This is where I belong
Painting a picture of you and me
In fluorescent technicolor.

Reality is upside down
But that's the way it's supposed to be
When you feel like this for each other.

The water's deep and overwhelming
The excitement of something new
Filling me to the brim.

I will swim through the water
It's eternal depth so rainbow, yet blue
And all I can see is now is you.

Is this a dream?
I'd rather not wake up if it is
I could just sleep like this forever.

I guess this is what you get
When you wait around for the right kiss
Isn't love so slippery and clever?

I've captured it in my hands
Finally letting it take over my heart
And I'll allow it to continue to grow.

I won't let it escape
This is such a wonderful part
Of the story that is my life flow.

Being mildly depressed
Is something that wears out the soul
I bet I could have guessed
That it would begin to take a toll
And though I cannot cry
I still feel the pain
My tears will not dry
Until they fall like rain.

I feel like I'm standing
On a Tower Of Cards
Like I could fall at any moment
My ground collapsing beneath me.

But isn't that how life is?
It could easily be ripped away
As it is given,
Tread lightly, little girl.

But I'm not a little girl
And I don't walk as careless as I use to
I walk cautiously
And tip-toe in all the right places.

So on the top of this Card Tower
I can see the world
And as long as I walk like upon egg shells
It will stay that way.

Just let it out
I want you to
It hurts when you don't
At least it hurts to some people, most people.

Release the tension
From your muscles
Allow desired escapism
To capture your mind.

I'll rub out all the kinks
I promise
I'll help ease the circulation
Of your blood flow.

Breathe deeply
In time with my breaths
Do you feel the energy
Between us?

I can feel it
It bounces from me to you
In a complicated connection
Of webs like a spiders.

Between you and I
I know where I stand
A confidence built
Progression over time.

Do you see it through my eyes?
A shadow cast
Over the light I've spread
An intimidating stretch of black.

Do you feel it like I do?
Bubbling up, boiling over
Glowing like moonlight
Warm like the sun.

The rain that haunts you
It haunts me to
Without prediction it falls
And destroys every endeavor.

Back to the first page
Sometimes you have to read it more than once
A few times
To really understand.

And some don't ever stop reading the same page
The same book
Over and over
Over and over.

But there's always an umbrella
There's my umbrella
And there's always other books
To read.

So let it out
Release the tension
Breathe in time with me
Can you feel it?
I can.

Why aren't you smiling, Sun?
You shine, but you don't smile
In face you seem dimmer today
Would you like to talk for a while?

It seems you drag today
It seems you are down in a hole
You have nothing to say
But the truth has clearly taken a toll.

Can I make you smile today, Sun?
Will you shine on me?
Despite your dimness, you are still warm
Won't you talk to me?

Heal the wound before it hurts
But it will still leave a scar
Brush the ashes under the rug
But it's like keeping them in a jar.

The scar is a reminder
Though you never felt the pain
And the ashes carry a memory
Like a carpet stain.

Let the scar be a part of you
But not what has the say
And don't brush the ashes under the rug
Just let them blow away.

The sun it sets on tonight
It reminds you to let everything go
The day following is new and clean
So just let the good vibes flow.

The sun it sets to remind us
That it's time to go to sleep
But more importantly
It ends the day we try to keep.

Hanging on does you no good
To the day you should probably forget
It only causes you more pain
Then the original regret.

So let the sun set on tonight
And remember tomorrow is a new day
Holding on only makes it worse
Go on, forget about yesterday.

Life is beautiful with you
The flowers smell nicer
The sky is bigger and more blue.

Life is amazing with you
The sun is warmer
The rain is more refreshing and true.

Life is colorful with you
The sunset is prettier
The blossoms are vibrant and brighter.

Life is happy with you
The nights are calmer
The days are silly and lighter.

Life is better with you
You are a light to my world
A reason to my rhymes.

Life is how life should be with you
Everything is promising
Everything is good, even through the bad times.

I just wanted to remind you
Of how much I love you
I write this seemingly love drunk
Hopefully you will see it too.

