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INSAMITY Feb 2011
Heart frozen,
Mind broken,
Soul stolen,
Agony in the open,
A life suffering for others.

Unbearable fear,
Scared every day,
Scared every month,
Every year,
Scared every second of my worthless existence,
Scared for other peoples wellbeing,
Scared of losing those that I hold dear,
Scared of being left alone for the rest of my years,
Sat in my cell of darkness,
Drowning in my own tears.

Chained up,
Locked away,
Kept in the dark,
Self esteem torn apart,
On fire!
Burning in my prison,
Starving flames adding to this pain,
This is how I feel,
This is my daily torture,
And I am my own executioner.

My reflection provokes me,
Chokes me,
I'm ugly!
Which ******* invented the mirror?!
I might as well be dead,
What could Emz possibly see in me?
I know what I see,
And sometimes I want to gouge my own eyes out,
I'm a freak and I can't stand it!
I sentenced myself to a miserable life because I dispise myself,
Only Emily can keep me alive,
She's the only one that can breathe life into me,
She's the only one that can set me free,
Please! Please help me!!
Set me free from this prison of self loathing!
I hate it more than I hate myself.
Copywright of Sam Gregory Publishers
dj Jan 2013
(Wash, rinse, repeat)

The white dome of bone beckons
For another wash, again
Again,
BACK into the shower basin, again
4th time tonight I'm BACK

Scrubbing my scalp
Fingernails on shriveled fingertips
digging trails & rivers
Through the skinny bone.
Crop circles all over my balloon head
showing & telling White Skull Diaries

Squeezing the shampoo bottle empty
Shaky, macabre cleansing;
I get lost watching the spiral of water & bubbles
As it vanishes down a drain

I step out of the steaming shower
And face a foggy mirror, again
Again,
I dispise the blurry reflection
All I see is a stark white skull anyway

It goes back far
This is going to be hard to hide
Exposing more and more white skull
"Just stop already
The drain's f
*king clogged with hai   r"
censored curse words look cool
DC raw love Dec 2016
Secrets as a chlid,
are done for fun...

Yet secrets in life,
can lead one to a gun...

Secrets that one hides,
can only lead to dispise...

Secrets we hold,
as we grow old...

Secrets we feel,
cant always be healed...

Secrets between two,
of love so true...

Secrets about ***,
is always the best...

Secrets that hurt,
come from the dirt...

Yet secrets of two,
are held by me and you...
Anais Mostly May 2013
Hotel room a/c fans faded red curtains
Lamp shade mutes the generic glow
Side stepped your way into something so certain
A dance no one  means to learn
Yet,  everybody knows

Yeah, you used to want something and you lost it in your lover's eyes
Fatal to acquiesce
No you can't acquire the original wonder you gifted him the year he said good- bye

You were too young to fathom
Now the monopoly houses in the suburbs look like geriatric wards

Easy blueprints to dispise
Cheap siding to realize

You dream of nothing
Your thoughts aren't your own

I promise that I won't wait
There is nothing I would change
The parts of me that I don't know
City to city
Continents and languages
One  woman alone
I promise you nothing

P.s. you can have my bones
I am thunder hear me roar;

paramour of Wotan

now the mountains rumble

when I anger and make war.

Beware the lair, my hair is fire

and I scorch from far.

I hurt your lies

and burn your truth.

I race the wind.

I always win.

Do not mock ...they’ll

find your body

on the rocks…

torn and ******  

black holes for eyes

bore out with nails.

You never saw

the truth so what!

You dispise

the one who tried to

show the way.

Go to hell !Oh boorish ****...

I’m here to stay…Vaincre Le ****

is surely meant for me...

just set me  free…If you should say,

Oh poisson,she smells... it would be fitting

for Wotan’s *****…

You  are a real piece of work!
I am still angry!
Semerian Perez Aug 2012
I seem to think
Of you alot lately
This time
I want to break down
Cry
Scream
But mostly die

People tell me that you
Dont care about me
But I feel they are wrong
Others dispise you
For what you stand for
They do not see
What I see
Or know
What I know.

You have the heart
Of a fighter
Strength
That comes from within
Will power of titanium
Spoken harsh words
When necessary.

