I had a dream

and you were there

and you floated away
as  i
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for you to come back
for you to stay

I woke and realized
that my dream was a reality

in a haze i walk
waiting for your return

You walked out
What's left to say?
There is a picture in a frame

Its not what I planned
This is not how its supposed to be

You think you can just barge right in
I was fine without you

I had my walls and my barriers letting nobody in
You weren't even a thought
but you just had to reappear

you left accept it
you ruined it all
a fairy tale family
a place to call home

so don't come back
don't ask for a time to explain

you walked out without a reason
don't you DARE
come back with an excuse

I tried to make it better
I tried to give you happiness
But it almost cost me mine
I cried for hours when you gave up
On sisterhood
And friendship
I remembered every good moment
I remembered every funny note
And inside joke
That had become an integral part of me
Those things that made me laugh
Now made me cry
I didn’t understand why
I tried to fight for what was right
For you and I
But the battle was already lost
You had given up
On friendship and us
You say the fights aren’t worth it.
I said they were
But apparently I don’t get a say when it comes to your little games
You told everyone you knew
Didn’t you?
I would know cause I used to be the one you told
So funny how it came full circle
Now people who I used to talk to and laugh with
Won’t even look me in the eye
It’s like you’re a queen
And they the servants
Instead of us all being equals
No one can stand up to Queen Elizabeth
Why did  I even try


P.S. Novacaine by Bon Jovi

I want someone who supports me
No matter what you believe
I want a friend who says I know you did the right thing
I don’t want the friend with the convenient excuses for why you’re not there
Today’s just another day
Where you could have been my friend

Life used to be simple
A box of crayons was all you’d need
Everyone had some
And shared with all
When you got older though
People would take your crayons
Without permission
And never return them
Turning your 24 pack into a 16 pack
Or that cool 96 with the sharpener in the back
To just a box with a sharpener on the back.
The people who used to be your friends
Are now just the ones who took your crayons
Or brought back half a crayon
No one ever said life was easy
But childhood was supposed to be right?
A box of crayons
made life fun
and worthwhile
at least for a little while

Put together
For everyone else
Keeping it together
For everyone else
I look fine
Just like everyone else
My heart is breaking
Just like everyone else
But I am keeping it together
For everyone else