I wanna wash over you like rain
And kiss your eyelashes like snow
I want to be the grass you lay upon
And the sun that touches you from head to toe.

I wanna be what makes you happy
But also show you where happiness lies
And I wanna be what makes you smile
But show you how to smile when you're happiness dries.

I wanna put your puzzle together
And show you how to do mine
I wanna solve all your problems
And share with you how everything will be fine.

I wanna be a part of you
And touch your face whenever I wish
I wanna hold your hand when I am lost, or you
And grace you with my loving kiss.

I just want to be yours
Even though I all ready am
I wish I could just hand you my very soul
So you can keep it, in your hand.

But I've got to keep a little me to myself
And I recommend that you should do the same
Because if we don't have any secrets
How are we to play the game?

It takes two to do most things
But it's not fun if you know all the steps
I'd like to keep you guessing
And you would, as well for me, I bet.

I think it's appropriate to say
That spending time apart
Is a good way
To bring upon a fresh start.

People hold onto ideas,
Opinions and thoughts.
And when they can't catch a break
They tie things into knots.

All these knots make complications
Which turn into frustrations
That create a complexity
In their current relations.

So when you do get a break
It's suddenly nice
To see someone again
Rather than standing on thin ice.

This is something I've discovered
But now been able to put into words
We shouldn't always be together
Like a flock of birds.

Our migrations should separate
Go their different ways
And maybe they'll cross paths again
Later in our days.

The time apart we should cherish
And learn what we need to know
To form new ideas, opinions and thoughts
And move on from our relation woe.

So I don't take distaste
In the distance that's been created
Our routes will cross again
When the frustrations have dissipated.

All I want is to be something great
I just want to blow everyone away
Can it be that easy?
Is it something I have to say?

All I want is to expand minds
I just want to cause raptures
Can it be that simple?
Will my word be what captures?

Just let me be the star
That I know that I am
As rare as a pearl
You find within a clam.

Just let me be moving
As powerful as a river
Like a creeping on your skin
That causes you to shiver.

I know I'll come
Like a rain in a drought
Surprising, expected
With a sporadic route.

I know I'll come
Like a raging fire
Strong, relentless
Not far from desire.

This is all I want
It's nothing to you
But when I change the way the tide pulls
It's something you might look up to.

There was a time in the world
When things were not the same
They were very different
Even by name.

Everything was backwards here
Sideways or upside down
This world was mixed up
Topsy turvy, twisted around.

The ocean swells started at the shore
And then pulled out to the sea
It's madness, I know!
But this is how it use to be.

Dogs meowed
Whales were in the sky
Cats barked
And birds didn't fly.

Clouds were pink
And grass was blue
Mountains were red
And yellow too.

When people spoke it sounded like music
And when instruments played they could talk
People didn't have faces
And they danced instead of walked.

We kicked people to say hello
Shaking hands was a crime
We had fingers instead of toes
It was such a strange, strange time!

Nobody wore any clothes
And had no hair on their head
We didn't wash with water
But bathed in mud instead.

They say the world changed
When a meteor fell from space
Creating a cosmic boom
That put things out of place.

Now here were are today
Thinking everything here is how it should be
But there once was a time before this
When everything worked differently.

So there was a time in the world
Before our time now
When everything was different
Including the why and how.

Everything was backwards here
Sideways or upside down
This world was mixed up
Topsy turvy, twisted around.

I'm not very good at this
Explaining myself and what I do
Deciphering my emotions
Deciding what is wrong and what is true.

So let's start with the no
And later with the yes
One means "Absolutely!"
And the other a "I guess"

It's a bit confusing
But I know you'll understand
If maybe I write it down
To lend you a helping hand.

When I say maybe
I really don't have a clue
Of what or how I feel
And what we should do.

So back to yes it's simple
When it doesn't mean yes
It's probably a "No"
Or a "Not quite yet."

When you cross all the I's
And dot the T's
Everything is spelled correct
And really easy to read.

But if you don't speak my language
Because I'm afraid you aren't me
And you definitely aren't a girl
I'm sorry, but that's how it has to be.

