I am fly on the wall in the wrong room
I wish I could just fall and be swept by a broom
My eyes have to disguise these un-forsaken views
I come to you lord as I sit in these pews
Don’t leave me in despair
My heart can’t survive this tear
As the fear fills me in my body grows thin
Brittle and cracked as I feel it attack
Release and shed a tear letting all those hear
I level my pain as I wash it down the drain
There is no right there is no wrong
It’s like there is nowhere I belong
On this wall I lay, stuck so I must stay

Sitting here alone
Waiting by the phone
Anticipating these little vibrations
Hope they don’t go into hibernation
I am only a man
I do what I can
Mistakes will be made
This love isn’t being delayed
Got to realize for me this is a love I have never made
Grain of sugar or grain of salt enjoy every feeling that is felt
I lust for you
I trust in you
Express yourself
Undress yourself
Please let me inside your busy beehive
I don’t want just the pretty surface
I want the particles underneath that sometimes feel like there in crumbles
Everything has it’s purpose  
Inside and out
                                                             I love you all with out a doubt

I am not actually alive
Really it is true I am not actually alive

You think I am because I look and breathe like I am alive but deep down inside I am dead like a cut flower that lies in a vase.

Sitting the there bestowed upon you to gaze at in glory for the few days I have left with my beauty before it wilts and shows you my true colors.

The dry aridness of this place has withered up my body and soul.  

The cold has reached my heart, I am only with myself laughing out the true colors of my joy and mixing my sour tears of sorrow.

I am a man of defeat that has reached his end. separated from my foundation I am no longer alive.

I lay here surviving on what is left stowed away before my better half was cut from me.

Envy me
Chase the smell of the greed
To come find me
Seek the lust flowing in the air
To come find me
Nobody else will even give a care
Insinuate your taste for gluttony with in
To come find me
Indulge in cravings no could even relate
Boast everything done till pride is beyond belief
To come find me
Frustrate and anger those around you
To come find me
Lounge around the world for nothing
To come find me
Distrust those who fear me
To come find me
I am all things to come
I am hear to ruin all the fun
There are many names I have come to fame
In my world I live by only one and it is not insane

She is within my reach
Reach out my hands and grab her
Only I am frozen to the ground I stand on
The “what if’s” torture my mind
The predictions that don’t exist until I ask
She smiles with intrigue
I sit there with out a beg or plead
Completing in my mind the reactions of my question
Never to be born the answer will go unanswered
For the question will never be asked
The what if’s are never going to happen
Why do I contemplate them if they will never exist?

You always think your right
Your way or the highway
Your ears are open but it is just a tunnel to the other side
Meanwhile you are formulating your next point
It is like you are walking with your eyes closed in somewhere you never been
Taking no advice from outsiders
You know where you are going no matter if that tree is in front of you or not.
You walk into it never giving up
And eventually going to knock it out of your way
Instead you stand at the tree with a stand still
Never realizing you have hit an unmovable object.
Just open your eyes
Let the light inn
See your problem
Figure out the solution then
Step forward
Just open your eyes
Listen to the world around you
You will thank yourself for it
Trust me
I’m blind

Beauty lies deep with in
Although we may not always defend
With the heart you never want to pretend
Seek out the beauty to the living end
My heart is blank script ready to be written
The beat is gone
It just wanting for the melody to come along
An empty casket ready to be filled
My heart is ready to be claimed
I am ready to be tamed
Come find me
You have two feet
Every time I search or come near
You run away in fear
I’m done chasing
My heart is in no condition to keep this pace up
Your time of me looking for you is up
Don’t shed a tear my heart is hear
But it is not moving so don’t miss out
Cause I’m not going to hold out

Everything happens for a reason
Just never seems to be the right season
I won’t let you put these dreams to sleep
They will stay strong like my heart beat
I will no longer accept defeat
Conquering this mountain is no longer a choice
Rather it is a way to speak my voice
Nothing can stop this storm now
I am on my way to flip your world upside down
You will no longer wear a frown
Because you will always be happy as long as I am around

Therapy is for the weak
Though it is something we all seek
For our voice is to be heard
Problems to be consoled
Sometimes an ear is the best thing
Clears up the teary eyes
Whips away the saddening cries
You can’t always hold it in
Doing that just doesn’t make you win
Go out on a limb
Let your problems be heard
So we all don’t get to be absurd

My love is a curse
I smother them with my body
Hug them
Kiss them
Hold them
Talk to them
Never to let them go
I love them so much
I feel as though I could never live with out them
Hug them
Kiss them
Hold them
Never let them go
I never want to let them go
Until I realize that I am not in love with anything
I have stopped them from doing anything and everything they have wanted
Never letting them be themselves
Never letting them out of my sight
Never letting them move an inch unless I say so
I am their commander
Their guiding hand
Only I don’t guide
I demand
Only to realize
What I am holding in my hand
Is death
I have killed them
Killed their will
Killed the sense of being alive
I have smothered them to death
The one person I love has just died
I didn’t let them breathe
I have put the pillow over them and suffocated them with my love.
I am alone
No one to love
No one to hug
No one to kiss
Nothing to hold
This love is a curse

Painful and a struggle
Filled with tease and more jokes please
Life is joy, love and fear
All of which will cause you to shed a tear
Life is big smiles and small frowns
You'll always have those ups and downs
Life is passion and frustration
But at least it is filled with color and illustration