 AM UTC
The Clubhouse
Kevan Fuchs died today in his sleep In a similar way as his father of one And actually, also my father did too Of those bitter, big cancer scourges Which always come in unexpected In this short enough life, a bit early I've known him ever since first, when We were knee high to Dad's shotgun Throughout our small neighborhood We would all roam to see and look For ***** toads and such other fun Without any known end in our sights We often, came all together, at once In his parent's, little Clovis back yard In the under ground, in our deep dug Wild little clubhouse of our new pride Approved by our jealous Dad's stare Made all by ourselves, with great care Eight by eight, with three feet of deep Shagged carpet floors, walls around And places to hide stuff with those **** magazines we wished to remain Unseen by our parents, although they Surely lived through similar wild times Black lights , fluorescent mod posters Fans to cool, while there in the deep Kept the place comfy, from several Hot summers in New Mexico's heat Staying nights over, in conspiracy we Came colluding, while hoping no fame This place was our place, of known Refuge from all of the big crazy, with Frightening world still yet to come Giving us our youngest freedoms And also so much being in trouble As kinda neighborhood hoodlums Far up his Dad's, tall, two-way radio tower One of us in care would climb With binoculars to see the dark night With our pair of walkie talkies held Warn the others, carousing around Of any plight, in appearing headlights Kevan's brother, still alive,  Keith My other brother by another,  Buddy Also at first, a weird guy, named Chris One other member, as second cousin Who actually, was my very first kiss When it was hard to aim, lips to miss All bound as one, by made up signs And part of something called PSO Which, if you don't know well, what it Truly means, then you were definitely Not a part of the so very high bliss Which we suffered through so often Kevan's true nature is clearly proven Finally, most completely, at his end In the nature of his wonderful loving All his family, who also so loved him And all those other parties to trouble Who also so loved, really all of him ©  2017 Jim Davis
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Last night I had a dream that you died. Everyone we knew came, said their I’m-so-sorry’s, and left, filtering out the front door slowly like sand through a sideways sifter, leaving behind pieces, words and memories and casseroles I could not taste. And the whole time everyone was here, you were here, too. I could hear you, smell you, feel you. I could feel you surrounding me like the ghost of the baby blanket I once had and could never leave at home. I loved you here and here you would stay, with me, and now you would never leave. I could keep you. You were bound to me. But the ties that bind are tight and you did not like me leaving. You could not go with me and you accidentally and without words by holding, enveloping, suffocating you told me that you did not want me to ever leave again. So I stopped. I stopped leaving. And the calls stopped, too. The invites. The lunches. The impromptu trips to town. All unnecessary noise. The people left. And then it was just you and me. Until one day I saw what you had done. Tripping I glanced in the mirror and saw. You had etched yourself into my face. Dug with your nails terrifying ravines escaping the corners of my eyes. Pulled down my mouth and every shallow natural valley turned to deep empty bowl, hungry and wanting. My eyes no longer held light. I saw this, all evidence against you, and I still loved you. You had hurt me in ways you never had while you were here – here – and I knew. And I still loved you. Slinking up the stairs I called you to me. I felt you surround faster than before and closer, tighter, colder. Suffocating, stifling and so destructive in how you loved me. Slowly but faster I grew to know I would not become you and you would not become me. We were stuck on other sides of the mirror. I was so angry at what you had allowed me made me begged me to become. Realizing I gasped and put hand to heart it hurt so. I stood upright how long have I been bent took in one long deep breath of stuffy air how long since I opened the windows and called you to me when have I last heard a voice not my own called you to listen. I felt the loss of everything else friends family adventure excitement. Nothing was left of that here and I was so angry and I am so sorry and I yelled       I screamed       I roared why are you still here why are you making me like you why did you come here and hold me and keep me here with you I am not the one who is dead and I said and I regret and I am so sorry I can’t have you here go away and leave me alone and you did. You left me all alone. Why would you leave me?