And yet thats only brushing
The surface
People have chipped away
At you with
Words
Actions
All of which I am guilty of
I am sorry for hurting you

I know it was from a lie
And I was wrong.
But did I lie
When I said
I love you?
No I dont think
I did

Truth is I still
Love you
And so
I hold onto
These precious
Memories
In the hope
That there is a chance
Before darkness consumes
My heart
And death takes my soul
From my body

All I have left
Are Memories
Eva Aug 2011
i love the smell of breath smoldered in alcohol, its sweet and warming, it makes sense until morning like most midnight performing involving you does, i love the way that words taste when their hot and misplaced coming from a mouth laced with hasty lies and replaced theighs, tonight you grab mine and I disguise my surprise, touching you back with dispise, you kiss me like youve done a thousand times, and i know you're not wanting any reply or goodbye, not tonight when you push and i gasp, things happening so fast that you might think youve been unsurpassed but my respect for you comes in dead last. "We have a weird relationship," but really you're giving me permission to ignore the suspicion that gathers when you lay me down for submission, your disposition is hungry and mad, fast and glad, things that don't make sense to a young lad like chad. maybe you know there will be pain in this lame game you play, everything to gain but nothing to maintain, you got it all worked out,  dont restrain, pay attention to the inhumane way he chooses to entertain his left brain, his **** busts a nut and a vein, sputtering to a stop like its gotta a sprain, but really its just a ******* puppy wishing it was a great dane.
Peyton Walker May 2014
Every fibre in my body aches for you. 
My eyes for just a glimpse of your strong frame. 
My lips for your lips.
My hands to feel the steady beat of your heart. 
My ears for the familiar sound of your voice. 
Every skin cell pulls away from its attachment just to be closer to you. 
I envy your sweaters, they absorb your scent as you wear them. 
I dispise each blink for taking my gaze away from you for only a second. 
My voice yearns to speak your name and most of all my ears wait patiently to hear your words, if it's "I love you" or "I want my hands around your neck", I am listening.
Vladimir s Krebs Nov 2015
i feel like every breath i take when i am angry fill with smoke that takes my soul away.
every mistake i have made brings me and you closer. i want answer's that will tell me the truth.  why do i have a demonic life with smoke that fills my lungs! how angry do you have to make me till i lose control and go on a rampage. how long before i can get my own soul back.i am a demonic being that will take a life and rote it to death. i stand alone with anger that spits all your ******* lies out. im going to lose control and show this world what life with out a soul will be like when all you breath smoke in your lungs that destroy you life roting your mind away wiht only

ANGER
HATRED
DISPISE

smoke filling my lungs with only anger and *******.
i dont stand along with the crowd i stand alone away from societys ***** triks.

my demonic life has nothing but darkness that writes my life storie of what its like to be in hell.



smoke fills my lungs cause thats whats going to happen when you trade your soul for what ever greed needs

so trace my foot steps ill dissapear like the sun dose every day.

smoke fills my lungs cause i'm just a broken soul that has no where to go exept rain hell onto those whoe made my life misrable enstead
like is so pissy with every one so sufficating when yo have to work on a project for school
DAVID Aug 2016
silence the everlasting
fire, and the thirst of
your skin,  well satisfed.


never doubtfull,  your eyes
shine of placer, desire, and
complete satisfaction.

humdty in my pelvis, the
silky and sour shine, in the
lap of this gratefull  and loved
lion.

and for a minute,
just in that moment, im
complete, serene, loved, wanted,
a full beast, serened and thankfull

the sorrow, the pain, and fouling acts,
and the brutal theft, are just bumps,
overcomed, erased with the humidity
of your ***.

doubtfull is the one, that  
has not loved, her lie is a heavy
cross, dark, fatal, deadly, her soul
will never love beneath the divine
phalus.

in return, your eyes, truth,
love and venture, loving an
impossible, but loving even so,
stertores of your  loved and
kissed ******.

penetrated, softly and ferouciously,
are the echo of the fire, crashing the
sea, making life, steam, watering the
earth, generating the trofhic cicle,
of life, fire and water, steam of life,
passion between two beasts,
beautiful and loved.

your honney and your
desire, WILD, intense,
evergreene,  are vitals,
for a beast of montecristo,

that just drags, harm and pain,
of betrayal, every cut, every  scratch,
every stabing, made of me, the strong man
that y am.

unbreakcable, and living, loving impossibles
destroying the lies, ending the weakness
of  layars, full of hate,  and envy,
for losing  that, holding our
lives.

