Even if you don't love me I'll still walk away with that love instead of not being loved at all,
i will pick myself up when I fall. Put a piece of myself on the very top of the shelf , take myself down when i need different tools like a man goes through his tool box.
I saw butterfly in hell today, it showed me that beauty exists in suffering.
Tomorrow is not promised,
today will not last forever,
so live life like the hour glass will never run out of sand.
The end of time is miles away, an I'm passing cars at 90 miles, I don't plan on slowing down, the road spans for eternity I'm not worried.
I don't want you to save me, I want you to stand next to me while I save myself.
I need your help to pick the liquor counter up, shooting for the moon, reach and grab the stars that are always shining
Comfort the angels that are always crying... no wonder the rain falls over me.
So god bless thee and the land of eve.
If there's food for thought I'm guilty of greed, mama told me to take what I want. I took me!
Even though you don't love me I'll still walk away with that love instead of not being loved at all,  pick up myself up when I fall and save my own life so I can go out and save another.

I used to love the scars.
I used to love them, and they would comfort me when I was sad.
Now they are only a reason to stop, a preventative measure, something to convince myself to find another way to feel better, but it's not easy.
I used to love the way they looked on my skin,
now I cannot stand them being there. They are unwelcome.
I wish they would leave my skin forever, and I swear I'd never make another. I swear, I would never press that blade to my innocent skin again. I swear, I swear, I swear,
I would find another way to make the sadness leave.

*5.26.13

I lit a cigarette
& saw the end in the flame
I haven't told you yet
But it's probably all the same

So I smoked 'till dawn
& thought about pearly gates
Nothing left to dwell on
I need a touch of grace

I lit a cigarette
& I saw how I'd die
I haven't told you yet
But I'm no good with "goodbye"

there are no words to describe how i feel for you
whenever i try to speak
my throat becomes enclosed
and my words get lost in a giant sea of emotion
there is nothing i want more
than to spend every waking moment by you
counting the beats of your heart
and stripping you down to reveal your inner core
i want to see all your imperfections in high definition
i want to learn what makes you laugh
what makes you cry
and how you got that scar behind your ear
everything you do
every word you say
it gives me hope for the future
presented through love and feeling
for my dear you are all that i have
and all i have am
and without you i am dead
if you were ever to leave
i would simply melt into cracks of the earth
with others i am merely furniture
i observe and i listen
and serve my purpose
but you give me a reason
a reason to live and breathe
and continue you on
my darling you give me life
you are the air in my lungs
the blood in my veins
i want to wipe away your insecurities
as someone as lovely as you
does not deserve to feel the sorrow i do
as i am nothing but an ugly soul encased in a pretty package
and i dare you to open it
there are no words to describe how i feel for you
so please allow me to show you
i love you