I am a dreamer without a dream.

I am an artist without an art.

I am a soldier against my own thoughts.

I am a betrayer of my own heart.

I am an activist too scared to act.

I am a lover unable to show love.

I try to be everything at once,

I find that I am nothing at all.

I hide my true desires

behind everything I pretend to be.

It seems all the things I really want

conflict with what I want people to see.

I want to take chances

but fear what I might lose.

I want to stand up for my beliefs

but I don’t know what I can do.

I want to show how I truly feel

to let people finally see the real me

but I can’t stand to show them all my flaws

or let the know that I am weak.

No wonder I can’t make connections

since no one knows who I am.

I wish that I could show them

but I don’t see how I can

since I don’t even know myself

who I am am or who I want to be.

All of my conflicting traits

don’t even make sense to me.