so many people
feel the pain
yet so little people
do not seem
to understand
even if
deep down inside
they really do
at least
they don't show it

sadness and heartache
we can both relate
pain and blood
we both feel
the coldness
swallows us whole
broken mirrors
reflect a
brokenhearted soul
a person crying
for help night and day
there's no one
to release this
never ending pain
no escape
you feel trapped inside
as time stands still
nothing will
ever be the same

sometimes all
you need on a
cold day
is a cup of
green tea
a burgundy fuzzy throw
and a notebook
and gel pen
to write your
poetry in

whenever i hear
that song on the radio
in the store while i'm shopping
tears sting my eyes
and i begin to cry
tears blur my vision
and i start to cry
because that song
reminds me of you
we used to listen
to that song together
even hum a few lines
so whenever i hear
that song on the radio
while i'm shopping
with my older sister
tears sting my eyes
and i give into them

you're not here
to make me stop
all my friends
have gone away
leaving me alone
no one understands
the secret pain
that i feel
because it hide it
inside my heart

the smell of woodsmoke
fills the cold
and bitter air

yesterday
i burnt that
silver ring
the one that
you gave me
when you
promised me
that you'd
never leave
my side
but you did
you lied
you hurt me
yet i still
acted nice to you
what for?
just to get broken
all over again

i'm screaming out
my pain
tears streaming
down my red cheeks
i'm hot from
getting all worked up
but i can't help it
i scream with all my might
until i loose my voice
tears fall from my eyes
soaking my jeans
and hitting the floor

the color of
your eyes
bleed into the
color of raindrops

my eyes are red from
all the tears i've cried
my wrists are red
but healing with time
the wounds on my heart
are fresh and raw
and that'll probably
be the only part of me
that may not ever heal

that piece of music
reminds me of you
whenever i play it
i don't think
you'll ever
come back to me
so i'll never
be able
to listen to
that song with you
so i guess
i'll stop
listening to it

healing takes a long time
but i'm finally
healing
slowly but surely
i'm feeling less and less pain
the scars on my wrists
and on my heart are healing
maybe even one day
i'll be happy again
who knows

all the times
we wrote letters
and held hands
while eating lunch
in the school cafeteria
all the many times
you said i was your friend
when i'd cry you'd comfort me
now you're not here
and there's no shoulder for my tears
and they fall freely
from my slanted eyes
and moisten my black hair
i'm crying and cannot stop
because you're not here

today i slid up
and fell down
i twisted my ankle
all you did was laugh at me
no one offered to help me up
they just stared and pointed
and laughed
as if it was a game
today i fell
and i wish i could've
become invisible
or just
disappeared

my heart used to soar
upon angel wings
but now both my heart
and my wings
are broken
will i ever heal?

life is hard
and cruel
life has
bitten my hand
worse than that
it has broken
my heart

you said
you loved me
you lied
i should have
known it wasn’t true
i should have known
better than to believe
your ugly lies
it’s all over now
just leave me alone!

i found
the bottle of
sweet cologne
that you used
to wear
and i realize
that
*i miss you

your words
of hatred
sting like salt
upon my broken heart

you were so
beautiful
i remember
your beautiful
handsome face
haunting my dreams
at night when i'm asleep

i feel relaxed
each time
i vent
my feelings
and usually
when i write
its all
about you
and how
my heart
longs for
your love

you used to
be my angel
i loved you
but when you
left and never
came back
i loved you
even more
and i'm still
waiting
for your love

i miss your
warm embrace
without you
i am cold
because its
you who
kept me warm

the pain never
goes away
and the scars
never heal
broken glass
is all that
remains of
my broken heart

i drew out
my steal blade
and slashed
my wrists
blood bubbled
from my skin
and trickled
down my arm

the wounds
you left
in my scarred
heart are greater
than the scars
i wear on
my wrists
i'm feeling
so depressed
because you're
miles away
and i'm sitting
here all alone

today i looked
at my cuts
they were all
healed until
i picked up my
blade only to
do it again
thinking of
you is far too
painful for me
and i cannot bear it
any longer
goodbye

every night when
i go to bed
i dream about you
before i go to sleep
sitting up in bed
i'm thinking about you
do you still love me?
no you probably don't
you've made that clear
other times we've talked
but nothing has changed
i still love you
please love me back
the hurt in my heart
is unbearable
i want you and i need you
all i want is you
to love me back
i miss you
please come back
every night
i cry myself to sleep
because i'm thinking
of you again
i still love you

my phone
types my poetry
it helps me to
pour out my feelings
and vent my thoughts
my phone helps me
to write the things
that are stored
inside my broken heart

everybody likes
that locket of mine
with its jeweled heart
but i stopped wearing it
i stuffed it in my jewelry box
because it contains your picture
and if you had loved me you wouldn't
have moved away
you would have texted me
you would have called me today
but instead you still ignore me
even though you have moved away
it doesn't matter
because i don't have
any friends anymore to
be betrayed by
because i only had you

