"hey, can you talk?"
because for about a year a single phrase was said well over a thousand times,
and during a couple months not a word was said.
"hey"
was all that was needed, and now after a month we are talking again,
and a single phrase was brought up, the same phrase as before.
"i don't know..."
I'm just curious what you mean, the first time you said it recently was something new,
I just want you to know that when i say it, it still stands true.

Dragging this razor across my wrists, feeding its hunger, kissing my indulgence, spreading the pain. Please...

Letting the blade fall, letting the blood spill, letting the nightmare continue. Help…

Failing to stop the black, failing to control it, failing to keep my promises. Save me.

Help me to stop myself, help me from slipping, help me from crashing.

Slipping through the ecstasy, sliding the knife up my arm. The slithering pain drowning me in the empty darkness. Banging on the walls the pleasure eludes me, the overwhelming pain engulfs me writhing in it on the floor.

Please stop me from this nightmare, Please help me, Please save me from what i want.

"couldn't take your hand, the one
you forced me away with.
I would say thank you
but you never helped with this,
you were the last one out,
without a whisper I never saw you.
without you I still had my nightmares.
time after time I would hear you shout.
rarely at her.
to us you always would.
now I wish I could say more
but I can't.
you didn't say anymore,
you didn't save anymore.
so now I'll take her hand and leave out the door.
for once I'm done with this poe,
just thought I should let you know."