today my heart
felt empty inside
i felt so miserable
i miss you
do you know it?
you probably do
and just don't care
you're in love with her
it is obvious
other students can tell
you don't like
me anymore
i sat at my desk
tears blurred my vision
and spilled onto
my school papers
i felt like running away
or disappearing
because you are there
i can't get you
out of my sight
or out of my head
you're always there
smiling across the room
at her
you were my only
true friend
now i have
lost you
because you
ignore me
and now
i haven't any friends
and that is why
you see me
huddled in the corner
of my bedroom
alone

i couldn't concentrate
my mind kept wandering
i was thinking of you
and how you like her
i saw you sitting beside her
holding hands and talking
laughing and smiling
i had to leave the room
it was suffocating me
you like her not me
that was obvious
but i remember how
we used to be
the best of friends
everyone admired
the love we shared
it was almost too
good to be true
but now
your ignoring me
when i came up to you
and said hello
you acted as though
i wasn't even there
and when i tried to
talk with your girlfriend
she said for me to go away
i calmly walked away
tears fell down my cheeks
i felt as though i had been
slapped across the face
like my parents do to me
when they get angry
and that is why
you see me
crying alone

did you know
that i cry to sleep
huddled in the corner
of my bedroom
thinking of you
each and every night
hoping you're okay?
i guess you don't
love me anymore
time flies by quickly
and i guess its hard
to get over the shock
of knowing that you
don't love me anymore
at lunch break in school
you're not there
you're across the room
sitting beside her
laughing and smiling
all the while
i'm sitting alone
crying
every time i sit on the bus
i am alone
you're not sitting there
my sister is
because you're sitting beside
that girlfriend of yours
will i ever get over the shock
of this horrible nightmare?
is this just some bad dream?
i pray each night
that this is not reality
you were
the only friend i had
and so now i'm alone
crying alone
in the corner of my bedroom
because i am now alone

i have always
been lonely
i need no one
pain holds me
in its dark embrace
once more
go away
just leave me alone
i have cried
every tear
just for you
and now you
don't care anymore
leave me alone

i like to read
in me and
my sister's
bedroom
sitting on my
pink fuzzy rug
cross-legged
i like to read
i hope
you do too