And when I'm mad I'm not really mad
Or I'm very *******
Though I probably won't tell you
But clear my throat and cough.

Because when I'm nervous I fidget
And it's obvious to most
That I'm afraid to give a straight answer
For what I fear might come too close.

I don't like getting yelled at
In fact it's usually the response
That I get when I speak openly
And tell of all my wants.

But I have to learn
That you can't always be afraid
It's only more problematic
And expands the mess I made.

So I should just speak my mind
I will try, when I can
And tell you a direct answer
So that you understand.

Because I probably just boggle you
Twist you up and confuse you
Turn you upside down
Even though I don't mean to.

So sometimes yes means no
And other times no means yes
And when I say maybe
That's usually a I guess.

So that is half of the time
But even that's not completely true
I guess I could try a little harder
And break it down for you.

So yes is sometimes maybe
And no is always no
But maybe is absolutely
And I guess, is what you should watch out for.

Because when I say I guess
I really mean no, never
Unless I'm smiling
Then we can do it together.

I'm having a hard time explaining
I'm sure you can see
Maybe there's no use in trying
In figuring out me.

But I give you lots of credit
And lots of kisses too
Cause you've got it down pretty good
Probably better than I do.

So I'll stop trying to explain myself
It seems to be a waste of time
I'm only making it more confusing
By writing this rhyme.

I think you've got your head up in the clouds
And it's time to come down
You're not making me proud
Can't you tell by my frown?

You're fading quickly, I see it
I don't wanna watch you burn your life away
You're choking on the bit
I guess tomorrow is another day.

You can always try
Don't give up, don't tap out
You secretly want to say goodbye
But you don't want to face the drought.

I miss the you you use to be
I miss the smile on your face
I just want to see you free
Away from this place.

I wish I could get you out
I wish I could save you some how
But you have to defeat your own doubt
I just can't help you now.

You'll pull me down with you
So I have to leave you behind
This is the conclusion I've come to
And it hurts, so I find.

It has to be this way
This is my love speaking
I guess tomorrow is another day
For you to find what you're seeking.

His scent it lingers
Like a pheromone, there
I kissed him gently
And stroked his hair.

His taste is on my lips
I did not wish to part
It was a moment long enough
To flutter the beating of my heart.

His vivid memory in my mind
Brings me to write out my adoration
His smile feeds mine
And I am to be patient..

Until I see him again
And grace his lips with my kiss
I'll think about him every day
'Til a moment like this, he, I will miss.

My mom didn't warn me about guys like you
In fact I don't think she knew
That any of you existed
Anymore.

But I don't think she has anything to be afraid of
No I don't think she would have warned me
I think she would have encouraged me
All along the way.

But here we are
We're holding each other close
And I'm whispering to you
That I love you.

When you whisper it back
I feel this something in my heart
Flesh out and resonate
Towards you.

I just wanna trap you
That sounds a little weird, I know
But I wanna trap you
In my arms forever.

Or maybe I'll just take you by the hand
And go out on the dance floor
Cause you know I can't do it without you
And if I hadn't  said yes, you would have dragged me.

I would have kicked and screamed
The whole way
But would that really get us anywhere?
Would that really make it any easier?

But I told you I wasn't easy
Like when I told you I wouldn't let you have me
The first night
That one night
The night I kissed you
For the first time.

And I'm sure you've noticed
That nothing is easy with me
I'm quite the cookie to crack
Cause instead of cracking I might crumble.

Into a million little pieces
Then what would you do?

I don't know what I'd do
Cause in the pieces I'd lose my brain
My mind would up and run away
And my body would be lifeless.

But it's okay
Everyone makes mistakes sometimes
And if I crumble instead of cracking
You better put me back together
Because I spent all these ******* years
Actually I believe it was my whole life
--Being broken
And I'm not about to give up all those years (my whole **** life)
Willingly, or easily.

And like I said
I'm not easy
And I never will be
But I guess that makes things interesting.
Doesn't it?