after that, and for their weakness
montecristo is the winner, a beast
with a heart, learning to love, the possible
and the impossible, to dissapear in the other,
rapped in her ligth, and her beauty,


the evil and weak of the mondego girls,
only speed up, their catastrophy,
y stand alone before their mistakes, and their
lies and anathems, turn against them,
truth clean the waters, and the fire make the
steam, that generates life, makng a full cicle.

so, threw desire, and mutual passion,
impossible happens, in the name of life,
and love, the desire quimera, could never erase
the time we touch, dispise the difference
full and wild.

generating steam, making life,
roaring, *******, groaning, and
in my mind and in yours, the same
desire, the overwelming truth, our truth,
and the incompresible lie, vain, the
echoes of the false, and ther infectious lies,
corrupting wath was always life.

the false notion of love, and their
acomplisses, with her conning, and the
not aceptacion, vain or insane,
dark, crazy and
incomplte.
this one's for the ladies. is not the engine is the choices, just that and aceptation , ] all mi love for the ones with aceptation and a clean heart.[
Krystina Durfee Nov 2011
Dear Far Away Love,
There you go again.
Walking by me without even a glance.
I notice that you don't have any interest.
But I still admire you from a far.
I won't dare approach you.
For fear of rejection.
I've been waiting on you to notice me.
Time after time, I stare at your face as you pass me.
You walk with such a specific flow of movements.
Your smile brightens the room.
Your eyes are the perfect shade.
You seem to like the way she walks, talks, exists.
You pay her more attention then you should.
She will break you.
I fear there's nothing I can say.
For the sake of starting another quarrel.
Oh, how I hate the way you look at her.
She has a beautiful name, as I am nameless to you.
We've been around each other before, without you thinking of her.
Only of me and what you needed.
I was your everything... until she took your from me.
That is what I dispise about her.
The point of view that you used on me.
You spoke sweet nothings to me.
I took them to heart... foolish girl I was.
For now, I feel this way for another.
Now, this one is perfect for me.
Everytime I see him, he looks back.
He pays no attention to the other women.
I'm the only one in his sights.
The only one who will stick by me.
Forever.
You're lost something.
Something you should od held onto.
For this one... I am perfectly imperfect.
I deserve him.
I love him.. he loves me.
We are meant to be.
Sorry for your loss.
But you'll regret losing me.
I promise.
Love,
Nameless.
A rat catcher she would be
she smelt rodents from miles away
a female counterpart
with a body made of canvas
painting you on her mind

She will catch you and eat you
tear your limbs to bits
kitties claws are full of venom
all for the taste of you
she is the rat catcher

Her black fur and amber eyes
all rodents she does dispise
her **** does sting with rats blood
she is one hell of a killer
my sweet rat catcher

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
DAVID Oct 2015
i watch obsenity,
lascivious acts,
looking for normality,

the spoted back, the traps
are everiwhere, and
*** is inspiring, i aspire to
normality, an afective life

healing mi heart, and accept
the *******, of relations, and feel
normal, all live'd theyr lives,
mine was stolen, for some creep old *******,
just the need, of feeling normal, accept the pain

as a normal man, or trie to feel as one,
is the gold of watching *** on the phone net,
the search of normality, despice the eyes y adore
and the highnes of loving someone, up there,

and every once a year or so, there is this look
in front of me, loving me in secret, understanding,
silent and sweet, all the rest if stupidity, and wounds
of a child arrased for the creeps, and their need of posses
someone, they don't understand, or love, is just obsession.

even so, the spots in my back, are clean,
my sanity too, so sometimes watching ****,
is just looking for normality, and wash away the pain,
of carry the creep in my ears. still inside my ears,
talking to me, and never letting go.

as whympy woman, or a souless creep,
but never get to me, **** in the window,
remainds me, how creepy and stupid they are.

