I wonder....
Is it grand design
was it written in the stars long ago
can my destiny change or is it set in stone
does every question have an answer
because I need to know
does true love exist or is it just false hope

I should have said sorry a lot less than I ever did
Because we both know who's fault it really is
Im not saying that I was never wrong
All I know is that I'm glad you're gone

This old truck of mine has a half a tank, I think I'll see how far she rolls
Foot on the gas, hand on the wheel, and roll down the windows
That picture of you on my dash, I tossed it to the side
That note you wrote on the back I guess it was a lie
Because “I’ll love you forever” ended today
I just wish my feelings for you would die the same way
But it’s hard to convince your heart what your brain already knows
Because your heart is dumb, love is blind, and feelings come
but don’t always go

8  miles down the road I hear my phone ringing on the dash
as soon as it lights up I see your name reflecting on the glass
you're probably calling to say that you're sorry
and that I should come back to stay the night
because you grow more and more lonely, as I feel more and more right
I'm rolling so fast I'm out running my own headlights
now I'm feeling like a bird and thats as free as it gets

Let me be real for 2 seconds and just say the truth
We are all looking for something thats too good to be true
Some think they found it only to find regret
some think they need it to be the best
some want more but care less
others just try to do it all with no regrets
Whatever it is who knows if it's real
Whatever it is I'm dying to feel

I know my time is coming
Some say I've been here way too long
But I just don't think I'm ready
just now began feeling at home
They're about to cut the string, so I guess here it goes
if I don't learn to fly on the way down
don't say I didn't tell you so
because I'm good at one thing
and that one thing is being young
but we all grow old and wise
wishing we could be forever young and dumb

I miss it so much
Just a shimmer of a memory sends chills up and down my arms that I can feel in my bones
It was perfect like an all time high that would never be gone
I was sleeping in the clouds, the opposite feeling of being alone
But it was too good to be true because it's all a memory
now Im sleeping on the floor just wishing for what I can't see

You

I watched you spin around and fake a smile
we were all there to watch you run away
you saw me and ill never forget that face
because you didn't know I was coming, didn't know what to say
it was a true surprise
I saw happiness and regret at the same time in your eyes
It was a secret that with time you knew you could beat
but I knew you too well for the secret keep
Today was the day for you to be swept away for the rest of your life
but you keep staring at me and only you know why

What if I had been brutally honest and said exactly what I felt
That night I had you all to myself
What if we could be together and never be apart
Only me and you right from the start
if I knew then what I know now
I wouldn’t be living with this lonely heart

Every night around this time I wake up thinking of you
Been chasing me through my dreams I can't erase the memory of you
Every place I try to hide my face well you find your way around it
When I say I'm ready to cut the ties well I lied now I'm surrounded by you
This ain't nothing but the runaway games, first we run then we chase but we always end up in the same place

Stay up late at night, its all you think about
Your mind wont cut off , though your heads laid down
Traveling back to time, to that special moment
And your jaw drops wide open to say what you’ve always wanted
and you let it lose but this time it was pointless
I guess theres a time and a place… for every heartbreak

My girl I know you still remember the nights we spent by the lake
Breaking curfew not a minute to spare, more like 3 hours too late
I'd take the blame every single time even though the fault was all on you
With those pretty blue eyes begging me to stay what else was I supposed to do

No Fence around this place
just wide open space
picked a lot on the edge of town
my Uncle built it up from the ground
just a place we can call home
it was the vision that my father owned

Every dollar that I ever made, I got from mowing at my neighbors place
learned to drive a stick in the yard, 14 in my granddads car
almost wrecked into our favorite tree, the one we planted just him and me

When I stop and look around, I can almost here the sound
Dads front porch philosophies, my name from momma calling me
This is the place that I love the most, This is the place that I call home

I've been trying to figure it out but I just can't get it right
I’ve spent my whole life chasing things I can't get
seeing something better in the mirror than there actually is
Wishing on a lucky star but I must have picked the wrong one
because I wish and I wish but I never can get
wondering why it wasn’t happening for me I locked myself in my room blind to what I didn’t want to see, when really I was wasting time trying to live a life that wasn’t really for me