Craved** by all the sinners. All the ****** and all the thieves.
Craved by all the men, who wanted more than a just a peek. She was
Craved by the druggies, being their substance in the form of a human. And she was
Craved by all the purest, being their goddess in their search for more than an illusion. She was none of these things that they
Craved and yet partially these things in some way. But whatever she was, they all seemed so enticed, and
Craved her even more than they ever
Craved life.

I’m falling through the sky
As time quickly passes by
The blood ribbons fall from my wrists
My heart is aching and my stomach twists.

You think you know me, but you don't
You think you feel for me, but you won't
You have your world and your own life
And I have this darkness and a knife.

You're always smiling every day
I'm always crying the pain away
You pick me up when I fall
But throw me down when I can't handle it all.

I'm the sinner, you're the saint
You cover mistakes, with white paint
But my mistakes can't seem to hide
Because my words are colored tie-dye.

You think you're cool, but you're not
You think I'm stupid, but I’m really caught
Caught in the tide of the sea
The sea of emotion, but you won't carry me.

You make me feel like I am dead
But I still bleed the color red
Why does my heart ache like this so?
Because you're my mother, and I can't tell you to go.

This is the happiest I've ever been
No doubt in my mind
I can't control my smiles
If only I could stop the time

Right in this moment with you
Your lips to mine
The world it stops turning
Everything is so, so.. so **** fine

And all this bubbling in my stomach
My hearts up in my throat
Not in the bad way
But the kind of way that you know:

You're in love
Everything is seen in a new light
With brighter colors
And a fresh-headed sight

I pull the good from the bad
Unlike times before
Because the happiness I had lacked
Is now prominently present, ever more.

I see that when things are down
It's only the dark side of the moon
The other half of the circle
The pain, then the pleasure comes soon.

You can't have one without the other
But with the one you see the light
In every dark corner
You see it all as right.

Love, love, love, love
So much of it right here in my heart
It covers all my pain with floral print
Showing the light in the dark.

Defeating all my battles
Climbing every rock
Though I'm getting higher
I fear the tick of the clock.

But I feel like time stops with you
Even as every day passes by
And every moment we have, or to be had
Will be amazing and divine.

This is my personal card
Of course from me to you
This was kind of hard
Since there's so many words to use.

Though nothing can express
What a mother you have been
Yes, sometimes things can be a mess
But quickly we get over our sin.

I love you more than anything
And nothing will ever change that
For you and I, we have this string
The holds us back to back.

Both sides want the same thing
But in different ways
Who knows what this love will bring
We will have the watch the days...

Both sides so opposite
And yet so the same
But grab you mitt
Let's play this game.

This game of love and trust
This game of daughter and mother
This game is such a must
This game is against one another.

But why can't we be a team?
Get along, like we should
Why can 't things be peachy keen?
I bet if we tried, we could...

But things can be so much fun this way
You sure have taught me a lot
For tomorrow's just another day
Time cannot be bought.

So we better spend it right
Go out and have some fun
Let's try not to fight
So put down you're pointless gun.

Yes.. Challenges may come our way
Our love will beat them down flat
So be prepared for my play
Because I'm up to bat.

So this poem of our opposite teams
Is so completely true
And yet we support each others dreams
We just don't tell each other we do.

This might be a bit confusing
But this entire thing is right
I bet it's a bit amusing
When we think back to our fights.

I love you, I really do
So please except this gift
Yes, from me to you
Don't show anyone this poem, even if you can't resist.

There are so many things I wish I could say
Wish I could describe
In a perfect way
That everyone could understand me.

And I know not everyone thinks the same
As I do, every day
It's a complicated distance that I came
To get to where I am.

I walked a many desert storms
In bare feet with the ground so hot
I could have been lost though I was reborn
From the journey of the dry.

I swam a many oceans stretched
Naked and freezing
I could have drowned but something I fetched
In the water saved my life.

I climbed a many mountains high
Without protection of stable ground
The incline uprising like my sigh
But my luck kept me from falling.

Or maybe it was God's gracious light
Watching over me
Or maybe fate just didn't want to take me that night
I'm not so sure, but I am pleased.

Cause my life has been a journey
Of uphills, downhills
Falls and climbs
But here I am today
Walking along this line--
Through life.

