anais-mostly - Hello Poetry

The men I date The places I live a song I humm don't know the lyrics to I forgot where I heard it You say give it up and come to me I say yes but I can't leave Is it my pride Is it because you're too close to a young child's daydream All you see Is pretty And good enough for me I need a place to hide And that isn't in these mottos that were forced on me Friends and colleagues saying the same **** thing There will always be you and me In a sound In a smell In a new woman to pull the trigger You're a liar, You can't hate me

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Mar 11, 2014

Mar 11, 2014 at 2:39 AM UTC

anais-mostly

Untitled

The men I date The places I live a song I humm don't know the lyrics to I forgot where I heard it You say give it up and come to me I say yes but I can't leave Is it my pride Is it because you're too close to a young child's daydream All you see Is pretty And good enough for me I need a place to hide And that isn't in these mottos that were forced on me Friends and colleagues saying the same **** thing There will always be you and me In a sound In a smell In a new woman to pull the trigger You're a liar, You can't hate me

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I hear the faucet dripping and the mechanics of the blue collar work trucks Intervals of silence and speeding spinning tires and old brake pads ***** and worn slip resistant boots Soot and divided revisions Under eye circles unaware of the cycle Botched circadian rhythms Allegorical authority in my observations of worn hands and steel temperaments Toast it with a beer can at 8am and proclaim I am the one who is teetering towards them But we are them The grown ups in the grind We ******* grew up my friend and time applies to you and me Are you who you thought you would be? You are the complacent adult The enemy of dreams

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Jan 24, 2014

Jan 24, 2014 at 6:37 AM UTC

anais-mostly

Enemy of dreams

I hear the faucet dripping and the mechanics of the blue collar work trucks Intervals of silence and speeding spinning tires and old brake pads ***** and worn slip resistant boots Soot and divided revisions Under eye circles unaware of the cycle Botched circadian rhythms Allegorical authority in my observations of worn hands and steel temperaments Toast it with a beer can at 8am and proclaim I am the one who is teetering towards them But we are them The grown ups in the grind We ******* grew up my friend and time applies to you and me Are you who you thought you would be? You are the complacent adult The enemy of dreams

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Secrets we share Because we like the Cohen brothers Love Torchys tacos Because people gossip but don't care When your mom dies I'll help you clean her house I'll drop everything and come down to be with you I'd leave my life now but then I'd have no stories to tell you Remember in the summer when we would steal swims in random apartment complex pools Texas sunsets Bright and fading Just like you and me We had to skip town again All these courses for you in grad school All these cities for me to rethink Sometimes I'm fatigued and my mind and heart can't settle on a single person or thing Palpable memories Remember getting high and listening to fugazi Just like you and me

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Jan 12, 2014

Jan 12, 2014 at 12:37 AM UTC

anais-mostly

You and me

Secrets we share Because we like the Cohen brothers Love Torchys tacos Because people gossip but don't care When your mom dies I'll help you clean her house I'll drop everything and come down to be with you I'd leave my life now but then I'd have no stories to tell you Remember in the summer when we would steal swims in random apartment complex pools Texas sunsets Bright and fading Just like you and me We had to skip town again All these courses for you in grad school All these cities for me to rethink Sometimes I'm fatigued and my mind and heart can't settle on a single person or thing Palpable memories Remember getting high and listening to fugazi Just like you and me

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There better be an ashtray at the end of this rainbow The record is spinning static Room key has your name left with it The bayou chattering like the immigrants tray full of ***** wine glasses Nobody is coming for you Turn out the lights I warned you Even crying babies have to say goodnight The hallway lights start to flicker My feet no longer touch the ground I wander out into the empty twilight cooridors where lowly Cajun girls were found Nobody is coming for you The water splashes room numbers throughout the hallway I can't remember which floor I'll find you My number is up anyway

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Jan 10, 2014

Jan 10, 2014 at 6:52 AM UTC

anais-mostly

***** south hotel

There better be an ashtray at the end of this rainbow The record is spinning static Room key has your name left with it The bayou chattering like the immigrants tray full of ***** wine glasses Nobody is coming for you Turn out the lights I warned you Even crying babies have to say goodnight The hallway lights start to flicker My feet no longer touch the ground I wander out into the empty twilight cooridors where lowly Cajun girls were found Nobody is coming for you The water splashes room numbers throughout the hallway I can't remember which floor I'll find you My number is up anyway

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Run to catch the train Porous metal sound grinding Needle drops The strings creep tunnel wind sweeps like the first note of the symphony Sonic upheaval Your subway trash Spending all this cash Submersible weasel I'm out of breath My cheeks are red I look like I'm 25 You're looking at my phone Convinced I lied My bag is checked I'm on the next plane I say I'll be back But what if I never see you again How angry would you be How hard did you fall Racing through the turn stiles Gotta make last call I dropped my gloves in the pub All the mementos you keep in your closet in a corner on the floor All this upheaval Your memorabilia People are just people You collect them like a hamster like there will never be more

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Dec 31, 2013

Dec 31, 2013 at 5:36 AM UTC

anais-mostly

Upheaval

Run to catch the train Porous metal sound grinding Needle drops The strings creep tunnel wind sweeps like the first note of the symphony Sonic upheaval Your subway trash Spending all this cash Submersible weasel I'm out of breath My cheeks are red I look like I'm 25 You're looking at my phone Convinced I lied My bag is checked I'm on the next plane I say I'll be back But what if I never see you again How angry would you be How hard did you fall Racing through the turn stiles Gotta make last call I dropped my gloves in the pub All the mementos you keep in your closet in a corner on the floor All this upheaval Your memorabilia People are just people You collect them like a hamster like there will never be more

