I am not abandoned
just left behind
For I know they love me
As I love them
It is still a little
to no peace of mind
I'm not blind
It is Christmas!!
Time to unwind
To share and to be kind
Or should I shy away and hide
Abide to the loneliness in me I find?
What foolish thoughts
I have
Or not
Are beyond my grasping mind
I'd like!
I want!
I should!
I must!
In the end... I just can't
That is what I chant
For my desire is, that chant
Shall grow from a seed into a plant
In my mind
My soul
My whole being
Until I own it
Until it is all me
Left behind
It leaves you with a lot of things
The worst of all
The feel of loss
The loss of origin
Nothing to it akin
It devours you
From Head to toe
It all consumes you
Like an Angel cry
while falling through the sky
From the light
To the darkness
but there is something that springs to mind
Like wings spreading to cutch your fall
A shining silver lining comes to sight
You make the call
And hear the voice
Another feeling starts to bloom
The shadows start to swoon
Light surrounds you once again
The voice you hear is one of love
A love you missed
A love you craved
A love you know, you allways had
But still without it, came the doubt
For you know they love you
As you love them
It is still a little
to no peace of mind
Marry Christmas at last is said.