Hate

Hate, such a bold word
It's the only thing I need in this god forsaken world
It has made me a stronger person than who I was before
I'm a mean ******* straight to the core

Love, such a fragile word
Thinking about it makes me want to hurl
All it has ever done for me is make me weep on the floor
My heart can't take it no more

Hate is all that I need
It's the only thing that I believe
Just let in my weak heart
And let it tear it apart

I don't believe in the word love anymore
Besides what for
Love has no place in my heart
It's time for a new start

Hate is what drives me
Hate is what sets me free
Hate is my motivation, my strength, it's what I need to succeed
Hate is all I need

Hate

Why do I have so much anger, so much hate?
I wish I can just lock it all up in a crate.
And send it someplace far away.
And run, run as far as I can to a place where I can pray.
Pray for that crate to never come in my sight.
I just want to be in the light.
Where I can see clearly and not be blinded by my rage.
And be trapped by my anger in a cage.
No, I want to be free, I want to love.
I want to let go of the past and say "that's enough".
I want to be happy again, I want to let go of the memories.
But I can never forget, I can never forgive, I can never be at ease.
I am so angry at myself, for what you did, for what has happened to us.
At times I wish to **** myself, I wish to take a blade to my hand and end all this fuss.
But I can't,  I still have love in me, cooling this fire. There is only one thing  I can do to make life great.
I can only run, it will get me no where but just closer to the crate.

All I want to do is die
All I want to do is say goodbye
Forget these memories
Forget these sweet remedies
I hate my life
There's nothing more I despise
I am filled with sorrow and pain
Hiding my tears in this rain
Everyday I go on about with this fake smile
My happiness only last for while
I just want to be gone from this place
I wished I would forget everyone's face
I wish they would forget mine
And they will, in time.
That's when I can say goodbye
And I can finally die

I was hit on the head with a rock
I was in total shock
Pain flow through me
And I started to see
I started to see the real world
Everything started to unfurled
Of what was real and what was not
It was like I was untying a knot
Everything started to fell apart
When you broke my heart
Oh the pain you have brought
It was the hardest hit I have ever got
After that I saw clearly
I saw that true love does not exist but I hold onto the memories so dearly
True love does not exist in the real world
But only in a dreamworld
If I wasn't hit on the head with a rock
I would still be sleeping with some nice comfortable sock

Why did you do this to my soul?
My world has been so cold
Ever since you walked out that door
I don't feel like living anymore
The dreams I have about you is nothing more than nightmares to me now
And all I have to say is wow
I gave you ALL my love, I did what I had to do to make you happy
And what I get in return a bunch of "honesty"
"Oh Vinod, I would never cheat on you"
Well guess what ***** you just did, you don't know what you put me through.
All of those "I love yous" was just lies
You were my prize but now you're oversize
You're a lying fat *****
Good thing I scored!

Oh, how I ache for death
I want it so badly
I will accept it so gladly
I just want to take my last breath

My love is pain
This heart can't take it no more
It's so sore
I just want to lock it up with these steal chains

I want to forget
I want the pain to go away
That's all I have to say
I have nothing to regret

But death hides from me
Playing a game of hide and seek
I guess I have to wait for him to take a peek
Then I'll find him and then I'll be free

Hate me all you want
Think of me as a mistake
Think I would put your life at stake
I bet your wish you can step on me like an ant

I bet you wish I was never in your life
That I am something to regret
I bet you want to stab me with a knife
And just simply forget

But guess what sweetheart, I'm still here
After all you put me through
I still care
And I'm not done with you

I deserve a second chance
But you were a fool and rush into his hands
You said you wouldn't fall for his trap
I guess that was just crap

We both made mistakes
But come on we could have taken breaks
I have always loved you
Now look at what you're putting me through

I forgave you for everything
For breaking my trust, for lying, and for cheating
Oh I wasn't even mad
Just sad

I still want you back
Who does that?
I deserve a second chance
Come on, let me give you some romance

Take my life
Oh death
Take my life
It is my request

Take my life
For I am miserable
Take my life
For my soul is unstable

Take my life
Because it has no love
Take my life
and send me above

Take my life
For I don't want to be alive
Take my life
For it's the only way to survive

When you said "Hey"
A smile came my way
But I don't know what to say
For the price I have to pay

I'm so eager to talk to you
I want to see how things are going through
But I can't
I'm scared like a little ant

When you said "Hey"
It was one of my brightest day
Oh please, talk to me more
I don't want to be ignored

Your words mean a lot
Just give me one more shot
That's all I ask for
Just to end this heart sore

I should have seen the tears from your eyes
I should have listen your cries
But I was overwhelmed with jealousy
Engulfed in anger of animosity

I was an erupting volcano
Taking my anger out on my beautiful rainbow
Letting my lava flow
I couldn't take things slow

Now you've left me
It was something I didn't imagine to see
I spend lonely nights remembering the days
As it slowly starts to fade

I miss you with your bright colors
Colors of two lovers
Forgive me, for I have hurt you
I just wish I would have knew

I didn't listen to your cries
I didn't see the sadness in your eyes
I was careless
Devour myself in laziness

I was a strong person fill with love
I would call you my little dove
I was your hero
But now I am nothing but a zero

What happened to me
This is not who I wanted to be
I am sorry my little dove
For I have made life for you rough

I will fight for you
If it's the last thing I do

I need you here and I need you now
But I have to ask myself how
How can I, when you're with him
My chances are very slim

My love for you is strong
But what you did to me was wrong
Although my heart aches in pain
In this cloudy rain

I'll take every chance I get
Without any regrets
I will make you mine
for one last time

I will still fight for you
If it's the last thing I do

As I slit my wrist
Watching the blood flow
Taking any risk
As my breathing slows

I feel relief
I feel no pain
But nothing to gain
As I watch in disbelief

You with him
My heart broken
My chance of making you mine again is slim
But now I have woken

Finally seeing the real world
Of how cruel it can be
The world I was in was a big blur
A dream-world where me and you was meant to be