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May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 1:06 AM UTC
Leaving
Last night I had a dream that you died. Everyone we knew came, said their I’m-so-sorry’s, and left, filtering out the front door slowly like sand through a sideways sifter, leaving behind pieces, words and memories and casseroles I could not taste. And the whole time everyone was here, you were here, too. I could hear you, smell you, feel you. I could feel you surrounding me like the ghost of the baby blanket I once had and could never leave at home. I loved you here and here you would stay, with me, and now you would never leave. I could keep you. You were bound to me. But the ties that bind are tight and you did not like me leaving. You could not go with me and you accidentally and without words by holding, enveloping, suffocating you told me that you did not want me to ever leave again. So I stopped. I stopped leaving. And the calls stopped, too. The invites. The lunches. The impromptu trips to town. All unnecessary noise. The people left. And then it was just you and me. Until one day I saw what you had done. Tripping I glanced in the mirror and saw. You had etched yourself into my face. Dug with your nails terrifying ravines escaping the corners of my eyes. Pulled down my mouth and every shallow natural valley turned to deep empty bowl, hungry and wanting. My eyes no longer held light. I saw this, all evidence against you, and I still loved you. You had hurt me in ways you never had while you were here – here – and I knew. And I still loved you. Slinking up the stairs I called you to me. I felt you surround faster than before and closer, tighter, colder. Suffocating, stifling and so destructive in how you loved me. Slowly but faster I grew to know I would not become you and you would not become me. We were stuck on other sides of the mirror. I was so angry at what you had allowed me made me begged me to become. Realizing I gasped and put hand to heart it hurt so. I stood upright how long have I been bent took in one long deep breath of stuffy air how long since I opened the windows and called you to me when have I last heard a voice not my own called you to listen. I felt the loss of everything else friends family adventure excitement. Nothing was left of that here and I was so angry and I am so sorry and I yelled       I screamed       I roared why are you still here why are you making me like you why did you come here and hold me and keep me here with you I am not the one who is dead and I said and I regret and I am so sorry I can’t have you here go away and leave me alone and you did. You left me all alone. Why would you leave me?
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On the winding path I continued to follow An owl sat perched Old tree remain hollow It’s eyes were wide Piercing through me Claws dug in To the barren tree Hoot hoot hoot A steady beat Inviting me To take a seat Under the owl I took my place Reached for a stick To trace My name in the mud Rummaged through my bag Began to take Yet another drag Turning to ashes I was in the night Under the owl It felt just right.
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May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 8:04 PM UTC
The Owl
crooked steps just a seconds glimpse behind perfect trail before me, each step a gift Then in the distance I  caught sight of something I saw you kiss the lips of the sinking Sun locked embrace and O' how completely I struggled that entire night and O' how the next and the next and then the  next I tasted betrayal O' how vivid I I relived the scene in visions, questioning my eyes, wondering your motives I focused, I tried more and more O' I dug deep, i closed the miles,, then much closer I witnessed then, you whispering to the sky then you reached up your hands upon the full moon's face Pulling her down from heaven,  to your promises as you smiled to deny us, O' I obsessed You.... Kissing the sun, Promising the moon, As I watched O' I glared O' as did I wilt I withdraw to obscurity Beneath cover of your growing shadow a silouhette to follow making chase of the impossible I can't give up all i do is follow, and look , and press on , just to get close enough To tell you You are still my sun, Though you have another and you are my setting moon, my unobtainable,... and my reasoning for every step, every mile...   Now besought by the breadth The severity of those betrayals I hope you knew, i followed and still do coming to apprehend my little tease, my treasure, my liar I give chase, to how completely how very far I would go just to prove once and for all I love you. I shall, one day... If and when the stars let me they decide... Even they see plainly my envy As I have no mask One motive, Several unknown labels. I contrast the brilliant Silk strewn beauty once mine Falling once, am I choosing Leg by foot, by will and love Outshine the sun and by this Luna will turn it's attention Perhaps this test of time Practiced, lonesome patience May one day return the gaze Embrace in arms my desire The only one I want and follow My world.