It's like poison to my soul
Being here
Captivated by toxic.

I cry every time
The taste of sweet nectar
Fading from my lips when I return.

Why don't they taste their own bitter hearts?
Why can't they die, like I, from the venom in their mouths?
Don't they feel the weight on their shoulders?

I hate it
I hate it so much it hurts
I hate it so much that I cry
Every time.

Take a look at me.
What do you see?
You see somebody,
But you see the girl I used to be.

I am not that little girl anymore,
The one with the tears always in her eyes.
I am not that little girl anymore,
The one with a mouth full of lies.

I am all grown up now,
Maybe not as old as you,
But I surely know,
How to run my life like I ought to.

You think you know me,
And my ways,
But you don’t know me,
I have changed since those days.

I know I used to lie and cry,
Scream and yell,
But that part of me has gone by,
And this what I have to tell.

I am stronger now,
Maybe not better than you,
But you can not tell me,
How I should be and what I should do.

I do not need to cry those tears anymore,
The ones you caused me to shed from your abuse.
You had picked a fight with me that turned in to a war,
But now I am calling a truce.

You are not better than me,
I am not better than you,
But I know I can be,
Someone without you trying to lead me through.

I have cut your noose from my throat,
And I just want to say:
That I have the hope,
And the power to walk away.

So good-bye, good-bye,
To the old girl I used to be,
To you and your tie,
That kept me from being me.

Now take a look at me,
What do you see?
I hope you don’t see that somebody,
That girl I used to be.

The taste of blood on your tongue
Your eyes gazing into twilight
Chills dance across your flesh
Your thoughts and heart racing wild

Sinking your feet into the sand
You stretch your arms to embrace the dark
Closing your eyes you imagine:
A whole new world

Skin scarred and wounded
Heart, broken and torn
Memories ruined
With so much to mourn
Eyes bloodshot from lack of sleep
Crimson ribbons trailing from fresh slashes

Not a suicide attempt, no
But a way to release it all
Laying there on silk sheets
Lifeless to any call

You don't see the light yet
But you wish you could
You don't see the one yet
Your then eyes open to the world..

Tasteless
Black and white
Silence
With no light
Naked
Icy flesh
Speechless
Alone in this mess

Again..

A world surrounded in barbed wire
And thorns
No color
No life

I don't think you see yourself
The way I see you
Do you see what you're made of?
Do you see what you can do?

I feel like maybe you're blind
Or lack some kind of confidence
But I think you can do everything
So you should stop being so tense.

Can't you see yourself?
You do everything with this kind of grace
That people come to you
To find their place.

Even I have come to you
To find where I belong
You've pointed me in the right direction
The direction I knew all along.

It's okay to be arrogant
Because more or less, you're always right
I think you should apply your greatness
And let yourself shine bright.

Don't hold yourself back any longer
Quit hanging onto your fears
Because you should be who you really are
Have you taken a look in the mirror?

You're ******* beautiful, okay?
What more can I say?
And you're going places
You're well on your way.

Don't let anyone or anything
Halt you in your plight
I'll be right here by your side
Helping you put up a fight.

Because you deserve a good life
So you can really grow
And spread out your seed
So that everyone will know what you know.

But first you have to conquer yourself
And I'm telling you right now
Don't be afraid, of you, what you're capable of
Because really, you're a 'wow.'

I wish I could make a list
That would convince you
Of how great you really are
And all the things you can do.

But you don't need that
Because I'm sure you all ready have found out
That you're gonna do great things
Even if you have the doubt.

I just wanna tell you that I''m not behind you
In all that you do
But beside you through this endeavor
To first conquer you.

Because before you can challenge the world
You first have to challenge you
And once you do that
You'll know all you need to get through.

So don't get offended
Or turned off by my words
This is only half of what I feel
And only part of what I've learned.

And I know you can do it
I know it in my heart
Because I can see you
See who you really are.

