Dear Grandmother
This year wasn’t so different from the rest,
Still a year without you beside me
It has been almost 6 years and I still seem to miss you more than ever
Sometimes I even feel you caressing my cheek
And I lean into your hand and close my eyes
Then at that moment my heart tugs with a sense of comfort and peace
For a couple of seconds I feel happy, genuinely happy
But the absence of warmth seems to take all that back
Sending me back to reality
A reality without you in it
A reality of just the mere memory of you
Of the times you force fed me because you thought I wasn’t eating enough
The times you used to wake me up at 6 in the morning
To go for our morning walk
It has been 6 years and I still wake up at 6
Hoping I would see you ready by the door
For our morning walk