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Dec 18, 2013
Dec 18, 2013 at 8:01 PM UTC
You kiss the sun, promise the moon
crooked steps just a seconds glimpse behind perfect trail before me, each step a gift Then in the distance I  caught sight of something I saw you kiss the lips of the sinking Sun locked embrace and O' how completely I struggled that entire night and O' how the next and the next and then the  next I tasted betrayal O' how vivid I I relived the scene in visions, questioning my eyes, wondering your motives I focused, I tried more and more O' I dug deep, i closed the miles,, then much closer I witnessed then, you whispering to the sky then you reached up your hands upon the full moon's face Pulling her down from heaven,  to your promises as you smiled to deny us, O' I obsessed You.... Kissing the sun, Promising the moon, As I watched O' I glared O' as did I wilt I withdraw to obscurity Beneath cover of your growing shadow a silouhette to follow making chase of the impossible I can't give up all i do is follow, and look , and press on , just to get close enough To tell you You are still my sun, Though you have another and you are my setting moon, my unobtainable,... and my reasoning for every step, every mile...   Now besought by the breadth The severity of those betrayals I hope you knew, i followed and still do coming to apprehend my little tease, my treasure, my liar I give chase, to how completely how very far I would go just to prove once and for all I love you. I shall, one day... If and when the stars let me they decide... Even they see plainly my envy As I have no mask One motive, Several unknown labels. I contrast the brilliant Silk strewn beauty once mine Falling once, am I choosing Leg by foot, by will and love Outshine the sun and by this Luna will turn it's attention Perhaps this test of time Practiced, lonesome patience May one day return the gaze Embrace in arms my desire The only one I want and follow My world.
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I'm laying in the grave you dug from the ***** of your heart, covered in petals of ignorance- which are not so blissful anymore.
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Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 5:10 PM UTC
ignorance
Sit with me in silence. Hold my hand with the hand Of your mind. I'll be your shadow; you be mine.   We'll rest in two dimensions. Watch ourselves in 3D. Safe in the warmth of Our common intentions. A womb, A room for you and me. *Let's communicate like mountains; Be like solid, silent giants. Sit with me in silence.* A river dug into purest stone after Uncountable years reflecting Sunlight, moonlight, stars and blue Skies unrejecting. Dark clouds too, In some divine alliance. *And deep within it's deepest deep, Two single, uncut diamonds. Until we're ground to grains of sand, Sit with me in silence.*
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Aug 31, 2015
Aug 31, 2015 at 6:26 AM UTC
Sit with me in Silence
Lonely thorns, Have caressed me, And pierced me. With extended arms, They reached out, Felt me beneath the skin, And felt the agony. Then they bloomed, Sparkling flowers, Gifting me, A bouquet of joy. Watching me smile, They rejoiced, Danced around, And I danced along. The million arms, Dug into me; And my heart soared, Reaching out, Every pore, Till I was, A loving being, And they, Were the thorny me.
