"devan" poems
I wrote a loveletter to my ghost
I hope this finds you fine
Don't brush me off yet
I hope you kept that smile
The scars that grazed past my skin
They were my momentos
Hover over my loved ones
Be a guardian Angel
And when they ask about me
Or their hearts shatter
Because of our memories
Remind them to hang on
The good times
Make the lights flicker
Or shake the granny clock
On our chipped wall in the living room
That's the language of the ghosts
Ain't it?
©Cathy Devan
Ig rogue lover
Oct 14, 2021
Oct 14, 2021 at 3:49 AM UTC
She wishes she was a cave,
So she could echo back,
Her poetry,
On paper,
Or maybe leprechaun,
Could summon her writer spirit,
And she would bleed,
On paper,
Like before,
When she felt weightless,
Like paper,
And free like the wind.
©Cathy Devan
Jul 17, 2021
Jul 17, 2021 at 3:40 PM UTC
He's dead now... Its been three years two months.
Shot gun blast to the throat.
My heart aches but not for him.
It was never for him...
He was a urchen, a scoundrel, a bad person in all.
Sure he didn't deserve to die but it wasn't all Logan's fault.
Devan was Robbing them, and he had a past
Of abuse in relationships and grudes that would last.
Logan was dealing, trying to make a living.
It was december I'm sure they were all shivering.
100$ Devan tried to take, He pulled out a gun
But it was fake. What he didnt know was that logan had one.
and his wasn't just for fun.
Logan had a sawed off shot gun ready to shoot.
and when devan played games he fell off his boots.
Pow, Blast to the throat. He would have survived but his friends were all goats. They dumped on the road.
left him to choke.
HE drown in his own blood
Logans been gone, in prison for 3 years and 2 months.
I miss him when i think of him, and that is a bunch.
I write him and i love him and I wish he never did it.
He has nightmares about it and he will never forget it..
Or forgive himself.
Even though he knows devan brought it on himself
Logan suffers for devans mother, and his brother and his father.
Logan suffers,
Logan thinks.
He remembers the gun powder stink.
Logan remembers and he suffers every day. They were 18
Feb 26, 2017
Feb 26, 2017 at 2:35 PM UTC
Inspired by Devan Ducasse, fellow HP writer
"You're upset, I can tell,
You know I'll never hurt you, right?
Just stop crying."
He says
And I stopped crying.
"I hate always fighting with you,
It's my fault babe,
Why don't you just apologize."
He says
And I apologized.
"We need to stop having ***
I want to focus on you,
Take off your clothes, bad girl."
He says
And I let him take off my clothes.
"We spend too much time on our phones,
I'm sorry I don't make you a priority,
It's nothing babe, get off my case."
He says
And I believed him.
"I need to do more for you,
Would you like red or pink roses,
Go buy your own **** flowers."
He says
And I did.
"I'm going out with the guys,
I promise to stay out of trouble,
I'm not drunk, *****
He says
And I didn't say a word.
"I should compliment you more,
You're the most beautiful girl in the world,
Wow, that chick has to be a model."
He says
And I didn't state my opinion.
"I can be your shoulder to cry on,
What's wrong with my baby girl,
I swear I'm listening."
He says
But I know he isn't.
"I love you for your heart,
Your personality is what caught my eye,
Your body is mine."
He says
And I didn't disagree.
"I want to give you the world,
You do so much for me darling,
You're so selfish."
He says
And I tried harder.
"I hate my family,
You're the only one who understands me,
I will never let you help me."
He says
And he never did.
"You never give up on me,
I know I'm really hard on you,
How could you just stop trying."
He says
But I never did stop.
"Please don't ever leave me,
I couldn't do life without you,
Just leave."
He says.
And so I did.
"I made a huge mistake,
I need you in my life,
If you love me, come back."
He says
And so I walked away.
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 11:34 PM UTC