when it comes to work I have been told "work smarter not harder"...

I say "you ever notice people who tell you that work harder than anyone else".


when it comes to money I have been told "one in the hand is worth two in the bush"

I say "I want all three"


when it comes to family and friends I have been told "you can't pick your family"

I say "thats true but I can choose to ignore that fact"


when it comes to enemies I have been told "**** them with kindness"....

well I say "**** them with any method that suits you"

strolling through the store in a chipper mood

I head to the check out line with a basket of food

I get into line and begin to wait

standing there with nothing to do, something I really hate

so checking to make sure I got everything, I look over my list to be sure

I start just looking around  and then I saw....HER

beautiful hair, incredible smile and sparkling eyes

then suddenly she spoke to me, it took me by suprise

she said "hello, how are you" with a rather large grin

I stutter a little but managed a "pretty good, how have you been"

I jokingly blurt out "do you come here often" for lack of something better to say

She laughs and replies back "feels like I'm come here every day"

I still am in shock that this beautiful woman is standing here talking to me

Could this be love? it just might be

my mind races to come up with what to do now

I have to make the next move,  just not sure how

I should ask for her phone number, yes thats what I should do

she says it's "3522"

I reply with "is that your cell or home number"

she say's "sir...that's your total $35.22" could I feel any dumber

I thought I had found true love this very day

but like so many times before it just slipped away

nothing like the ones on t.v. or the movie screen

or the creepy crawlies you have never seen

not the one in your closet or under your bed

I am the monster alive inside your head

have you ever looked in the mirror and felt it was more than your reflection looking you in the eye

recall the nights when you heard strange things that were so terrifying you wanted to cry

every time you felt something touch your hair

the feeling of spider webs on your face though none were there

the wispers that only you could hear in the dark

the things that attacked you without leaving a mark

in the darkness when you thought you saw something but convinced yourself it couldn't be

every single scary moment you can't explain.......(it was always me)

I write this out of consideration of you

I promise to never do what the voices tell me to

oh they're always calling, pleading for me to act

all my life dealing with them it's amazing I haven't cracked

it's no easy task

keeping them confined behind sanitys mask

day in, day out, I fight non stop

they are a bunch of criminals and I am the only cop

no I'm just kidding there are no voices only me

DON'T LISTEN HE'S TRYING TO GET FREE

I am just a regular person like all of you

**** IT DON'T BELIEVE WHAT HE'S SAYING IS TRUE

hey, you wanna go for a walk in the park

OH MY GOD, DON'T DO IT! IT'S ALREADY DARK

these guys make me laugh, you wanna have some fun call me

ha, you ego maniac it's always about you and always will be

wish you all would take a flying leap

if you jerks don't mind I am trying to get some sleep

this was written in consideration of you

but you WILL do what WE SAY and there's NOTHING you can do

You entered my life one day very unexpected

caught me off my guard and unprotected

like a sliver, in time you found a way to get under my skin

the more I tried to remove you the further you went in

not really painful but an irritation none the less

as the time went by I found I couldn't ignore you I guess

so with a lot of effort and some pain I cut you out of my life for good

and once the wound has healed my life will be back to normal as it should

As I seem to age in years as the days pass by

I'm old enough to know true pain but still to young to die

if you want to know me I am very easy to find

just follow the little pieces of my heart I have left behind

time passes so quickly that it often becomes a blurr

all the things I believed were true but was never sure

I have a mind that will welcome you in, it's oh so comforting

my voice can soothe the harshest words, taking away thier sting

arms strong enough to carry you when you're too weak to walk

caring ears that will always listen when you want to talk

eyes that will look upon you with honest loving care

a warm inviting gaze, never a cold blank stare

I do not have all the answers to all the questions, though I wish i was so wise

just know what you see is the real me because I wear no disguise

please be certian I do not hold onto destiny with kid gloves

I except and embrace it tightly, it is one of my greatest loves

With strength and hope I embrace the facts of my existance

all restraints have been removed, no more holding back zero resistance

free to ascend to the higher levels that I have always strived

much sooner than I ever planned here I am, I have arrived

through the lies, misconceptions and conformity I have risen above it all

strong and confident moving forward I am walking tall

free to be who ever I want at any moment if I choose

making up the rules of life as I go, no way I can lose

so if you pass me in the street and I seem out of place

it's because that is where I want to be with a smirk on my face

not because I am better than anyone or better than you

it's that I have realized that I am free to do anything I have ever wanted to