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May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 1:05 AM UTC
A Thorny Love Affair
Tell me why it seems like the walls are closing in Tell me why my hopes they're stretched far and thin Tell me why my dreams still struggle in this fight Tell me why every time I draw air but it feels so tight. Tell me why in this turmoil my heart does wallow Tell me why lifes' lessons by the heapfuls I choke to swallow Tell me why I'm somewhat free but then again I am not Tell me why I really do have but I haven't really got. Tell me why I try to sleep many a restless night Tell me why I am so afraid of many a fearful fright Tell me why I still feel the way I have felt before Tell me why I ask many questions which leaves me broken and sore. Tell me why so much emotions run amok within me Tell me why I look yet I do not really see Tell me why despondence is back; it's here to haunt Tell me why such uncertainties always beckons to taunt. Tell me why I want more but I am quite contented Tell me why I have to accept the path I've very much resented Tell me why I already know but I still keep on asking Tell me why it seems like the reasons are in every way lacking. Tell me why I feel so happy but in fact I am so sad Tell me why it all seems unfair but I have to be glad Tell me why I found love in the most unfortunate circumstance Tell me why to a mournful tune I am stuck in dance. Tell me why my heart feels engorged but I can't release it all Tell me why I am so scared but I would still want to fall Tell me why I feel you close when you're farther than far Tell me why it seems incredulous that we share the same star. Tell me why I long to give you more when I can't this instant Tell me why I can feel better but I seem so resistant Tell me why sometimes I look up and curse at my luck Tell me why I refuse to focus on courage that I really should pluck. Tell me why I lay in bed dreaming of a place far away Tell me why I find myself moping more and more each day Tell me why I chose to be naive and in fate I do give trust Tell me why time and time again it just gets ground to dust. Tell me why I feel so beaten and weak when I should be strong Tell me why I am so familiar in a place I don't belong Tell me why I have to live with a mask on my face Tell me why I feel like a marionette strung up by lace. Tell me why I dug deep when these words make me cry Tell me why the tears still trickle when my eyes are dry Tell me why I share this when I know you would feel bad Tell me why I would even spout the words that make you sad. Tell me why these painful wounds I didn't choose to lick Tell me why I didn't let them heal but instead I would pick Tell me why I feel as though I am quite addicted Tell me why it seems like I enjoy the dark I've inflicted. Tell me why sometimes I question, the things you see in me Tell me why you've said it many times but I don't really see Tell me why I haven't drifted far when I should've a while ago The reason is you; because you have chosen to love me.
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Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 8:30 PM UTC
Digging Deep
Tell me why it seems like the walls are closing in Tell me why my hopes they're stretched far and thin Tell me why my dreams still struggle in this fight Tell me why every time I draw air but it feels so tight. Tell me why in this turmoil my heart does wallow Tell me why lifes' lessons by the heapfuls I choke to swallow Tell me why I'm somewhat free but then again I am not Tell me why I really do have but I haven't really got. Tell me why I try to sleep many a restless night Tell me why I am so afraid of many a fearful fright Tell me why I still feel the way I have felt before Tell me why I ask many questions which leaves me broken and sore. Tell me why so much emotions run amok within me Tell me why I look yet I do not really see Tell me why despondence is back; it's here to haunt Tell me why such uncertainties always beckons to taunt. Tell me why I want more but I am quite contented Tell me why I have to accept the path I've very much resented Tell me why I already know but I still keep on asking Tell me why it seems like the reasons are in every way lacking. Tell me why I feel so happy but in fact I am so sad Tell me why it all seems unfair but I have to be glad Tell me why I found love in the most unfortunate circumstance Tell me why to a mournful tune I am stuck in dance. Tell me why my heart feels engorged but I can't release it all Tell me why I am so scared but I would still want to fall Tell me why I feel you close when you're farther than far Tell me why it seems incredulous that we share the same star. Tell me why I long to give you more when I can't this instant Tell me why I can feel better but I seem so resistant Tell me why sometimes I look up and curse at my luck Tell me why I refuse to focus on courage that I really should pluck. Tell me why I lay in bed dreaming of a place far away Tell me why I find myself moping more and more each day Tell me why I chose to be naive and in fate I do give trust Tell me why time and time again it just gets ground to dust. Tell me why I feel so beaten and weak when I should be strong Tell me why I am so familiar in a place I don't belong Tell me why I have to live with a mask on my face Tell me why I feel like a marionette strung up by lace. Tell me why I dug deep when these words make me cry Tell me why the tears still trickle when my eyes are dry Tell me why I share this when I know you would feel bad Tell me why I would even spout the words that make you sad. Tell me why these painful wounds I didn't choose to lick Tell me why I didn't let them heal but instead I would pick Tell me why I feel as though I am quite addicted Tell me why it seems like I enjoy the dark I've inflicted. Tell me why sometimes I question, the things you see in me Tell me why you've said it many times but I don't really see Tell me why I haven't drifted far when I should've a while ago The reason is you; because you have chosen to love me.
