I’m drowning
I wanted to let myself drown.
The appearence gave me peace
As if it can hold all my burdens.
So I permit it’s eternity to swallow me
But the water,
It didn’t let me drown.
It tried to lift me everytime I tried
With it’s unbearable force
I’m floating through
I looked up as I float.
There was a bright sunshine
That cathced my attention by force
Sunshine that looked like a truth, a virtue
That I felt obligated to reach without intending.
They say brightness is a reflection of virtue,
And the water lifted me up to it as if it is true
As if it’s a need, an obligation.
That powerful spirit of water balanced me
Balanced me through the brightness and the darkness of eternity
The darkness that comes from beneath
And it’s at least catchy as the brightness.
It captured my ankle and pulled me
Like an invitation to it’s charming obscurity.
I wanted to be lost in it
If I could just manage
I would let myself into the darkness beneath
Far from obligations or the needs,
I’d let myself into the hands of my drives
They say darkness reflects instincts and drives
But still, the water balances me.
As I hold my breath and be filled with air
It lifts me to the surface where the light comes.
As my breath goes away and I manage to let myself
It also lets me down to the hands of the darkness.
I’m drowning in the depths of the water
I’m drowning between my moral and my drive.