I feel so numb since i got the news that Friday morning. I dont know how to tell you everything that i want to. Without feeling so bad or sounding selfish. It seems like since you were taking away all the good was too. The bond that we share could never be broken.
Why did you have to leave so soon? Why did you have to go so young? Why did you have to leave us knowing we needed you?
I know you are in a better place. Its always going to hurt to carry on with out you. How do i breathe without it hurting so much? Give me the strength my angel to curry on. Light my way for me as i hold on to every memory we share. Any road i take i know that it will lead me HOME. Any path i roam on will lead me to you again. You will open up them golden gates for me and welcome me HOME. Sometimes cry at night. Just know im not crying because of you. Im crying for me. It makes me feel alive and human. Since you left us i felt so dead and numb.
Tell me... what do it look like in Heaven? Is it beautiful and free. Like uncle roger use to tell us? Can you do the things you love to do? When you were here on earth with us. Are you riding that four wheeler That we loved to ride. Do they have a mud hole you can go and have fun? We all know you loved to get muddy. Are you driving your dream truck? Is my grandfather there with you? So you arent alone.
Letting go isn’t that easy to do. I know i will get by. I know i will be okay. It just gets hard for me sometimes. Im getting use to not seeing you online. Im getting use to not seeing you post them statuses. That makes me ask if you are alright. Im even getting use to not receiving a message from you telling me “ you miss me and you need to see my face. so i need to come home and visit.”
There is a lot of things in this world that i can handle but losing you can not. It drives me crazy some days. If i could take your place i would in a heart beat. I will never get use to losing you so young.
ILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU MY ANGEL
TILL WE MEET AGAIN
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R.I.P MY ANGEL NATE BECKNER
