Love sustains/through tough waves/in dreams of fire/abandon the safe/in reality of crushing/on the ground/where pain lays/I prefer the anguish/of trouble and scars/than years of empty/feelings of must/love sustains/because if real/it comes with no mind/straight from the core/of the heart /the feelings unfold/and these are the stories/that deserve to be told

There is no love –
No love is there
Silently
Where I stand
In the promontory
On wet sand

I am erasing traces
Of a hurtful past
Agonized -
By a future that races
And ever ends up last

My mind's a vicious Other
Wants to end the road
Forsake -
Deny my heart's desire
Choke it with a rope

I stand strong willed
Against it
Time I'll bring to nil
For I ll use it as a healer
Whatever's left between

After the sorting's over
I’ll take a solemn breath
Reveal the dusty cover
Examine what is left -
From trust and commitment
After the horrid theft

For time deprives
True vision
If left outside the hives
The sun will cleanse the reason
I stand behind two lives

There I ll see the clear light
That shines eternal truth
My questions will be answered
I will have served my do's

The wind will gust acceptance
Embracing all the love
Becoming the abundance
That I’ve been praying for

Out from the earth I’ll ripen
I will be reborn
My Past and all the future
Entwined, forever even
Never again be torn

How strange it is
now that your love
has left my body -
my heart feels empty

The throbbing of my veins
that signified your heartbeat -
has silenced

The tears that came out
like raging salty rivers from my eyes -
have now dried

Your eyes that used to hide
behind my eyelids and into my ***** -
are now shut

The sun that used to rule
my spirit and inspiration -
has now hid

The words that used to flow
like the endless sea -
have halted

The world has sat still

Time moves no more

It gets lost into the
abyss of the universe

How strange it is
now that your love
has left my body -

My heart feels empty.

The throbbing of my veins
that signified your heartbeat,
has silenced.

The tears that came out
like raging salty rivers
have now dried.

Your eyes that used to hide
behind my eyelids
and into my *****,
are now shut.

The sun that used to rule
my spirit and inspiration,
has now hid.

The words that used to flow
like the endless sea
have halted.

The world has sat still.

Time moves no more.

It gets lost into the
abyss of the universe.

You have gone

Withdrawn your presence -
I have cried alone

In the fields of a dome
For days, weeks, months -
I have walked so long

Staring up at your throne
Feeling so small -
Your violets, a violent thorn

Overpowering my sky
Imposing pain
In the ability of my eye

In awe I gazed up bereft
Decomposed I laid down -
Pieces fell from right to left

I wore hatred of myself as a gown

My words hurt my comfort
With which love is born
So –
I release the effort
and move on

When I stepped in
To end the pain
My presence called the rain

It washed and cleaned the dryness
It soothed the edges
Released the harness

Polished the past

I felt it moving again within me
Pushing and throbbing -
The love was winning

You left but are here
In the silence that I carry
Alone I can hear

Your heart is inside
Has never stopped
To linger and abide

Different strange shape
Unlike what I have known
I welcome the change -
And carry on

No more conflict my love
No more fear of losing whilst winning
No more separation from the essence of my heart
You are there
and always will be...
A beacon of light,
A force of unravelling the veil of my fearful shame
A force of breathing the forgotten beauty of my existence
A feeling of gratefulness
for appearing out of the core of the earth
Just for me
Just for me
I will hold you as my secret keepsake
Never forget you
Always search for your eyes

Out of the dark
Into the sun
My window of perception
It changed behind the burning view
A death, a resurrection

And no one knows what lies beyond
It seems, it feels, it listens
There
Beyond the constant few
That wither with intention

I lay as if of marble
Bright
And still
And built
And heavy
Silently watch the past go deep
Into the whole of empty

My glory faded fast
And gloriously it lingered
Upon a future that went deep
Into the heart’s contentment

Time
How it moves
Inside me
Dragging my soul
Outside
The boundaries
The fortifications
That have been laying there
For centuries
Forever abandoned
Forever beaten

I accept defeat

I'll rise like the Sun
That was taken down
Forever
Reigning the skies
Again and again

My heart
My captain
Will face fear
With polished armor

My love
My sword
You
My King
Forever
At my side
Still
Beyond Time
Forever mine

An error occurred
in my clear vision
I stand blurred

Though feeling hopeful
my heartbeat despaired
despite my forward steps
the path erased

The knowledge acquired
from these effortful years
suddenly failed

I stand and breathe
but inside
my being is impaired

My voice I can speak
without it being heard

All the trophies I gained
are my loss
the only thing that remained

Misguided again
by my well- set watch
enduring compass
and my intuition torch

My knees are trembling
my hands are shaking
from all the asking
myself is lost