What's it like to be normal?

To live a normal life?

To not feel judged all the time?

To not feel like everyone's eyes are constantly staring?

To not worry about everything you say, scared that one word will tip them off to something you'd rather them not know?

And what's it like to blend in?

To be a part of the crowd?

To know how to fit in, where to go?

Maybe I'm just better off not knowing....

Other people don't know what it's like
To be scared all the time

To fear everything and everyone
To think all of their laughter is directed at you

They say "Get over it!"
And "Its not bad. Just calm down!"

*If only it were that easy

Sometimes you just fall
Down down down
into the darkest pit of yourself
Until you don't know who you are anymore
Or where these scars came from anymore

Oh right. That was last night.
In an attempt to ease the pain

It didn't work, just pulled me further into the dark
Down down down
Until I couldn't feel the pain anymore
Until I didn't know who you were anymore

*Until I lost myself completely

These secrets we keep
Soon they start to eat
Our very being
The strings that tie us together
They blow free as feathers

These secrets we keep
Soon make us weep
"She's just a friend"
You loudly defend

But dear, I thought
We agreed
To stay true to the end

Sometimes I just wonder why
Why is it you and not I
That goes to live life out happily
While I sit here and cry

I think of what could've been
I think of what should've been
And as my eyes begin to dry

I still can't help but wonder why--?