The sky captures my heart
Stabilizing it's sporadic beat
When things start spinning out of control
Looking up will keep me on my feet

It's always the same
At least for my lifetime
And when everything is changing
The sky is a reason to the  chaotic rhyme

The mass is stretched
The stars a scatter
The moon glows bright
It all quiets my inner chatter

There's something calming
About it's existence
Always there
Without resistance

It adds a color to the world
Whether day or night
The stars showing you're not alone
Or the sun shining bright

Clouds showing how it breathes
Rain expressing it's pain
Thunder the sound of it's cries
Lightning striking angry, announcing it's name

The sky is above us
And will always be around
As long as we live
It will keep us earth bound

And with it we will know
That it will always be
Consistent and stable
When everything else is changing freely.

Howling at the moon
I think is what I was doing
It wasn't too soon
I was losing control.

Cause really I'm an animal
Whether it be a dog or a cat
I'm wild and unpredictable
It's in my true nature.

I usually repress it all
And keep it locked inside
But that night I began to call
To who I really am.

Yipping, yowling
Growling, barking
Purring, howling.

That is true to myself
This wild beast inside
It's something I can't help
And I won't hide it away.

Besides, sounds are so much more appealing
For moments when you lose yourself
Words just aren't as revealing
To what you are feeling.

Yip, yip.

Everything is out of control
I feel like I've lost my mind
I have to sort through all the pieces
And gain control of the time.

My brain practically exploded
I might be past the point of no return
Or maybe I'm just being dramatic
I can't be too sure.

So many emotions
So many words as well
I can't speak any of them
Everything is so hard, I'm sure you can tell.

I'll just put the pieces back together
Thought I'm missing a few
Pull myself up off the floor
This is just another dark tunnel to walk through.

On my feet.  I'll keep going.

This world is not mine
I emerged from a magic mirror
And coming here to find
That my vision is clearer.

This is where I come to escape
Flower fields and tall trees
Butterflies surround a lake
It's beauty a sense of release.

This world is not mine to keep
But I can visit it any time
This is all what I dream when I sleep
Somewhere to hold my sanity in line.

When I rise
I feel renewed
And forgetting all my stressful ties
I feel like I can get through...

Life.
And visit the magic mirror again tonight.

I'm not even really sure what to say
Or how I should explain
Today is Father's day
And I've always had this pain.

It's right here in my heart
And I'll never let it go
Even though we've been apart
I can still feel it so.

It's not the easiest thing
To know you're gone today
I'm still hurting
And this is what I've wanted to say:

I know you left when I was little
But that's not what this is about
You didn't want us to be caught in the middle
And I've never had my doubt.

You had a reason to leave
And I accept this now
Though it was always hard to believe
That you could just walk out.

But that's what being a dad is like
You make big decisions on behalf of your offspring
And that was the right choice to better our life
And alleviate some -could be- lifetime suffering.

Though I still had lots of tears
I trust your decision was right
And after all these years
I now see with God's sight:

This was meant to ensue
You were meant to pass away
We were meant to live without you
And life goes on anyway.

I love you more than you know
And that will never change
Though I didn't want you to go
I have to except this new pain.

It helps me realize a lot of things
A lot of truths and rights
I know that God sometimes brings
Obstacles that we have to fight.

So now you know my thoughts
I wrote this for you
And I completely love you lots
And I know you love me too.

Besides all the mistakes
And the big choices you made
I won't slam the brakes
On my own life today.

I'll keep strong
And celebrate this holiday
Smile even when I feel wrong
Cause today is Father's day.

No reason to frown
You were a good man, and still are in my heart
I won't let this day bring me down
Because that's what you've wanted from the start.

You've just wanted us to be happy and safe
That was your plan from the get-go
And with all the dilemmas in the first place
Your choice made us happier even so.

I love you even though I don't feasibly know you
And love you now that you're gone
So I guess you knew that this decision was right to do
Because what happened is what you wanted all along.

Just let me cry for a little while
Let me be something of glum
Sometimes I feel this pain
And I just have to let it out.

Most don't understand it
But I don't expect them to
Even though I want them to
But all that matters is you.

And even though I feel so down
I let you come around
And letting you come around
Allows me to get back up.

