We have seen each other for a moment
you are immature, *****, ******* and idiot.
you are a tool
you are awkward and you think the world revolves around you
I have come to notice
that some people play dumb, when they are really dumb
you are unintelligent academically and socially
you need to grow the **** up
you never learn from your mistakes

You believe rumors more than my words
someone started a rumor that I was cheating
and you believed other six people instead of me.
You are so jealous of me
since I have moved on with someone else
better than you will ever be.
And every night I ask myself why I dated you
and I laugh every single day when I hear stories about you
that you are *******, ******* disrespectful and unfriendly to others.
I can only imagine what the next victim will be
and how she will tolerate your bad childish behavior.
I feel sorry for you because you never are over **** about your past
you get annoyed and bothered by little things.
You thought that I ruined everything here
but really, you helped me understand childish men like you
and now I can look for a better man.

As I sleep, the images pierce through my brain
and I wonder if they are dreams, fears, or memories
the images are pure as the dew of the dawn
I hold on to the images for when they go
my life will be as a barren field frozen with snow
I try to live up to the images for they die
my life will be a broken-winged bird that  cannot fly

They haunt me in my sleep
empty and false are the hopes of the senseless
borne aloft by dreams
like a man who catches at shadow
or chase the wind.
Believing in dreams as the reality
divination all dreams are unreal.
I expect more but the mind depicts
dreams have led many astray
and the fear of believing
fill my heart for I may perish.

Memories of you are farfetched
every spark is disappearing in the thin air
the thoughts of you are clouded
with other memories of others
and I cannot bear the thought
of losing the memories of you.

Memories are suppose to stay forever,
but that of you are running with the wind
why are the memories slipping away,
do I not remember or love you no more?
The good times we had are not enough
to treasure and secure them safely.

The memories as drifting away
because of the time and nature,
because of the trauma and secrets
and because of the plan and fear
everything is becoming nothing
but a picture of your face
frozen in time captured forever
in the deep part of my mind.

The memories are turning into tears
tearing me apart
and fear of moving on or changing
is all pain in vain
and I feel like I am still dreaming of the past.

You are book smart; loquacious
when you talk every word flows as water in a stream
when you laugh your blissful eyes when joyful tears go down

Sometimes you bug me,
And sometime you choke and hug me
Sometimes I wish was the only child,
But I don’t know what I would without you.
Having you as my sister means I will always have a friend
As I look back on memories of my life
I remember you and all the good times we had
Through good times and bad times
I will always love you no matter the circumstances

The dark and idle mind
lingers around
looking for dangerous things to do
but darkness surrounds it.
The thought of drugs
and the essence of ***
fill up most of the day’s thoughts.
The thoughts are illogical, lost, but exultant,
Mysteriously slithering, removed from reality,
sickening, every move acted wrong.

The mind controls everything in the body
and the body obeys responds quietly
without making mistakes
the mind may punish it.
The body is restless
but the mind never sleeps
thoughts and thoughts
without conclusion or direction
rumble and tumble
exhausting the body to the limit.  

The dark mind in a frozen cave
dreaming and imagining
miniature and immense elements
that the body can accomplish
yet fails in attempt.
The mind does not have a road map
yet the body must follow
the directions correctly
trudging though highway
and streets of silver
and through the forest of fear
the body stumbles
and come to an ocean or regrets.

The bright yellow-orange flame flairs in the air
as the people scream for help that never reaches them
they run for water and throw it into the flame
but the flame does not vanish
it increases as the wind blows increasing
oxygen to the flame.

The fire extinguisher on the wall is not working
the carbon dioxide inside has expired
the cries increase as people burn to the ground
and some have died due to poor tissue perfusion and fluid loss

I hear the cries of starved children in the third world country
but no one is helping them with food or clothes.
I hear the cries of those with AIDS in the hospital beds
begging for more medicine but no one is listening
it is as if they are talking to walls.
I hear the screams of prisoners being tortured
but no one is running to free them.
I hear angry shouts of those who protest against
nuclear proliferation and destruction of the planet’s ecological balance.
I hear endless pleas for justice and peace all over the world
it is a wild flame burning the whole country
and there is no consolation, light or hope.

You have been there for me
since I was in my mother’s womb
until now and forever.
Being with you, feels like an eternity
of love and happiness
the day and night I spent with you are eternal.

You have protected me from evil
guided me from miscellaneous
and shown me the path to rightful
I vow that I will love and cherish you forever
in rich or poor, health or sick.
I promise to love, respect and honor you
share your plans and interests
ideals and emotions,
through all the trials and tribulations of life
as well as the joyous times
caring for you in lifelong commitment.
I give my flesh, heart and soul
for my love for you is everlasting.

My body and soul yearns for you day and night
you are mine for I long
for you my body yearns,
for you my soul thirsts,
like a land parched with lifeless
and without water.
Therefore, I look for you in the sanctuary
to see your strength and power
for your love is better than life.

When I think of you upon my bed
through the night watches, I recall
that you indeed are my help
and in the shadow of your wings
I shout joy
and my soul clings fast to you
your right hand upholds me.

I will remember you forever
here deep calls to deep in roar of your torrent
and your waves and breakers sweep over me.
At dawn you bestow faithful love,
you grant me justice,
defend me from faithless people
from deceitful and unjust people
you sent light and fidelity to guide me
you are my joy and delight.