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What a city I murmur to myself looking at its map. We approached the city known as Dis, with its vast army and its burdened citizens. At last we reached the moats dug deep around the dismal city. What destroys the poetry of a city? Automobiles destroy it, and they destroy more than the poetry. Dante and Virgil chased by 7 or 8 dangerous devils Grumpy, Happy, Sneezy, Sleepy, ***** . . . Our heroes reduced from metaphysical philosophers interested in god and what man has done to man to improvising primitive tools for survival. Hope abandoned, we rate our chances of expiring in the nuclear fire – excellent – during the decline of western civilization. On the other hand, I hope our current problems are only temporary and it’s just a matter of time before the public ignores the 24-hour news cycle. Bad news sells but the good life’s all around us. One feels love and devotion even for the 60 million who voted for our opponent. Vaclav Havel said with a wisdom well beyond brilliance: “Either we have hope within us or we don’t. It is a dimension of the soul, and it’s not dependent on some particular observation of the world or estimate of the situation. It is an orientation of the spirit, an orientation of the heart that transcends the world as it’s immediately experienced. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense no matter how it turns out.” It resembles grief. But it's not quite grief. I'll give you grief. Certain days planned to be eventful I look forward to for weeks. Let the peaceful transfer of power proceed. The sorrow and the pity. Never may the anarchic man find rest at my hearth. When the laws are kept, how proudly the city stands! When the laws are broken, what of the city then? We are moving through some allegory between a City of Hope, where history has been abolished, and a City of History, where hope can be slipped in only as contraband. Failing to achieve understanding, we're searching outer space for an entity to unite us as humanity. That person, or city, is consciousness. Two ancient female poets are a revelation, the clarity of their complaints: lost lover, lost city. Our enemy eventually becomes our brother, his misery lifted by coming to her city.
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Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 9:23 AM UTC
City of Hope
What a city I murmur to myself looking at its map. We approached the city known as Dis, with its vast army and its burdened citizens. At last we reached the moats dug deep around the dismal city. What destroys the poetry of a city? Automobiles destroy it, and they destroy more than the poetry. Dante and Virgil chased by 7 or 8 dangerous devils Grumpy, Happy, Sneezy, Sleepy, ***** . . . Our heroes reduced from metaphysical philosophers interested in god and what man has done to man to improvising primitive tools for survival. Hope abandoned, we rate our chances of expiring in the nuclear fire – excellent – during the decline of western civilization. On the other hand, I hope our current problems are only temporary and it’s just a matter of time before the public ignores the 24-hour news cycle. Bad news sells but the good life’s all around us. One feels love and devotion even for the 60 million who voted for our opponent. Vaclav Havel said with a wisdom well beyond brilliance: “Either we have hope within us or we don’t. It is a dimension of the soul, and it’s not dependent on some particular observation of the world or estimate of the situation. It is an orientation of the spirit, an orientation of the heart that transcends the world as it’s immediately experienced. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense no matter how it turns out.” It resembles grief. But it's not quite grief. I'll give you grief. Certain days planned to be eventful I look forward to for weeks. Let the peaceful transfer of power proceed. The sorrow and the pity. Never may the anarchic man find rest at my hearth. When the laws are kept, how proudly the city stands! When the laws are broken, what of the city then? We are moving through some allegory between a City of Hope, where history has been abolished, and a City of History, where hope can be slipped in only as contraband. Failing to achieve understanding, we're searching outer space for an entity to unite us as humanity. That person, or city, is consciousness. Two ancient female poets are a revelation, the clarity of their complaints: lost lover, lost city. Our enemy eventually becomes our brother, his misery lifted by coming to her city.