and me, i m feeling more normal every day,
my heart is operative, and ready to live, dispise
the creep. i am a free man, alive and clean,
my soul is good, my heart is pumping, and i am,
very normal and *****, indeed.
Red Fox Jan 2014
I'm so tired of living a life of darkness
I can't see the light and I'm suffocating
I'm drowning, I'm drowning in my sorrow
I can't breath, I can't breath, I can't breath
I can't continue on, this is killing me
The poison prevents me from breaking free
Depression is blinding, I can not see
Help me, please help me, please help me
I wanna wake up and feel the sun
I wanna wake up and feel like someone
I wanna wake up and love my life
And not dispise who I am
I found a way to do it but it's not they simple
I fear the fear of living and losing my people
I can't let it go, it's all that I know
Take my hand, lift me up and say
Tomorrows a brand new day
It's time I change my ways
I'll put a smile on my face
I am not just a waste of space
My dear friends, dry your eyes
You know the reason, the reason why
I've got to go and say goodbye
When you wanna wake up and feel the sun
If you wanna smile because you're someone
When you can let all of it go, all that you know
I'll take your hand, lift you up and say
Tomorrows a brand new day
Tomorrow will be your day
Partial lyrics to a song I wrote the day I made a commitment to live a clean and sober life - over a year ago. The best decision I've ever made :)
JKela Smith Jul 2011
The happiness of others is what I used to desire.
Leaving my unattended needs there to rot,
like this cycle of life that never was returned to.
Being so into pleasing rather than being pleased,
is where my mind left at ease.
Gracefully strolling through life on the outside.
Hiding the pain and lies of my dispise aside .
On a forbidden road my mind placed itself.
Engraved its roots and sprouted something that grew to make me uneasy.
Shaky with the wind and the pollutants that floated through the air.
I didn't care.
As long as I was somewhere, where I thought where I belonged.
Forgetting what's important and necessary.
My heart and soul combined making me choose what to believe and what to leave behind.
My mind formed a world of confusion .
Leaving me to find myself in a place that wasn't clear.
My reality and dreams morphed.
Seeing the darkness of the roots squeezing through.
I cut that unhealthy being of life my mind planted .
Cleared all negative energy and created a new path for myself.
Finding my happiness and clearing my mind of unnecessary seeds.
M Dec 2014
If I had to explain it I'd say my world of words prefers to rhyme.
It likes to speed up, until you catch up,
and then take up your time.
It likes to play games and roll around in the grass like a child;
use its imagination to keep things fresh, tasty, and wild.
My words like to cuss and be rude,
spend days lying on the couch
drunk, shameless, and ****.
They dispise being alphabetized and disrespect being ordered around;
like a high school kid being sensitized,
and in so doing being ostracized,
being pushed out forcefully by the system.
My words have rules and they love to resist them.
Often turning into words of insistence and criticism,
my words should be locked up,
but they're usually dressed up
in something they're not,
put in a strait jacket and forgotten in a prison because they've been caught.
People think I need to watch what I say but I'd rather not.
I want my words to stay in your head for days till they're the only thoughts
you've got.
Elvis okumu May 2012
Within that dark tempest
Where gravity pulls you down
Deeply into that darkness
Will you ever be found,  never

You can  try to climb out  
You try to make a sound
but unheard will go your shouts  
However hard your fists pound

Where to turn where to go  
What to do, whats the move
How could have you ever known  
None of the signs were ever shown

And now you fall, into that blackness
Fading away from the loving eyes
dieing away, from every likeness
All hope is lost, this world you dispise

Then resigned to your fate
Hunger is sated, a ray of light
A glorious sight, now you fight
Tendrils grasping, holding too late

Break the surface, shower in that light
Flying higher than a kite
Another day you live to fight
there is hope after all that is the light.
Trenton Idom May 2016
I wish we were still friends
Now all we do is dispise
Our love was bulid so high
Now all i see is lies
I miss your touch your care and your sweaty hands
All i have to say now is this didnt go as planned
I was young and stupid and wreckless
And my love you wore as a necklace
And i was for you as you were for me
Our love was ******* helpless
Ill never forget your name and your number is burnt in head
Id love to call you and chat
But now our love is dead
This isnt how id pictured us now
never to speak the name
but if love is made for two
Then both of us are to blame.
The very people and principles that we the American people dispise, we now allow to run this country.  It's time for the American people to rise up and make a change!!!
Coleseph Nelzsun Dec 2015
What you had, provided stability
What you had also caused countless moments of toil, discomfort, and an overall sense of stagnation
What you had, threw you to the side
Rejected; no need for you there anymore
Well if they don't need you
You don't need them
You weren't growing anyways
You were stagnant
And deep down you will always dispise mediocrity
In you or in anyone else
So reject it before it rejects you
Save your time and your dignity for the people and pursuits that are worthy of it.
nick leduc Jun 2015
I curve my day to the end
I curve my life to make the ones i have happy
I curve my wrist to keep the job im barly getting paid to do

