they tell me they don't understand
but i tell them they don't understand love

sometimes i wish
my days were better than this

the day you got a letter
with my heart poured out to you
i lied that i was drunk
because i wanted you to think
that you were in my mind even if
my entire self was filled with alcohol

it's so funny
because even if it wasn't the alcohol
i still thought of you
but maybe i just wanted you to think
i thought of you most
when i wasn't sober

the night you chose someone over me, my pillow case felt more pain it ever did before

when i told you i missed you, i meant it so so much

the day i told you to never bother me again, i wanted you to show up at my doorstep and apologize so badly

when you left me, all i could ever think about was you and only you

you probably thought i long forgotten about you but i was stalking you everyday

nothing made me happier when you finally decided to text me

when i told you i loved you, i wanted you to tell me you loved me too

i could die for you, but you've left me, and everyday, i still wonder if you ever think about me

because i think about you, and i can't not think about you

i love you not as a bestfriend but i love you as so much more, too bad you can't see it anyway

there are days
when you wake up
and terrible thoughts flood your mind
the sky is empty
your bus just left
and your friends just don't care

but there are days too
when you wake up
and positive energy radiates
the sky is beautiful
you catch the bus
and your friends are there

and im starting to wonder
that if i think happy thoughts
will everything then be okay?

hello, poetry

they teach me algebra and biology
but all i need to learn are things like
how to make friends
how to fix a broken heart
how to get better
or how to plant a garden