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"Napakaraming tao dito sa atin ngunit bakit tila walang natira" dug dug dug Bubuksan mo ba to o hindi? Pag di mo to binuksan pwersahan kaming papasok! Tatlong katok muli Pagkatapos isang tadyak sa pinto ang gumising sibilyan na natutulog sa kama mag-isa. Pagkapasok agad, Sinaktan, pinuruhan, sinapak at sinikmuraan Tinutukan ng baril, tinakot bago pakunwaring pinatakbo. Sinigurado ang pag-asinta sabay kalabit ng gatilyo. Patay ang hinihinalang druglord sa kanto. Ngunit pagkatapos, walang patunay na nahanap. Isang maling pagpatay nanaman ang naganap. Pagkatapos ng gabing iyon, di lang isa ang namatay. Isang pamilya ang kinunan ng walang kamalay-malay. Kung sino pa ang nasa posisyon iyon pa ang mga kaaway ngayon. Kung sino pa ang nakakangat, siya pa tong namiminsala ngayon. Nasa mataas nang upuan pero hangad pa rin ay pag-angat. Halatadong di napapansin, ay hindi! Halatadong walang pake sa mga taong nasa baba. Pinagmukhang sirko ang mundo, pinapasunod ang bawat tao na parang aso. Inanyaya pa ang lahat ng madla ng parang ganito. "Mga bata, matatanda! Halina kayo panoorin ninyo ang palabas naming inihanda at ipakikilala ko sa inyo ang mga kapwa ko sirkero. Na namamahala sa sirkuhang ito." Palakpak Palakpak, yan ang nais ng sirkero diba pagkatapos ng palabas? Pero lahat ng mga tinuring ninyong hayop ay nakawawa at mistulang mamatay na. Ay hindi patay na, yung iba nama'y ginawa ninyong bulag na tagasunod. At pag wala nang kwenta iiwanan sa daan para damputin ng iilan at buburahin ang mga bakas na naiwan. Mga kamay nakagapos Walang takas Walang lakas Pagkahimlay Walang naiwang bakas. Ang galing maglinis ng krimen, mismong nangakong maglalaan ng pagmamahal ay ang mismo ring sa bansa sumasakal. Oo, sawa na ako sa tunog ng kampana sa tuwing magmimisa dahil may isa nanamang nawala. Rindi ang tenga ko sa paulit-ulit na hiyaw, sa paulit- na hiyaw at sa paulit-ulit na hiyaw ng inang umiiyak sa libing ng nagiisang anak. Kelan pa ba matatapos ang pwersahang pagkitil ng buhay sa pilipinas? Matagal nang nangangakong magbibigay sila ng kapayapaan pero kasabay nito ang paghawak ng baril sa kanilang kanang kamay. Mga kamay nakagapos Walang takas Walang lakas Pagkahimlay Walang naiwang bakas Makabagong istilo ng pagpatay sa Pinas Magpapanggap na tagapagligtas, pagkatalikod mo'y Paalam Pilipinas ang huli **** mabibigkas. "Napakaraming tao dito sa amin ngunit bakit tila walang natira?" Pinapatay sila....
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Aug 28, 2017
Aug 28, 2017 at 11:32 AM UTC
Makabagong Istilo
"Napakaraming tao dito sa atin ngunit bakit tila walang natira" dug dug dug Bubuksan mo ba to o hindi? Pag di mo to binuksan pwersahan kaming papasok! Tatlong katok muli Pagkatapos isang tadyak sa pinto ang gumising sibilyan na natutulog sa kama mag-isa. Pagkapasok agad, Sinaktan, pinuruhan, sinapak at sinikmuraan Tinutukan ng baril, tinakot bago pakunwaring pinatakbo. Sinigurado ang pag-asinta sabay kalabit ng gatilyo. Patay ang hinihinalang druglord sa kanto. Ngunit pagkatapos, walang patunay na nahanap. Isang maling pagpatay nanaman ang naganap. Pagkatapos ng gabing iyon, di lang isa ang namatay. Isang pamilya ang kinunan ng walang kamalay-malay. Kung sino pa ang nasa posisyon iyon pa ang mga kaaway ngayon. Kung sino pa ang nakakangat, siya pa tong namiminsala ngayon. Nasa mataas nang upuan pero hangad pa rin ay pag-angat. Halatadong di napapansin, ay hindi! Halatadong walang pake sa mga taong nasa baba. Pinagmukhang sirko ang mundo, pinapasunod ang bawat tao