Trigger Warning*

Dear J*
By Victoria Phillips.

You and I destined for eternity,
Someday ending in a family or so you lied to me.
You always said my eyes were the reason the stars shone so bright.
You said I was that gleam of everlasting delight.
You always said I was beautiful, sweet and true,
You always said "how do I deserve you"
You were the one I loved so true.
My heart, life and soul, I gave to you.
Like one thousand daggers to the heart you broke me,
On that awful day, a nightmare, a never ending travesty.
You reached up deep, into my soul so untouched and true.
And as I cried horrifically, I saw the REAL you.
I said NO, STOP, I'm scared… please.. I'm scared…
you Ignored me and TEARED,
Right through until blood drew.
Somehow, I got away from you,
You finished yourself as I cried. You watched me cry.
That was the day, a young girl did die.
BUT, I hope that you rot in hell.
I hope that you sleep in a corpses shell.
I hope that you remember why,
Your first brutal love sentenced you to die.
I hope that when you awake and scream,
That it's my face that haunts your dream.
I hope that you cannot breath,
Because, I hope everyone knows what’s up your sleeve.
I wish in my heart and soul,
That everyone could see what you heartlessly stole.
From me you took everything.
And Now I cry for all that I have regrettably seen.
So here, YOU, who tore me apart,
I hope that, you know You have no heart.
I hope that all see you
For all that you TRULY are the monstrous things you do.
So as you rot in my hypothetical hell,
I do not wish to hear you yell,
Nothing, not even Your pain,
Could ever persuade me to stop the rain.
I know you think it’s my entire fault.
But I am the one who begged you to stop.
I am the one, who cried when you watched,
I am the one who you have contorted into an illicit braid.
Yet, I am not afraid.
You broke a child so disgustingly,
Just a young girl who loved you innocently

Lost Causes

You’re on a path of self-destruction, my friend.
For you see only negation; and from that, the end.
All that circles you are the negative atoms,
So you must be too (two) positive, just fathom.
Therefore negation would avoid the path you see,
It’s simple chemistry.

Just understand that although love is what you seek,
And you feel this is happiness’ key,
You are mistaken, and blind; you cannot see.
You have not grasped life’s meaning, you are weak.
Companionship, dreams, truth and beauty are
the essence that life is supposed to be orientated around.
I’m your companion, and I understand.

I’m not the answer, forget that I ever was.
I am just an excuse, and ideology,
So that you can wallow in self-pity.  
And victimize all that you are,
But you fall from the sky like a star,
Beautiful, yet destructive.
All you need to do is Just Live.