This world is filled with turns just like the jedi minds of the hommies that have fallen .. people who show disrespect .. ill just sit and dispise your ******* twitted *** as you sit and slang abit of coke .. i poke to see what your condition is .. just before i set out my dreams of making you croke like a toad .. and look out on the streets and just realize its a mass hyptnosis .. and pleed for help because the ones who say they run our lives .. are just as crooked as the ones who made them
Beth Decisions May 2015
Today was such a great day.
Today was my birthday.
I normally dispise this day.
I find birthdays idiotic.
Why submit people into categories of age.
When the mind is an age different from the body.
Though today was different.
For the first time in years I loved this day.
I haven't smiled in so long, my face aches.
I spent the day running around with friends,
Swimming,
Laughing,
Loving the time together.
Today was a great day.
I'm truthfully amazed.
DC raw love Aug 2015
How does one actually get into one's heart....
How does one know actually where to start.....

Could it be from the look in one's eyes.....
Could it be from the words of no dispise....

Does it start by the looks of one.....
Does it start by the words of one...

Will it happen by the luck of the draw....
Will it happen through *** and desire.....

Do you look into a person's past.....
Do you look into a person's future....

Has games been played that makes you afraid....
Has drama been there that will cause you to stray.....

Life is funny and pretty much predictable.....
Life can be lonely at times, yet sustainable....

Is it the choice of the matter....
Is it the matter of the choice....

When does one find the heart they want....
When does one give up their heart to another.....
LOOK UP
LOOK DOWN
LOOK ALL AROUND.

TO LOOK BACK
TO LOOK FORWARD
TO LOOK AHEAD.

THE LOOK
IN YOUR
EYE.

THE LOOK
WHEN YOU
SAID.

THE LOOK
YOU GAVE
TO ME.

THE /THAT LOOK
THAT I’LL
KEEP IN
MY HEART
FOREVER.

THAT LOOK
THAT WILL STAY
WITH ME
FOREVER.

WILL BE
THE LOOK
THAT I’LL REMEMBER...
BUT HOPEFULLY
ALSO BE
THE LOOK
I'LL SOMEDAY
FORGET.

THE LOOK
OF DISAPPOINTMENT
THE LOOK
OF SADNESS
THE LOOK
OF ANGER
THE LOOK
OF DISPISE.

THE LOOK
OF RELIEF
FROM
THE PAIN.

THE LOOK
OF JOY
THE LOOK
OF EXCITEMENT.
THAT LOOK
OF HAPPINESS
THAT LOOK
OF APPROVAL.

THE LOOK
OF PURE
LOVE FROM
YOU
YOUR HEART.

THAT LOOK
ONLY
FROM
YOU.

-LOOK
(C) By HF-Whisper
29/01/2021 2:56PM
Tenaj Lee Taylor Oct 2015
I've been found out.
I have been discovered,
I can't hide anymore.
I can't stick to the shadows like I've always done.
They know the real side of me.
The side which can't stand people.
The side that wants to hurt.
I can't go back into hiding.
Now like it has always been,
I will be thrown away.
Thrown away like a rag doll.
Thrown away like the piece of trash I am.
I can't keep the happy go lucky act going.
Everyone will hate me.
They'll dispise me.
I hate this,
I don't want to live in this world.
I want to go to sleep and just keep dreaming.
I've never been accepted.
And I will continue to never be accepted.
The devil on my shoulder says to cut.
The angel says nothing.
The devil says to punch.
The angel says nothing.
The devil says to go to sleep and hope to never wake up.
The angel says nothing.
The tears continue to flow down my cheeks as I continue to hate the world I live in.
Yes I've been spoiled.
Yes I love my family.
But thats not enough.
The love they give isn't worth it.
The thought of reverting back to drugs to forget the feelings sway back into my head.
The thought darkens the last light.
I'm gone.
I...
Can't Hide Anymore.
Creepstar Apr 2016
Black eyes
Lose ties
I dispise
My demise

Its high time
That I mime
That I'm fine
While I'm dying

I won't leave you there
Bare
Pulling out hair
With a cold stare

So I'll say
For today I'll stay
I'll play
You can have it your way
crazytilde Nov 2014
Me
Fire in my soul
Death in my eyes
My enemy is me
This I dispise