But spending time in this hole
That I've dug all on my own
Guides me to deciding
What it is that I'm about.

Cause I have all these things
That I wanna be, I wanna do
That I think I am
But really all that's there is blue.

And the blue is like the sky
But the blue is also like the ocean
As well as like the sadness
And like the tears that I cry.

So many shades of blue
So many, so many!
But it's time for a new hue
Just a change of color would be nice.

It's gonna take everything I have
And everything I am
And everything that I could be
To get there.

But when I'm there
It's gonna be good
It'll be fantastic
And no one will be able to stop me then.

So I've just gotta get there
And get out of this hole
But like I said:
I've gotta be in this hole to figure it all out.

But I'll figure it all out
You'll see.

You are bright and full of life,
You line the sky with orange light,
Full of warmth and sunny rays,
You end the night and make our days.

You always rise from behind hills,
You help the flowers on the window sills,
You are more eternal than life itself,
Forever rising without help.

You mark our days with guiding light,
God created you, to give us sight,
We plan our days around you,
And no matter what, you're never blue.

Without you we cannot see,
Without you then we would freeze,
Without you we'd have no plants,
You are the sun, and for you we dance.

I think about you all the time
All through out the day
Anytime I'm not with you
And even when we're together.

You're always on my mind
It doesn't matter what I'm thinking about
You're always there
In the background of my thoughts.

I can't get you out of my head
I just keep thinking about you
Anything that has to do with you
And everything you are.

Do you grasp,
How attached to you I am?
How important you are to me?
Or how I've made this special place in my heart, for you?

I wanna be with you
All the time
I wanna touch you
All the time.

You don't need to be protected
I know
But I'll be here
Shielding you from harm.

Even as you may get hurt
Or broken
I'll bandage you up, carefully
And love you  still.

Wrap my arms around you
And let you feel my heart
It beats for you
Only you.

And this might be startling
I'm kind of put off myself
But I love you, so much
That it's a part of everything I am.
And everything I will be.
Like a web: it's all connected.

So take me as I am
Just take me!
I don't want anyone else to have me
But you.

I feel inspired
But it's hard to write
When I have so many words in my head
And a foggy, blocked sight.

All these revelations
Epiphanies and truths
But I can't find the words
To explain them from their roots.

It's not that simple for me
No, not today
The structure evades me
Making my song hard to say.

I guess I know everything
At least inside my head
A deep profound understanding
Like the color red.

I could say I know why
The flowers bloom in the spring
Or how we learned to speak
And what love has to bring.

But really the true knowledge
Is realizing what you know
Is really something no more than nothing
And what it has to show.

It's everything you've always known
And the little voice in your mind
That tingle in your toes
And when your heart beats out of rhyme.

It's what you've always wanted to say
And everything you've wanted to do
What I really know
Is nothing more than you.

It's what makes you look up
Instead of looking down
And what makes you smile
Or what makes you frown.

It's when you cry so hard you laugh
And when you laugh so hard you cry
It's those secrets you see in the mirror
And those motto's you live by.

I don't know anything more than you
I just express it well
Instead of locking it inside
And wishing things were swell.

So really what I've been trying to write
Though I've written many lines
Is that everyone knows something
It's just whether or not they've realized.

When I use to look in the mirror
I didn't see pretty
In fact I didn't see me
Or anything beautiful at all.

I'd pick myself apart
Piece by piece
Bring myself to tears
Sob and bawl.

It's not that I hated myself
I just didn't see anything I liked
But I've come to learn it's not about me
And what I see.

If I can see what you see
Then it doesn't matter what I think
Because to you I'm beautiful
And that's all I have to be.

You appreciate every part of me
Every curve, every limb
Even when I'm not feeling so pretty
You're dying to get me bare.

And that's a nice thing to be
I can't really argue with that
Cause now I see what you see
Which is completely fair.

So when I look in the mirror
I don't have to think twice
About my beauty
About my soul.

And when I look in the mirror
I see everything you see
Even if I'm still a little shy
I accept me as a whole.

All thanks to you
I see me
I don't have to pick myself apart anymore.

