The scars you left
The tears I cried
My heart remembers
Every night.

So why are you here?
Why do you smile?
Don't you remember
How you let me down?

I can't take this
So please just leave now
I don't want to listen
To your apologize.

But we are too young to be this broken,
too young to be this stressed.
society has messed
with the heart of this tennage.

Wherever we look
somebody is judging you.
no matter what you wear,
no matter what you do.

Hearts are being broken,
Bodies are being piled,
Tears are being spilled,
And everybody wonders why.

That young and quiet girl,
the one who nobody ever noticed
cuts her wrists and cries all night.

The girl who everybody loves,
who has a perfect boyfriend
and a perfect life,
is pregnant and wants to die.

So why are we so calm?
why are we like that?
nobody noticed that
this life is messed up?

Last night, at 2 am I fell asleep thinking of you,
how the first time we met we perfectly fit into eachother
and when I bumped into you, you didn´t move right away,
how it felt when I grabbed your hat
and you childishly pushed me against a wall,
and still when I gave it to you, you didn´t move.
you didn´t let me out.
right in that moment looking into your eyes
that´s when I realised
that I needed you to be fine.
Today I didn´t expect you to talk to me,
it was just one night, right?
but you did
and I got to know you so well,
then, suddenly
in the middle of the conversation
you said that I was very pretty.
then You logged off.
I don´t know what to think
I don´t want to be hurt.
I don´t want to fall again.
I don´t want to,
because love means some falling,
and I´m afraid of heights.

I write everything I think,
Carry it around all day with me.
All my fears, tears and laughs
All my weaknesses desires and facts.
All this in one small piece
A part of me in physical,
A legacy I leave.
But if somebody reads it
There will be tears,
Because I own everything I write
And if people wanted to be written nicely about
*then they should have behaved better

Finally, something went right
after many wrong turns.
my life has taken a shift,
but I´m not troubled.

used to cry mself to sleep,
now I don´t let a tear slip.
I hope this all works out
because if not I might fall again.

Now that you´re far away I can´t sleep,
which is weird,
we used to be in the same city
living in the same streets
and I missed you
like you were far away from me,
and now that you are
all I can think is
how lucky I was
when you where next to me.