na parang aso. Inanyaya pa ang lahat ng madla ng parang ganito. "Mga bata, matatanda! Halina kayo panoorin ninyo ang palabas naming inihanda at ipakikilala ko sa inyo ang mga kapwa ko sirkero. Na namamahala sa sirkuhang ito." Palakpak Palakpak, yan ang nais ng sirkero diba pagkatapos ng palabas? Pero lahat ng mga tinuring ninyong hayop ay nakawawa at mistulang mamatay na. Ay hindi patay na, yung iba nama'y ginawa ninyong bulag na tagasunod. At pag wala nang kwenta iiwanan sa daan para damputin ng iilan at buburahin ang mga bakas na naiwan. Mga kamay nakagapos Walang takas Walang lakas Pagkahimlay Walang naiwang bakas. Ang galing maglinis ng krimen, mismong nangakong maglalaan ng pagmamahal ay ang mismo ring sa bansa sumasakal. Oo, sawa na ako sa tunog ng kampana sa tuwing magmimisa dahil may isa nanamang nawala. Rindi ang tenga ko sa paulit-ulit na hiyaw, sa paulit- na hiyaw at sa paulit-ulit na hiyaw ng inang umiiyak sa libing ng nagiisang anak. Kelan pa ba matatapos ang pwersahang pagkitil ng buhay sa pilipinas? Matagal nang nangangakong magbibigay sila ng kapayapaan pero kasabay nito ang paghawak ng baril sa kanilang kanang kamay. Mga kamay nakagapos Walang takas Walang lakas Pagkahimlay Walang naiwang bakas Makabagong istilo ng pagpatay sa Pinas Magpapanggap na tagapagligtas, pagkatalikod mo'y Paalam Pilipinas ang huli **** mabibigkas. "Napakaraming tao dito sa amin ngunit bakit tila walang natira?" Pinapatay sila....
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She is a warm gentle sunflower, whose roots have dug deep, whose stem never wavers. She looks up to the sun, admiring the bright glorious rays shining down upon her She feels freedom blowing through her like the wind and feels life pour into her like the rain. She marvels at the brilliance of the sunset and admires the warm glow it brings to the world. But silently she cries in the night, for what would she have without the sunlight? Then she simply looks up to the gleaming luminousness of the stars, and knows she's not alone.
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Jan 4, 2016
Jan 4, 2016 at 9:46 PM UTC
Freedom in the Stars
the feelings of hurting i've been having since you told me the way you work are not the worst that i've felt all my life. it bothers me that you've gone, and it bothers me that i'm only bothered, not dying. i loved you in a way i've never loved another soul. i loved you to your core. i loved you as a being in a faulty body. i loved your past life's symptoms... still do. i feel overly sensitive to the sun - just by rays and not by warmth. i can soak in the warmth, i can feel reborn if i keep my eyes closed. i can see the blood red, begin again. i open my eyes and i'm all blood red and even my breath hurts my skin. you told me you were akin to disease, like your own, but toward me, and i should have made it more clear how well i would handle the word "terminal" if it was you who directed it at me. to be honest i would love nothing more than being restricted to bedrest, afflicted with you. you have every permission to eat at my brain like a poison. burn my heart with equal parts fire and acid. i'm asking you for it. i'm asking for you. i'm calling for you and you hear me. we see each other, stare. you don't answer. you wanted to clean me up, dust the dirt of you off me, wipe the mud from my eyes that you think surely must be keeping me from seeing clearly. but there is no mud, just my own dark circles. i am clean though i stand in the deepest hole i've ever dug. still you scrub. my skin goes numb.
