I don't know what I feel.
I'm not sure if i like you
I'm not sure about anything.

But i like the way we connect when we look eachother In the eyes for a few seconds , then suddenly turn around and act like we completley have nothing between us.

We say we have an attraction for eachother but if you ask me..I'm  probably the one to think about our old endless conversations on the phone.

I cant say I don't think about you a few times a day because I'd be lying If I said I didn't .

I wont neglect my attraction to you.
But please don't tell me you feel the same way my dearest Green Eyes, if your not going to put action into your sweet vulnerable words.

Don't leave me hanging on a thread..tell me what you feel and for once show it.

Why is it okay for someone to suddenly stop talking to you for a few months then come back with the most precious things to say and leave you all over again ?

You showed me things I never took into considerate
I loved the way you listened to my dramatic life problems
And was their for me when no one else was

I loved the way you showed me to love myself with all the flaws I have

You showed me to take important things serious

You told me I had potential..when everyone else gave me pessimistic thoughts .

I remenisce our memories.. even though what we had wasnt what I wanted.

I wanted more.

But you didn't .

And I understand if someone wanted you as bad as they say they do they would have taken you under their wing.

But he didn't .

And i guess I expected to much and received to little

But he showed me a different way of life .

He made me see things clearer.

Let me describe him but if i do please don't fall inlove .

He has beautiful Green eyes, their as green as the grass

And when he looks at me i can't help but smile , or freeze . Sometimes I don't know what to say.

He just takes my breath away.

He's tall

I would say about 5"7

His hands are strong and big..like baseball gloves

He acts differnt around people but with me he's as sweet as candy.

He has sugar lips. They have a beautiful form.

And If I ever got to taste them I would probably feel every butterfly fluttering around my stomach wanting more .

He has coffee caramel brown hair that he styles with gel

I can imagine him running his fingers through his hair

And me wondering how he has it so perfectly still.

He can be an ******* sometimes..but thats to reassure me hes supposed to be treated with respect.

He has a voice that will make my ear drums rumbble

When he walks in he makes girls heads spin

He has everyone attention

Which is why if you ever get to see him

You'll heart will drop

You'll feel such a rush

And maybe at the end of the day have a little crush on him

He will give you everything you want to hear

And I'm not sure if its true
But keep lying and make me feel wanted.

He will remember every little detail and compliment you when you least expect it.

For a second he will make you feel your wanted

He will make you feel beautiful

And like nothing in the world else matters

It's him. Him. All of him.

So after your done reading this

Please

Please

Please


Don't fall in like

Like I have.

So why does god give us battles we sometimes feel we can't phase ? Why is it okay for him to watch our misery..is he working on something up their ? Why do I feel like when I need someone along my side on a bad day hes listening but what's coming next ? Another challenge..is this just thunder ? So when does the sun come out and rises me from all my life problems.

When can I finally say I'm done battling with hell.
When will I be able to say I'm living sturdy and not worrying about anything ?  

But to be completely honest..I think everyone will always have to deal with a dillema. I must say unfortunately its part of life.

Its an up hill challenge. And one day Ill look back and thank him for all the problems..because it just makes us alot stronger and smarter.

So I'm putting my trust in you. For your the one with our destiny in youe hands. Your the one with all the answers. And right now..I believe you will make something big out of this for the best.

Isaiah is a person who sees nothing in himself but I personally think he has potential to be anything.

I think Isaiah is one of the greatest friend I had..
He's the guy who brings light and life to the party weather its just a small talk or just a long walk.

He lightens up everything around me.
His hair swishes back and forth like a guy coming out
The ocean splattering water all over the beautiful sand.

The way his little frekles line up on his face.
His nose is circular shape & I love every little form of it.
Isaiah has a personality that tops everything he has.

Isaiah is one of those friends I thank I have in my life.
He brings humour to my dull life. And without him I wouldn't know the meaning of a great, stupid, ******* hilarious friendship.

Isaiah is just one of a kind. Which makes him really special To me (:

I'm not going to tell you I like you anymore & pour my feelings out to you

I'm not going to flirt with you and give you the satisfaction you want.

I'm not going to look into those amazing eyes & melt .

I'm not going to talk to you because if I do ill get closer to falling harder

I'm not going to pay attention to your existence

I'm not

I'm not

I'm not

But eventually I will do the complete opposite

Because these feelings havnt gone away

They've been knocking me down

I say I'm done . But I keep finding myself trying again.

But one day I'll know when to give up.

Because if i was worth your time I will be relevant to your life and have a place .

But i dont.

And I'm not going to .

So its time to walk away . I've finally given up on you.