I wonder how i'll react
when i come through the door
and see you at the table, your eyes drifting to the floor
I wonder what id think
when everyone else is having fun
while im pouring myself another drink.
I wonder why were you even invited?
I guess to be a reminder that i never was good enough for you
That you could move on seamlessly
While im the one holding on...
The one you begged for a chance.

Determination, diligence
Is what I saw
Running away is what I reciprocated with.
All the right things is what you did
Making the coldness in my chest melt.
Happiness, Affection
Is what I felt
With you by my side, and in my heart.
The heart that you thawed, and made your home.
I tried to make this home the best I could
But even the sun sets in paradise.
You came home fewer, my heart grew colder.
Every day was an agony
Reaching out was what I did.
But I lacked acknowledgement.
To this day, it is a mystery
As to why you up’ed and left my heart.
The heart you thawed and made your home.
(k.l.)

What do you think I deserve?
After treating you like the king you were
Or least the king you made me feel you were…
What does the girl you made your queen deserve?
Or the queen at least you made me to be in your eyes…
Don’t you think I would deserve a response; a ‘hello’ at least?
Some indication to me that you still care, that im not erased from your picture
The picture that you meticulously painted to me day by day
Changing my view, but not clouding my judgement.
As a king, you do not hold me in high regards to not even report to me
But still, you seem perfectly capable of doing so.
But why me? Why your queen?
The queen I always knew I was, but the queen I thought someone finally saw…
Your Queen.

Time is a funny thing you know;
Its hands accomplish many things,
All by just moving around in a circle.
Time is a weird thing you know,
The same hands that softened my heart
The same hands which turned it back to stone
Will be the same hands which heal me
Time is a sad thing you know,
Even though we have 24 hours/60 minutes/ 60 seconds
You still didn’t value it enough,
To even give me the time of day
(k.l)