pinching, pull it
seeing and control it
mistaken and you're gone again on some stupid ******* tangent inside your head where you hate everything related to yourself, when hopelessness isn't at anyone's feet but yours to collect a name for blaming, you can't forget her ******* name and you say cliche **** like "life won't ever be the same" and then you stuff your face with warm-cold-anything and continue 'til you're old and wonder "where'd the time go?"