You keep me on the edge
You hold me there
You don't let me fall
I know that you care
To my saver
CJ Sutherland Jan 2021
This is the hardest thing
For me to say
Harder still to have gone through
The Whole ordeal

I have COPD on oxygen
Walk with a cane
surgery set my 2nd total knee replacement

DOMESTIC ABUSE
Physical violence
Elderly abuse   
It happens to others
not me

My ***** secret
Of blame and shame
It’s my fault
if I wouldn’t have
done this or that
It wouldn’t have happened
If only

I  deserved it
Why is the negative stuff
easier to believe

My adult daughter
My only child
Love of my life
Hit me,hurt me
Beat me up
She went for my lungs punching
My knee so I couldn’t walk

Cold and calculated then because
Inadvertently scratched her
Trying to get her off of my chest
I couldn’t breath

Stunned by the scratch
She went to see what I had done
Came out with a curling iron
Beat me with it until the
medal Part broke off
on my legs and knees

She Calling the police because she had a mark
I begged her to put the phone down
I told her "you don’t think I have marks"
She wanted me to suffer in jail
With no medications

Subsequently she was arrested
Assalt with a weapon
In the end
She will blame It all on me
I’m Still trying to wrap my head
Around what happened

I’m stunned
To see  deep dark hatred
In the eyes

Of my only child
My loved one
Hatred me enough to
Get on top of me punching me
In my chest
I couldn’t breath

I have cuts and bruises  
That will fade
But most importantly
Harder still is the realization
I am not safe
around her
I’m so devastated

After reflection, contemplation
I believe
It’s stems from money
I received an inheritance
She thinks , She is entitled

When money was no longer
Forthcoming
Anger,hatred was unleashed
From the pit of hell

The flood of other events
Of bullying ,aggressive behavior
Verbal and physical
Her whole life
Came to mind

I blocked it all out
Until it was pointed out to me
I have to accept
My part in all this
I let her escape the consequences of her youth
I created a monster
With my good intentions
No one is perfect
Children do not come with an instruction manual

That being said
I did not raise her to be disrespectful
To lie,cheer, steel
Break the Ten Commandments

Although she lives a few hours away
I’m still afraid
I hate feeling helpless, weak

I dream she is
Standing over me
With a knife
Wanting to **** me

Then I wake up
I’m not coping
I need help

I’m morning the loss of
my only child
Who grew willful and wild
I can NEVER be safe around her

This realization
Has me in effect
Morning the loss
of our Relationship
Of my only child

The grandchildren
Have been a part of my life
A third parent at times
I have very strong connections
With each of them

I will not
Let her use them as pons
In her games
Hostages against me
It stops now

Her  jealousy
Loathing, dispise of me
Has only deepened through her life
I’m the reason for every bad thing that happens
No matter if I’m around or not
I love my daughter with every bit of my heart
Money the root of all evil
always walking on eggshells
Beth Decisions Sep 2016
For the first time I feel at peace within my own mind and it's a beautiful feeling.
I have rid myself of the pieces I dispise.
Embraced the positives I hold.
Learned how to love the parts I've never understood.
The love I hold for the universe is raw and pure.
The passion I have for art is unique and bold.
The smile my face has developed is beautiful and real.
The anger I showed for so long is fading away.
While happiness and sanity is taking its place.
I'm falling in love with the girl I've always dreamed to be.
I truly have begun to finally feel like the girl everyone has always seen in me.
Christa Marlene May 2016
You look into my eyes, terrified as you watch me get pulled away from you,
  they're too strong, powerful, unforgiving,
they pull me away faster,  "goodbye my love," I whisper as you fall on your knees, afraid and vulnerable.
  I can never see you again,
  I can't let this happen to you again.
  You've been fighting your demons for so long but now I see,
  I am your demon, the one you dispise, fear, loathe
  I jolt awake to see you in my arms.
  I slip away without waking you, into the night
  I can't hurt you anymore, I can't keep doing this to you, I run away from everything,
  I thought I knew. Everything that was once familiar
  knowing that I will never come back, knowing that I can't.
  I'm running, I'm lost
  I cross the street and I feel a sharp pain, home,
  the last thing that I will ever know. I look up  to see a bright light, NO!
  the light goes dim and I'm falling down into the darkness, then I realize,
  this is where I belong.
Alexandra Jan 2019
She trusted you, her parents trusted you, taking away their little girl in order to let her chase her dreams.
Trusting you with her life, her future and her happiness.
You promised love, you promised a life free from abuse, you promised acceptance, but you didn't deliver.
Instead she recieved aggression, hatred, more fear and anxiety than she could imagine.
It was nit picking to start with, just the little things. Judging her appearance, mocking her, ensuring she was small, vulnerable enough for you.
You succeeded, she felt small, vulnerable, she was struggling. Hurting so badly inside that cracks were beginning to form, she was making attempts to numb the pain with unspeakable things but you didn't care.
All this whilst being so blinded by love that the pain didn't matter all that mattered was the boy, a perfect boy from a family of monstrous people.
She couldn't take it anything more, she broke and you threw her to the streets alone and frightened, a child in a strange city where the people who had promised so much hadn't come through.