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Darling Caress my burdens Watch me float away like the smoke from the cigarette you just bummed from the trumpet player My wit will dissolve with the tidal wave of dopamine Your friends laugh at my jokes Later tonight you'll see another side of me I'm really tired And your eyes are cloudy I'm apprehensive because you're being so nice to me I really loved the picture in front of the tree I really loved how you got down on one knee My smile closes like a heavy velvet curtain My eyes are the ticket stubs of something certain Darling Help me manage my burdens

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Dec 27, 2013

Dec 27, 2013 at 9:28 AM UTC

anais-mostly

Swizzle stick starlet

Darling Caress my burdens Watch me float away like the smoke from the cigarette you just bummed from the trumpet player My wit will dissolve with the tidal wave of dopamine Your friends laugh at my jokes Later tonight you'll see another side of me I'm really tired And your eyes are cloudy I'm apprehensive because you're being so nice to me I really loved the picture in front of the tree I really loved how you got down on one knee My smile closes like a heavy velvet curtain My eyes are the ticket stubs of something certain Darling Help me manage my burdens

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Speak easy to me Set me up at Sutton's Bar tender's chipping ice and watching the foam rise to the top is something Stand close to me You always tell me I'm pretty Let's head to a diner I've had too much to drink and I'm being ****** I've had this cough for weeks I've had this smile since we met My body has been run ragged And my heart is outside of my chest And I always have secrets And I always have my romantic greed I don't care about money that's why I haven't got any, but I need love that bleeds

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Dec 27, 2013

Dec 27, 2013 at 9:08 AM UTC

anais-mostly

Speak easy

Speak easy to me Set me up at Sutton's Bar tender's chipping ice and watching the foam rise to the top is something Stand close to me You always tell me I'm pretty Let's head to a diner I've had too much to drink and I'm being ****** I've had this cough for weeks I've had this smile since we met My body has been run ragged And my heart is outside of my chest And I always have secrets And I always have my romantic greed I don't care about money that's why I haven't got any, but I need love that bleeds

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I take you down Recommended daily dose The controversy stands Friends and family say nothing now I avoid their eyes because all I see is they know I've been unhappy now for years but didn't give up hope that if you're loyal even after massive **** ups together as a couple you can grow They just don't tell you that you could grow into anything and not what you hope I've been on the road awhile Hardly see you these days Even when I was around I barely saw you after I moved out Silly me, not much has changed I didn't mean to, but I met a guy He is everything you use to be to me but better and incredibly kind He said he wants to marry me and I want that too But how am I going to tell you You're self absorbed I worry about you I think you thought I would never really leave How am I going to tell you That I'll always love you But I'm no longer your Eve

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Dec 21, 2013

Dec 21, 2013 at 12:21 PM UTC

anais-mostly

Your Eve

I take you down Recommended daily dose The controversy stands Friends and family say nothing now I avoid their eyes because all I see is they know I've been unhappy now for years but didn't give up hope that if you're loyal even after massive **** ups together as a couple you can grow They just don't tell you that you could grow into anything and not what you hope I've been on the road awhile Hardly see you these days Even when I was around I barely saw you after I moved out Silly me, not much has changed I didn't mean to, but I met a guy He is everything you use to be to me but better and incredibly kind He said he wants to marry me and I want that too But how am I going to tell you You're self absorbed I worry about you I think you thought I would never really leave How am I going to tell you That I'll always love you But I'm no longer your Eve

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I had gotten use to being lonely He was like I god I couldn't feel or see Lost between the lines of doctrines never meant to be understood but only for people to pretend to read I felt my heart get heavy like a water balloon Get set Get ready I'll be lighter than your empty hands soon He said marry me I smiled skeptically He ran down the staircase He moved me across states We woke up early in the morning He promised me all of himself and all the love we would make

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Dec 13, 2013

Dec 13, 2013 at 5:33 AM UTC

anais-mostly

.....

I had gotten use to being lonely He was like I god I couldn't feel or see Lost between the lines of doctrines never meant to be understood but only for people to pretend to read I felt my heart get heavy like a water balloon Get set Get ready I'll be lighter than your empty hands soon He said marry me I smiled skeptically He ran down the staircase He moved me across states We woke up early in the morning He promised me all of himself and all the love we would make

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You've got a palpable penchant for being a legend And guilt will start planning my grave Rock n roll An article to fit the cover and first page You want a ****** poster already Battered comedians wearing stripper glitter, marching to an imagined white powder cathedral You wanted the life You wanted fame for a wife A seedy hotel managed by mold and off brand gelatin Shut the **** up Instability is what the limelight is selling Shut the **** up and save me Behind social media The secrets no one knows The love that's shared by the hands that daddy issues uphold The wreck-less sacrifices of greedy needs Please hide our endless affection from a callous coliseum consumed public and save me

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Oct 22, 2013

Oct 22, 2013 at 1:58 AM UTC

anais-mostly

The genius supporter

You've got a palpable penchant for being a legend And guilt will start planning my grave Rock n roll An article to fit the cover and first page You want a ****** poster already Battered comedians wearing stripper glitter, marching to an imagined white powder cathedral You wanted the life You wanted fame for a wife A seedy hotel managed by mold and off brand gelatin Shut the **** up Instability is what the limelight is selling Shut the **** up and save me Behind social media The secrets no one knows The love that's shared by the hands that daddy issues uphold The wreck-less sacrifices of greedy needs Please hide our endless affection from a callous coliseum consumed public and save me

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