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Apr 8, 2014
Apr 8, 2014 at 11:07 AM UTC
the feelings of hurting i've been
Fresh from the kennels. A whole world away.   Companion conversion for a young castaway.   A darling of distraction with irrational fears. The clumsiest canine with ever aware ears. Guardian of gourmet. Suspect of all sounds. He'll catch himself someday, spinning around. A tug of war here. A muddy mess there. A lick to the face of the humans in his care. How thrilled his tail and tremendous his teeth. How dug up the planet from paw underneath. The running for fun. The claiming of trees. The car window ride along - face full of breeze. -------------------------------------------------------- But now he's a master of "Stay!". His eagle ears succumbing to gravity's sway. Napping much more, barking much less. Now rarer the cuddle, the clean, the caress. Patch protector. Owner of no debts. A veteran of various villainous vets. Birds as trivial as the tennis ball is far. Eyes now as hazy as the indistinguishable stars. A howl at the moon. A loosening tooth. An ode to memories of a modest youth. They still love this pup. He still loves them back. May he long be remembered as he faces the black.
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Mar 1, 2016
Mar 1, 2016 at 12:03 AM UTC
Trees
there was little hedgehog he just long to be a little Sherlock holmes and solve a mystery he bought himself a fiddle and a pipe and hat then off to solve the puzzle of the missing cat searching for some clues to where the cat could be looking for some evidence sherlock holmes was he he took along his spyglass to see what could be found searching everywhere in the forest ground he searched for while along the forest floor there and back again and again once more suddenly he heard a little purring sound hedgehog he decided to take a look around there he saw the cat he had trapped his paw he was very stuck and couldnt walk no more hedgehog dug him out now the cat was free no longer was he missing he solved the mystery hedgehog played a tune upon his little fiddle just like Sherlock Holmes he had solved the riddle
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Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 11:41 AM UTC
sherlock hedgehog
I once found a field, A beautiful field. A field that humans have not disturbed. I lived by the trees near this beautiful field. But I lived in complete ignorance, as two men, each with a ***** came to the middle of the grass, and struck down a wooden plank. Before long, my forest disappeared. Instead of grass growing, The only thing that surfaced, was the pale gray stone that was laid there. I watched as they dug deep into the ground, where tall boxes of stone and glass rose. They stood proud against one another, one building higher than the last. But they blocked my view, of a once beautiful sky. Before long, the field turned into a city, Cars and buses drove though the winding streets. People soon started to appear, and the field I once knew was long forgotten. A fountain has now been placed, where the pioneers have struck their plank, With no tree in sight, I throw the last seed into the water. Where it settles to the bottom with coins and marbles, never to sprout.
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Aug 16, 2014
Aug 16, 2014 at 6:38 AM UTC
A Beautiful Field
I drop four ice cubes into my coke out of habit. I kiss my sweet love four times for good luck so our team can win the game. I catch myself counting to four when Im ready to speak up, I don't count to three or even ten I count to four. It was on my back in big white letters when dad looked through the chain linked fence and said with every ounce of his pride "Take it for a ride lex." That's the day I got my first homerun. That's my old man's favorite number and mine too. Ill never know why I look at him like hes god. He spelt my name wrong two years back. The letters said L-e-x-i, I whispered that's not how you spell my name it's spelled L-e-x-i-e. I whispered because I didn't want to embarrass him, I thought if I talked quiet enough no one could see my lips break around the words in shock. I was 5 when me and mom left him. The number 5 is my most unlucky number it always takes something from me, like my dog, she was in my arms on the fifth of may when heaven called for her to go home. Dad came the next day to burry her, the hole he dug was to shallow. Days after her funeral foxes came and scattered her bones across the field.   It was a treasure hunt to find all of them, I tried to save her one last time. I should really give that man a call. I'll do it tomorrow , or I'll wait for him to call. I'll count to four before I answer.
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Jul 23, 2014
Jul 23, 2014 at 4:50 AM UTC
5.
there was a little hedgehog he was very sad it was christmas time and he had lost his dad the snow had got so deep he got left behind and the hedgehogs dad he just couldnt find he just kept on walking in the snow so deep then he found some snow piled up in a heap he dug into the snow then he heard a snore there he  found his dad sleeping on the floor hedgehog he was happy that he had found his dad it made his christmas happy best one he ever had
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Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 11:23 AM UTC
hedgehog orphan