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moziq Aug 2017
Momma said to never cry over spilt milk and broken cookies but, she never said anything about a broken heart.
Its just as hard to pick up the tiny shatters and unlike crumbs they are not carpet cleanable, they stay, stain, and burn a hole through the very floor of your soul.
I was told when I was young that nobody can hear the pop of a breaking heart-string so you have to make sure it is never hurt;
But I'm sorry mommy its all my fault! I left it out and exposed and just when I thought it was safe it wasn't!
Not just one string it was all,
I broke my love instrument and now I don't think I can love only fall.
At least not without a new heart for mine is not repairable, no longer even a damaged good but more like a scenario,
of what could have been before everything that was solid ground started quaking, and rearranging itself to fit the profile of that of a being with no other outcome except lonely defeat,
and even though we've been running the long mile,
hope just seems to be the horizon beyond our reach.
Jesus Johnson Feb 2017
Words of molten lava burst through my head as if it's the earth's crust.
I am angry today.
And long past the self pity of my own depression and moved to a stage of allowing the bullets to burn into my skull red hot.
The smell of gasoline and lighter fluid fill my nostrils as I stand watching my feelings and emotional connections to life go aflame until they are no more than small embers in the black soot filled in my heart.
Hatred takes over as I am a marionette for the devil as he pulls my strings allowing me to dance blindly, succumbing to his diabolical quests ruining my stature of being a human being.
Can you tell I'm troubled?
I shake with rage, finding myself curious of why I am so angry only to allow my curiosity to feed the flame of my madness.
Madness as in both my insanity and my rage.
I am a ticking time bomb waiting to explode.
Waiting to fill the world with black.
Waiting to leave a stain on this earth that is not cleanable.
Waiting to leave a message bigger than the memorandums I write to myself to not **** anyone or myself today.
Oh how I will hate myself when I am in a good mindset and regret these words.
But these are the words that are true that lie under the surface of a smiling face.
A facade long worn out, now faded and cracked.
A bonfire lights inside me as my blood boils, skin melting off until I burst into a ball of flames.
Destroy. Destroy. Destroy. Destroy. Destroy.
My patience has long since run out and I am hurting.
I cry out loud and people just walk past.
I hate you. All of you.
I originally only wished to help and feel your pain in understanding of your trials for connecting with you through empathy and sympathy.
Now I just want you to hurt.
You just allow me to hurt and watch me self destruct, an innocent bystander who meant no harm.
Our world is selfish and people will always have their self interest at first.
I have lost my mind.
My world is burning around me.
Nothing is left.
I need mental help. Excuse my anger.
ryan parrington Oct 2016
I would sit and relax but
I have to watch time fly
Are mess is cleanable
Hurt but still desire
Lust is not love
But having love does not truly mean your in love
I can't help but see
And it's all not good
In time we grow old
And knowing this
And knowing that
Are two different things
I truly be leave I will go older alone
I can not fall in love anymore
It's just disappointing
And I refuse to go threw it
My mess can be cleaned
And I will try and help
Anyone who needs it
The last girl I really wanted a good relationship with
Took the last peace of my heart
And I would definitely stick by her side
But she is done with me so I am done with dating
Only in time only in time
I will not look I will not search
I try my best when it can to relationships  
But now to me it just don't matter anymore
I live my life a single soul

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