Probability.
I sit here in class,
Seeing my teacher talk;
It's probably something useful
On probability.
How about the probability of my life?
Probability to do my homework;
Non because I've been called a ******* so many times, I've given up.
Probability of me getting the perfectly imperfect version of a boyfriend;
Zilch because no one appreciates a young healthy, very curvy sophomore with a DD,
Yet people who make fun of me will WISH and HOPE for my ******* in their future years
They will even get surgery just to make themselves like me,
So what is the practical probability they stop making fun of me;
Zilch!
Probability that I will be seen as more than an object to others;
******* to none because I don't make an effort anymore, not after sixth grade.
Probability I will ever feel completely good about myself as a whole;
Maybe because I have six awesome friends who don't put me down.
Probability my life will get better;
Someday but not today
My past made an irreplaceable mark on me
And my probability.
Will the percentage grow,
Along with my hopes?

I sit frozen.
I have just uncovered a band,
Of a genre I barely listen to.
I wonder why I haven't discovered this yet,
Where have I been?
It's music speaks the words in my heart,
Words I have no heart to speak,
In fear of rejection from the world.
It fuels my poetry, my writing,
It makes me feel whole and better.
Is this what this music does to you?
Make you feel better and yet tears you apart,
Strand by strand,
Till it hits your soul,
And does something to your heart.
You feel good and okay.
I am frozen.
I have listened to my life in song,
In words I cannot express myself.
I will be okay.

Cloudy Skies,
Misty Sighs.
Winter days,
Won't go away.
Chills in the air,
It isn't fair.
Don't see the grass,
Winter has to pass.
Geese still fly down,
Bringing our moods down.
Why not have sunshine?
Why not have spring time?
Can't hear the bird's song,
Winter lasts too long.

Broken World,
Broken Girl,
Broken Home,
Broken Children,
Broken Love,
Broken People.
When will this world,
Be whole again?
When will 'love thy negihbor',
Become the Pledge of Alligence.
It's turned into a brother against brother,
And sister against sister.
Mothers lose their children to silly causes,
And Fathers mourn their losses.
When we can dance and laugh together,
And a child from one Country,
Will laugh and play,
With a child from another.
When we can forget the past and forge a new future,
For our world.
Whole World,
Whole Girl,
Whole Home,
Whole Children,
Whole Love,
Whole People.
Let's take the glue and put the earth back together again.

What would you say if I told you,
I heard Whispers in my head.
That they told me things,
that I believed them.
Would you be disgusted with me and call me insane,
Because the Whispers already do.
Would you try to get me help,
Help that won't help me,
because the Whispers are here to stay.
What if I said I saw Creatures,
All Snarled and Withered,
That can look like you and I.
That these Creatures invite me every night,
To come and play with them.
Would you lock me up,
Like a prisoner,
In a white room with white walls and white floors.
What if I said I had darkness?
Darkness that will consume me,
Until I am no more.
What if I said I couldn't hold it back,
That I would let the madness, the darkness,
The Creatures and Whispers consume me.
Would you stop me,
Would you miss me?
But it's been there all along,
It was all that I am,
All that I was.
You can't turn back time now that I'm gone,
You can't stop the Creatures and Whispers,
The darkness and madness,
From consuming you too.
It's all that we are,
All that everyone is.
No one is pure,
Everyone has darkness and madness,
Creatures and Whispers
You just
Can't
See them.

Widow in the woods,
Husband is dead.
Beware the lady,
The Lady In Red.
Her nails are as sharp as silver,
Her hair a soft, silk coat.
You better run fast,
Or she'll slit your throat.
Time and time again,
You'll hear her moaning through the trees.
The Lady In Red Hears,
The Lady In Red Sees.
Go for the clearing,
You'll be safe there.
She lurks in the shadows,
To trap you in her snare.
Life will go on living,
You will be mourned.
Your blood will become her dress,
For she is the Lady In Red.

Little bug, under a starry night,
Little bug, curled up tight.
Don't you worry, Little Bug,
I'll keep you safe in my arms.
Rocking you to sleep, a gentle pink face,
Safe and sound, forever sleeping.
Don't you cry now, Little Bug,
Ignore the world outside.
Father is out there somewhere,
Searching for his way home.
He'll come home again,
Back to you and me.
The world outside is dangerous, Little Bug,
Please don't leave.
We'll both burry Father in the grave,
He didn't return home,
Like we'd thought he would.
Little bug, under a dark, cloudy night,
Standing straight and tight at my side.
I won't let this world take you,
That wants the same end for you,
As Father did.
Little Bug, burried next to Father,
My whole life under the ground.
Little Bug, I'm sorry,
This world did take you from me.
I couldn't keep you safe,
I couldn't hold you tight.
Lie in piece, Little Bug,
Under a clear, night sky.