You keep to yourself
You don't let anything out
You let few people in
Your trust is a gift; close to no one receives
I had it once
I heard your deepest thoughts
Your darkest secrets
Those not even your best friend knew
I cherished every word
From the anxiety, to your God complex
I remember it all
But now, I don't even hear your greeting
Where did you go?
Please, say something.

I feel like death. It is taking over. I'm slowly dying. Nothing in life is bright. Darkness is swallowing me. Enveloping me. Taking my sense of feeling. I don't mind. Honestly. Though sometimes, I want to know what everyone else thinks. Sometimes I just want to feel alive. Happiness comes and goes for me. I can be having the time of my life; when out of nowhere it hits again. It feels like I have been hit by a train; just not quite hard enough to end it all. So I just lie there; unable to move. The tears fall, but no one sees. Is it because no one cares? Or is it all just in my mind?

I am alone.
There are people around, but I go unnoticed.
I've been replaced by my friends.
I'm not the child my parents hoped for.
My pain takes over my mind.
It gets to the point where
there is nothing to live for.
They say everyone has purpose;
Where is mine?
When it gets to this point,
it hurts to breath.
No one sees the pain in my eyes.
There is no one to help me.
I need someone.
Anyone.
This is no longer a poem;
But a call for help.

Is it safe to say that no one cares?
No matter what I try to say, no one notices.
I crave the attention of those around.
The only looks of concern thrown my way are those who think I'm insane.
I don't understand.
There are never any emotions from them.
Never as much as a reassuring smile.
Not even an 'are you okay?'
One day I'll be gone.
They won't notice.
They'll be fine..

I tried to change
I punished myself,
For every imperfection
But it seemed there was a new one everyday.
They wouldn't leave.
But when they didn't;
Everything else did.
My life disappeared.
Along with every 'friend'
The only one who was there was the shadow,
The one leading me down my path to destruction.
Weighing me down more with every step.
But I don't mind.
Because he will be there until the end..