i ran into a room
the floor was made
of broken glass
reminding me
of my broken heart
rose colored shades were
pulled over the windows
it seemed everything was
made of glass in some way
all of my broken dreams and
destroyed wishes are like the broken
glass which cuts my hands and feet
i remembered the day you first told me
that you loved me
and then i remembered
how you betrayed me
sending me text messages
saying you hate me
and so my heart is now
like the broken glass
on the floor of my
destroyed dreams
and lost love

blood
feel it
running down my fingers
see it oozing from my wrists
bright red blood
stains my enemy
my cold steel blade

they fill my cheeks
and sting my slanted eyes
they wet my ebony black hair
and are left to dry in my eyelashes
today i cried because i was thinking of you

they lace my arms
from where i used to cut
my wrists with a steel blade
just recently
because i was thinking of you
and my heart is so scarred
it is broken
and it will never heal

i sipped the potion
waiting for a change
it was laced with your love
but you hate me now
and now i know
that things will never be the same
because i'm waiting for your love
but you hate me
and your hatred
is like poison to my broken heart

today when i
went to the library
with my older sister
i was thinking of you
thinking of how you
said you loved me
i remembered how
i used to come here
and text you or talk
to you on my cell
but now you moved away
and i cannot reach you
on the phone
when i text you
you never reply
and so i am going
through the hardest pain
of missing you

why did you
go away?
why did you
ignore me before
you moved?
why don't you
text me?
i'm all alone
and need a friend

lips are quivering
teeth are chattering
i am cold
my heart is numb
from all the pain
i've been through
and all the hardships
i've endured
and one of
the greatest ones
was when you left

today i didn't
see you at school
i asked the teacher
where you were
she told me that
you had moved away
i miss you now more
than i ever did before
now there is not going
to be any chance of
us being together again
can't you see i'm in
enough pain as it is?
but no you couldn't
you were blinded
with her love
you left me crying
i wept until
the tears wouldn't come
i was huddled
in the corner of my bedroom
sobbing brokenheartedly
all because of you
now you've moved away
and i miss you and want you
more than i ever did
because i love you still
we were the
very best of friends
but now i don't have any
because you were
my only friend
i love you with all my heart
but now nothing's ever
going to be the same
now i am lonely
more than i ever was

i'm drowning in
heartbreak
and my own tears
i'm tired of this pain
constantly stabbing me
to the rhythm
of my beating heart
i'm drowning in misery
and loneliness
all because of you
you were my only friend
and now you ignore me
leaving me alone
i'm drowning
in my own pain
someone help me

remember how
we would sit
on that familiar
bench at the park
and sip cold cherry coke?
those times are now
just sad memories
that make me cry
i remember how
we would hold
each others hands
in friendship and love
but you like her now
and you ignore me
which makes me
cry all alone
in my bedroom
because i miss you

today my heart
felt empty inside
i felt so miserable
i miss you
do you know it?
you probably do
and just don't care
you're in love with her
it is obvious
other students can tell
you don't like
me anymore
i sat at my desk
tears blurred my vision
and spilled onto
my school papers
i felt like running away
or disappearing
because you are there
i can't get you
out of my sight
or out of my head
you're always there
smiling across the room
at her
you were my only
true friend
now i have
lost you
because you
ignore me
and now
i haven't any friends
and that is why
you see me
huddled in the corner
of my bedroom
alone

i couldn't concentrate
my mind kept wandering
i was thinking of you
and how you like her
i saw you sitting beside her
holding hands and talking
laughing and smiling
i had to leave the room
it was suffocating me
you like her not me
that was obvious
but i remember how
we used to be
the best of friends
everyone admired
the love we shared
it was almost too
good to be true
but now
your ignoring me
when i came up to you
and said hello
you acted as though
i wasn't even there
and when i tried to
talk with your girlfriend
she said for me to go away
i calmly walked away
tears fell down my cheeks
i felt as though i had been
slapped across the face
like my parents do to me
when they get angry
and that is why
you see me
crying alone

did you know
that i cry to sleep
huddled in the corner
of my bedroom
thinking of you
each and every night
hoping you're okay?
i guess you don't
love me anymore
time flies by quickly
and i guess its hard
to get over the shock
of knowing that you
don't love me anymore
at lunch break in school
you're not there
you're across the room
sitting beside her
laughing and smiling
all the while
i'm sitting alone
crying
every time i sit on the bus
i am alone
you're not sitting there
my sister is
because you're sitting beside
that girlfriend of yours
will i ever get over the shock
of this horrible nightmare?
is this just some bad dream?
i pray each night
that this is not reality
you were
the only friend i had
and so now i'm alone
crying alone
in the corner of my bedroom
because i am now alone

i have always
been lonely
i need no one
pain holds me
in its dark embrace
once more
go away
just leave me alone
i have cried
every tear
just for you
and now you
don't care anymore
leave me alone

i like to read
in me and
my sister's
bedroom
sitting on my
pink fuzzy rug
cross-legged
i like to read
i hope
you do too

i love to write
i love to write novels
and let my
fingers
type
letter, words,
sentences,
pages-- a whole book
i love to write
poetry and
fiction