I'll capture your soul in a jar
and keep it close to me
I'll carry it a distance so far
and set it by the sea.

Your soul will glow and gleam
and yearn to be let out
I'll open the lid and beam
let you be free and flit about.

From the city I rescued you
from all the pain and sorrow
By the sea will do
and we will leave back home tomorrow.

But for now we will cherish this
a moment for your soul and mine
To wrap around each other in bliss
by the sea, for a short time.

The stars begin twinkling above us
the ocean waves ride low and high
We watch the moon after dusk
and dance in it's light.

The water at our feet
cold and freezing but we don't care
Because our love is our heat
keeping us warm when we're bare.

At sunrise I return you to your jar
and carry you close to my chest
For next year we will travel this far
To this place in the west.

My one day with you
I cherish it all year long
I wish there was more we could do
to be together like music and lyrics of song.

But this is all we have
so I am thankful for it
Hopeful that our love will last
I don't know about you, but I won't quit.

So next year I can't wait
To be with you again
The time that passes I so very hate
But it will be worth it in the end.

It was a moment we shared
That held more power than I'll ever understand
A moment we shared
So enlightening, so magical.

The water was rushing
Over our naked forms
And we're face to face
In this moment.

I didn't expect anything
That happened
To happen like that
It was something special.

You're voice is so profound
So beautiful, so amazing
I could feel your power
All over me, within me.

Our foreheads pressed together
My breath is heavy but controlled
Because I feel so clean
So refreshed and reborn.

In this moment
Visuals pass behind my eyelids
I could never recreate what I saw
But I'm sure you could feel it.

When you were through
Chanting to my very soul
I don't think I've ever felt so alive
I don't have the words to describe..

I huddled down into the water
Because it, I had become
Prior to this moment
And it cleansed my everything.

When I opened my eyes
I realized, I was crying
Cause what you did
Made me feel a new rapture of emotion.

I could tell you what this did to me
But there's no way to really tell someone lightly
That you don't want anyone else
But them.

And there's no easy way to put
That you feel like your very essence
Is tied to theirs, after this moment
And you won't let them go.

I don't just understand you now
I know you
I don't just watch you
I'm with you.

You don't have to explain yourself to me anymore
And I don't have to try to understand
But really I'm confused
Cause now I know.

I more than know
I am.

I am there with you.

I remember when I was young
My life was like a ride on a swing
And my heart it always sung
With the joy the ups would bring.

But when the swing would ride down
My heart would no longer soar
It was almost unsettling
The depression overtaking my core.

The swing would go up
The swing would go down
Fill up my cup
And then pour it out.

Unnerving
Exhilarating
Painful
Complicating.

Up and down
Happy and sad
Continuous motion
From good to bad.

But little did I know
A swing ride isn't forever
You can easily jump off
And release your tether..

To the ups and downs.

A bird caught from the wild
And trapped in a cage
You have to let her go
Free from the bars.

She doesn't want to be trapped
Inside this lonely cage
Open the door and let her fly home
Up into the stars.

And like a leaf in the wind
She glides to wherever it leads
Her wings open wide
Riding the circulation of air.

The destination she finds
Is the one that she seeks
And landing to her new home
She becomes a pair.

Being a pair she is happy and fulfilled
Her heart beating along side another
The love she has grows
Keeps growing and expanding.

For with her partner she is content
And she flies storms for her lover
He won't cage her in
This kind of love is withstanding.

It's hard to put into words how I feel
But I'm sure everyone feels something the same
Though some hurt more than others
We're sharing the same pain.

None of us walk alone
We're in this together
We'll keep his memory alive
Keep it going, forever.

Though I'd like to say I can relate
I can never really imagine how he felt
But I know he's in a better place
This is just how the cards have been dealt.

Stay strong, my friends
I love you guys beyond the sky
And I'm here for all of you
I won't let you simply pass by.

Now remember Dean with a smile
Remember him with a laugh
Remember all the good times
Even though we can't have him back.

We'll see him in the afterlife
I know this is true
Rest in Paradise, Dean,  my friend
We all love you.