When people ask you, what do you want in life?

The most cliche thing they're gonna say is get married, have a family, be famous and be successful in life.

But if you ask me, all I want is happiness, not temporary hapiness but true happiness.

I don't want happiness that comes from pills, or even vices.

I don't want to find happiness from material things, because hapiness can't be measured by the amount of material things you have. Material happiness gives you temporary happiness. You cannot sustain this happiness' cause, one way or another, material wealth will disappear.

I feel like I've been **** in a blackhole, and all I can see is darkness...

I can't escape from this emptiness.

I feel so lost.


I want to feel safe.

I want to feel accepted.

I want to feel that I'm enough.

I want to feel complete

I want to feel loved....

But I wonder, does this kind of happiness exist?

Does true happiness even exist in this world? In a world I still don't understand.

I'm always excited for her class when I wake up, so I try my best to not be late.
I can't stop smiling like an idiot everytime she enters the classroom and say "good morning class."
She enters and she changes the ambience of the room. The way she teach, full of love and passion for her subject, that you don't see much with other professors; and the way she looks at me, is it safe to say I can't help it not to blush?
When I listen to her discussions, it's like we're the only people in the room; she brings me in a different world, an adventure in the classroom, she opened my eyes with so many things that gave me a different point of view about life.
I hope one day I'll find someone like her, someone with passion for what she loves to do, even thou some don't appreciate it; I hope one day I can meet someone with that kind of intelligence and can really get someone's attention because of that, and hopefully I can be like her; but until that day comes, can I just say that I am in love with my professor.

You're the one who made me feel that
I will never be the prettiest,
never be the skinniest,
I will never be the smartest,
never be anything.
So please stop expecting too much from me,
because I'm tired of feeling that I'm not good enough.

Depress ha?
I can't blame you,
we can't help it sometimes, it's just really part of life.
But if there's depression, there also comes happiness,
that's the great thing about it, even it's just momentarily.
I guess we concentrate too much on the negative things,
that we forgot to look at the positive side.

I dare you to take time to just close your eyes, just for a while,
and just remember and look back.
Remember the times you were happy?
The times you made someone smile?
Remember the times when the people who loves you so much,
made you laugh like there's no tomorrow, even thou you didn't want to smile.
Hey, you got to enjoy the little things.