i cant wait to die
to rejoin the stars
and I will be with u again
my starboy

stick and pokes hurt
i couldn't finish it
the push and pull
half finished art
is everything a metaphor for us?

i don't know what to say
when u say u miss me
do u miss the pain?
the sorrow?
u miss the comfort in our suffering

i am aching
ur voice is fading
from my memory
i am aching

i bought a keytar today
and a theremin
im going to write every song
that i couldn't sing to u

forget about me
u can move on
im becoming okay
with the pain
forget about me
i can't forget

does u being monogamous
mean u will stop loving me
for someone new?
what happens to the polyamorous?
i can meet someone new
but still yearn for u
and love u

mó grá
mó réalta
u don't know how much u fumbled
saw the stars in ur eyes
orions belt on ur cheek
i saw every bit of good in u
even now i do
u fumbled and I fell
i helped u up
is mise fuilteacha
is mise briste
Agus tusa freisin?

a blade
ur fingers
both sting dragged across my skin
i don't know who hurt me more
u or me?
all i know is
i ache to feel that touch

my wisdom teeth came in
but i keep thinking of u
i tongue at the wound in my gums
and taste u
the wisdom is knowing i can't be around u
but the pain makes me miss u

cavetown wrote songs for us
i wish i could let u know
ur on my mind
do u see my smoke signals?
hoping i see urs too
i want to be worm food
without u

i think ill make art about u forever
i know u stopped writing about me
u set off a light in me
i cannot turn off
i cannot turn it off
i create pain
i create
i wish we still felt the same

i get drunk
and yearn to be touched
the alcohol warms my chest
like ur hand lingering over my heart
and making it beat
giving it a reason
giving me a reason
to drink

i still dream about it
what u did
the fear i felt
feels real everytime
just like the 1st
what if it was different?
had u asked for help sooner
would we still be together?

how could u ask our mother
for a sibling
and for me to be born
and spend 25 years being my best friend
my 8 year twin
my inspiration
my idol
my mother
my only unconditional love
and then turn ur back on me
i loved u
unconditionally
u made me cool
i can't find joy in things
without thinking of u