Hate
Pain
Love
Sorrow
Why do you have to do this to me?
You were the person who wasn't supposed to break me
You were supposed to always be there for me,
I loved you n I love you I'm so pathetic for doing so.
You broke me n I'm sure you're glad you did.
Does it help your ego to know that you're capable.
I'm so sick, I hate myself for actually trusting you with me.
Hate
Hate till there's nothing left.
No more feelings, no more pain, no more sorrow.
I'm so done. Hate till there's nothing left.
Good job, you made me trust in humanity again
Only to scar me deeper than I was before you.
I hope you realize what you put people through
I hope that one day, you'll come to know the pain, in the depths of your soul
Knowing that you reap what you ******* sow.
So eat the **** you fed so many
And be poisoned by the heartache you put so many through.
I never deserved this pain.
Now I know where you stand, I always knew it
But you covered up so it was ok
But to be so blatantly stabbed hurts more than you will ever know.
My demons are back, they will always come back
No matter how many time I **** them.
Nowadays in the pain I feel,
Their whispers of insanity are comforting.
With them it feels like I'm finally not alone.
My insanity is back on its spiral of descent.
Keep your painting, your canvas will again turn blank
But the face that once occupied will haunt you.
I hope it shreds all that you are.
I can't believe I wasted my ******* time on letting you close.
You warned me that you would break me but I thought
For once I was strong enough to survive the pain
But it turns out you were right and I was wrong.
Your promises turn to poison in my ear
Slowly acidically burning through me.
Melting what's left. I hate you and the pain you cause....
No I don't hate you, who am I kidding I love you but I hate myself for it.
The black is coming back and soon the scarlet will follow....
Oh wait the scarlet is already here decorating my darkness
Reminding me once again that insanity is the only sweet escape
From this life, this pain....hopefully I don't wake up again....
Hopefully those little white orbs hold a sweet rest for me.
Let the black consume me
Those scarlet lines making it so much more complete
You've broke me...
Hate....hate till there's nothing left
And as I cry I hope I never forget this pain
So I know better than to hope.
Oh sweet insanity
Oh loving darkness swallow me so I can once again join my demons.
Let me join them
And let not even death tear us apart.
Shred all humanity left in me
So this pain goes away
And make everything cease to exist.

I climb on a seafoam mattress, baby breath puke green and of the lyrics he scripts, they swim across your sea-like covers. He loves my lost mind as though the puzzle of me hummed to him as my thighs rode across his blanketed scene. I hated him and his laundry list of post-consumerism articles that he'd spout off one after the other. He checks me off like his last bought pair of socks and hung me from around his neck and so I bled like a wasted pen blemishes, down to the front seat of his pants. The stress of him rests in the nook of my shoulder blades and vibrates through to my chest. Blue dream and acidically-tinged hazes ripple against my reptilian skin and sheds me time and time again. I cannot grow old with you or young with you. We are alone an together, unmoving and polarizing. A few cool blue specks of light that never change but appear to mean to. We are in lust and stagnantly so, we will never grow. I climb on a sea of green and wade into the late night streamings, the abyss of you.

and so I bled like a wasted pen blemishes, down to the front seat of his pants. The stress of him rests in the nook of my shoulder blades and vibrates through to my chest. Blue dream and acidically-tinged hazes ripple against my reptilian skin and sheds me time and time again. I cannot grow old with you or young with you. We are alone an together, unmoving and polarizing. A few cool blue specks of light that never change but appear to mean to. We are in lust and stagnantly so, we will never grow. I climb on a sea of green and wade into the late night streamings, the abyss of you.