The words you screamed cut so deep. I dispise that girl, its the girl or us, the girl has ruined this family, I swear to god I will get rid of that girl. That girl can go die.
Those words crushed her ever so little ball of self respect, acceptance in herself, along with all of her happiness into a million peices that could never be picked back up.
She left her family and her friends to come to into this strange world, relationships were broken that can never be fixed.
She can never forgive you, it's to painful.
I will never forgive you.
Sebastian Hale Mar 2018
If you tell me the truth
I'll give you my heart,
On a white plate with a rose.

If you open the gates, I'll walk on through.
If you roll with the punches,
I'll not punish you.
If you hate who you are,
You'll make me hate you too.

A sea never in rest,
Uneasy with her sweet sweat,
Invisible salt in a soft distress.
One small caress and you start to eat,
My heart one bite at a time.
White cracks fill with tears and whine.
Not mine, Goodbye, goodbye,
Goodbye, goodbye not mein.

A tool in the belt,
Of a man who's never felt,
The touch of love on the soul.
Do you believe you are powerless to act?
To change how comfortably you sit,
In the depths of that dark, whole?  

Where I am you cannot see,
Behind a fence you let me be.
A buzzing sensation, a trip too far gone.
I wish we would build a bridge
And not a dam and Let our river flow.
If I was loved as much as I love you
Then maybe we could be one again.
You only have to take a step,
I'll take one too,
Because I truly love you.

You're beauty comes from within,
Our love is even deeper.
When I lift you up to be close,
Your legs around me.
I remember how we laughed and played,
until our bed decayed,
Not mine, Goodbye, goodbye.
Goodbye, goodbye, not mine.

I sit so still the grey of day dims
The dusk a true reveal.
My thoughts of you tie me in place
And makes my bed forever made.
If only you chose back then,
To sleep, to stare into my eyes.
Your look an eternal disguise
As your love could  only reveal
How small I felt inside.

You give me a shard and I'll build us a mirror,
To watch our love rekindle in.
Be mine, my love, be mine,
I want you all the time.

Blond straws and paper hide,
The blue eyed beauty I'd always find.
But no it was not true
her beauty found that love was glue.
To mask her foe disguised,
A river of sweet dispise.

please believe,
All parts of you'll be free,
With me,
With me,
Be free.
Perhaps one day we'll fly once more,
If not goodbye goodbye my love,
A roaring lion survives.
kathryntheperson Dec 2019
The sound of passion
ones that spark,
the ones who light fires In your heart
the heat of bodies
together as one
those burning orbs that stare and dispise
The fire eyes that sink deep,
seep tears, and cry.
I wrote this poem in like 30 seconds
Ryan O'Leary Jul 2022
If I liked animals

i’d eat them

yet, if I ate them

I would not like

to meet them

but if I were not

to meet them I

would need to

avoid them and

to avoid them

I would need to

live where I would

not see them

but I am a vegetarian

though not because

I dispise them it is

because I don't

like the dead ones

and that is why

I am in the country

because there are

no butcher shops

and though all the

animals I meet are

meat they are not

able to distinguish

herbivores from

carnivores which

means I in their

eyes am as big

a ******* as all

the other mammal

munching mongrels.
aldo kraas May 2021
I hate every one
That is rich
Because they
Dispise all the poor people
Also they work too much
And they are the slave of
There money
Me and my friends
Only have poor friends
In our lives
And we also have
A simple life to live
That life we live
Every single day
And we just love it

— The End —